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Numb, even sadness

by disgusting 11/19/2015

written by disgusting

I don’t know what to think. I’ve been drinking to dull the pain. Now, I can’t drink much because it hurts my stomach, so I just sip it, little by little. I’ve had this four loko for 3-4 days now.

I’ve been in and out of chanting since I began because I’m so tired all the time and find it hard to commit to any religious practice. I’ve come to believe it’s real, though. It numbs me ever so slightly too.

None of this has been his doing. I’m sad, lonely, hurting, and numb on my own this time. I borrowed the iPad from work to get […]

11/19/2015 14 comments

Any word on Salt?

by Snow Fox 11/18/2015

written by Snow Fox

I know Salt posted a little while ago, and it seemed he was on his way over to the other side. I’m just curious, has anyone who speaks to him more often than I (which is pretty much never), heard anything? I’ve always gained inspiration from him, through my different alias here, and the world have lost a brilliant soul. He was a great man, and if he did finish the journey, I hope he is finally at peace. Thanks guys.

11/18/2015 14 comments

My Love 2: Rebound

by RT :) 11/17/2015

written by RT :)

I grown into a young man, full of youth, enjoyment and had such a persona that I had the ability of standing out among a bunch of people, yes i was eccentric.

During my time of studies something happened to me that would last its mark to the rest of my life. I spent months in fear, months; in asking the question that why it happened to me the way i did, but there was no answer. My brain activated a survival response and i fell in love with fear, itself.

She was in my class. She was as fine and lovable as an Angel, i wanted […]

11/17/2015 3 comments

I suck at life

by disgusting 11/15/2015

written by disgusting

That’s nothing new… hundreds of YouTube trolls told me that long ago. Anyway, I begged and kept on about trying to hang with the guy I like and I’m at the place he’s living now and about 8 people live here. Naturally there’s not much interaction and I’ve talked more to the other friend who does graphics design for a living and we compared work and gave tips to each other. And I’m staring at him like the piece of meat he is. Like a fat kid looking into a bakery when it’s closed for the night… looking at him and being unable to deny […]

11/15/2015 1 comment

No one could ever care about me

by disgusting 11/13/2015

written by disgusting

Watch video drinking, pissed, hurt, lied to, too fat and ugly to ever be someone that a man would want to spend time with

https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B4aJmFQM7MPdSWI4SEkxNFpsUDQ/view?usp=docslist_api

11/13/2015 0 comment

Suffering

by disgusting 11/10/2015

written by disgusting

I briefly saw the post today about wishing you had cancer, and have seen people here before talk about how unfair it is that those who want to die are perfectly healthy while people who have it all do die.

That’s sort of what a friend of mine has been going through for a long time lately. This friend doesn’t want to die and isn’t suicidal. He’s the 13 yr old gay kid I met when I was 18 and took on as my kid brother. Even though I haven’t seen him in about 18 years, he is and always will be my brother, blood or […]

11/10/2015 5 comments

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by disgusting 11/10/2015

written by disgusting

Because they don’t make memes that say “I’m single because I’m holding out for a perfect 10 under 100 lbs with 0% body fat that’s super gorgeous that every man would die for and I want her to agree with me on everything and be open to swinging but otherwise never cheat on me.”

Yes he posted that meme and he posts tons of others like it.

11/10/2015 17 comments

Riddle Me This

by Zetsumei 11/10/2015

written by Zetsumei

Earlier in the day, my counselor mentioned something about “learned optimism” which I don’t comprehend. I don’t think being optimistic will benefit me when it is counterproductive to my desire. The thing I desire the most is sleep that will last forever; simply because I find living to be too troublesome. So, what reason is there for a man who cares not of human desires nor of universal events to breathe? In a world that shuns inactivity, happiness is only a delusion for people like me. I pray there is no one like me in the whole, entire world since this is a fate far […]

11/10/2015 5 comments

From the bottom of my heart, I see a man I wanna be but couldn’t be.

by Rotted_Flesh 11/8/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

You want me to be the best that I could be
When you never showed me the very best that you could be.
From the bottom of my heart,
I see a man I wanna be but couldn’t be.
You are nothing like me.

I know you’re watching me watch you fail.
I can see the look in your eyes, you’re getting pale.
Please lose your blues or know that I don’t give a fuck, I could live without you.
Please lose your blues.

Time and time again I wanted to tell you I love you,
I forgive you, but I can’t hold you.
Oh god what […]

11/8/2015 2 comments

I dont know anymore…

by lostinthedesert 11/5/2015

written by lostinthedesert

*sigh*, I don’t even know how to begin. It’s not in our Hispanic culture to give up or speak about our feeling so I don’t know how to start this post.

I’ve always had thoughts of ending my life, but I’ve always been able to suppress them and put them in a corner. Now I just thought of giving up. I am 19 years old, fresh out of high school with no sense of purpose. I work 10 hour days which give me alot of time to think. I think about all my friends who have gone on to college and to […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

Protected: To Everyone…

by daitya1989 11/3/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/3/2015 4 comments

The most miserable day of the year

by disgusting 10/31/2015

written by disgusting

Halloween used to be my favorite day of the year and the fall used to be my favorite time of year but it’s managed to be miserable every year since 2011 when my first cat was sick and dying.

But right now I feel the most horrible. I feel sick to my stomach out of pure misery, sadness, depression and loneliness. I can’t say I feel like no one gives a fuck about me because I know that no one gives a fuck about me. I’m going to end up alone and homeless just like the universe and God intended from my very conception.

I’m all alone […]

10/31/2015 5 comments

PART 2

by jano.11 10/30/2015

written by jano.11

and he was online … she was too .. he said “hey” and ever since they are talking on Facebook .. she was having a foot injury out of something stupid that caused a metal piece .. get sticked into her foot .. she told him that , he said ” I feel really bad when a beautiful girls like you get hurt” ..
they kept talking for a days .. and then she said .. I’m going out tomorrow to the collage .. if you wants to go with me give me your phone number .. and he does .. and they kept talking […]

10/30/2015 0 comment

Untouchable, Unreachable, Unobtainable

by disgusting 10/25/2015

written by disgusting

I’ve come to the same conclusion as I did probably a good 15+ years ago. The guy I had loved so deeply is completely unobtainable. ALL MEN over 6ft tall and over 200 lbs are absolutely untouchable, unreachable and unobtainable. They all will only be with the skinniest, smallest, tiniest, anorexic looking women. He’s no exception. No one will ever love him like I could. To him, looks are what defines love. It’s love if he can get into her looks. I care, and hate to leave him on his own with what he faces in life, but he leaves me no choice. I’m too […]

10/25/2015 12 comments

Only one for today, but it’s a long one

by thelost 10/24/2015

written by thelost

There is, and always has been two worlds, and in the centuries man has existed, very few have had the fortitude to walk them both. This is the story of one such traveler.

The boy was alone in his room, the lights off, and his shades drawn. He loved the intoxicating darkness. He knew that to be here was to be ready to go to the other place. This other place is only two steps away when he’s in this room. He took the first step.

The Outside was dark, but he knew it would be. He preferred the darkness; it left him feeling cold. There […]

10/24/2015 2 comments

I can’t stand it anymore

by disgusting 10/24/2015

written by disgusting

I can’t stand being in love with the most gorgeous and sexiest man alive because he’s untouchable and is forever doing everything in his power to find the girl that fits his mile long checklist of criteria she would have to meet to be perfect in his eyes, when I’m right here by his side wishing I could touch him. This is torture and I can’t turn off my feelings because I’m so close to him and I’ve never been so close to anyone before. I really wish it would go away or that I could switch it off. It still makes me want to […]

10/24/2015 7 comments

She

by thelost 10/23/2015

written by thelost

Warning Explic… Wait, why the fuck am I warning you people about graphic material? You’re big boys and girls. And if you aren’t I am honestly very sorry you are on this site.

She is beautiful. Oh she is not at her best at this moment, no. She wears no makeup on her face, her hair is simply pulled back in a sloppy ponytail, her nails with polish peeling off, and her outfit a menagerie of the most comfortable items in her wardrobe. Yet this woman is stunning. Her kind smile flashes quickly and easily, her hair still soft and flowing in the wind, her hands […]

10/23/2015 3 comments

Thank you, Sir ;)

by Take a Deep Breath 10/12/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

I just want to say thank you to a man who has been an incredibly positive, supportive person for me in the past week or so. You are the reason I woke up this morning and realized that I can be beautiful and intelligent and sexy and loved and wanted. Do you know, love, how long it has been since I felt like this? Wait, I never have heh. So thank you, sir ;), you know who you are, for your love, compliments, kind words and advice. I think I may forever be in your debt- and I’m ok with that 🙂 I hope you […]

10/12/2015 8 comments

It’s not you. It’s just me.

by mranony 9/30/2015

written by mranony

Things I hate about my depression.

I can’t focus at all.
Feeling really empty and guilty
The domino effect. Bad things happen after another because I decided to skip a day and just lay down.
The constant thought of dying.
The sudden panic attacks or just the feeling of being on the edge of a cliff. Just there. Not falling but not exactly okay. Then breaking down.
Even though I’ve thought of changing, my body won’t listen.
Can’t eat normally. Hungry but will feel uneasy after two to three bites.
Being blind to good things.
Anxiety, man…
Worst of all is that I made my mom disappointed at herself.

I appreciate my mom sending me inspirational […]

9/30/2015 10 comments

This World is Rotten and Filled With Rotten People

by arik 9/27/2015

written by arik

If life is typified by the apple, then at its core festers a great rot that eats it from within. A rot that has been ignored far too long.

I will create a world that is filled with kind people, even if it means I have to be the only monster left.

I do not care whether you are man or woman. I do not care what the colour of your skin is. I do not care what your beliefs are. The instant you step on the life of another, the moment you take advantage of another human being, much less bring them to the brink of […]

9/27/2015 28 comments

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