I posted a while back explaining a lot of what has been happening that has driven me back into a depression i had finally escaped last summer. I’ve been trying to figure out who i am to see if maybe i can convince myself that i actually deserve this life i’ve been given. But i honestly don’t know who i am, and i don’t think i ever did. I put a mask on when i was young so no one would see that i was slowly dying inside, and i lost whoever i was to this mask. I feel almost no emotions anymore, i force […]
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I am a person who has destoyed so many people throughout my adult life. I met my husband and he was married at the time, I got pregnant. He did not have a good marriage, or so I was told. He left his family for me, and we had our baby.  He still had his family, and his children came around at first, but that ended rather quickly. So we had another baby a year and a half later, and we had our family. His parents did not want anything to do with us, which I completely understood. I was hurt, because I was lied […]
many people need a loving partner, to be told they matter and accepted as they are
some may see this need as a drawback, but it in my opinion is a good thing: they still have some hope left, hope in the fact life will give them that special person
sometimes, hope can be enough to keep you going
I’m not sure that I care if I matter to someone .. all I know is I need some money to escape my current situation
plus, money equals freedom these days
I am not one for showing my true feelings to the general public. I consider myself to have gone completely numb on the inside but nobody could ever tell thanks to my happy personality which I fake just so I do not have to answer questions regarding my true life. I thought once I got out of high school my life would be a bit different, it is in some ways but not everything is peachy. I have been physically and mentally abused by my mom since I was born and I am 21 now and it still continues. According to her I am worthless, […]
My name is will and im 21 years old, born and raised is leicester-England.
I have been signed up to this site for a long time as i found strength from it, so many people have vented their frustration and the Samaritans or people who have been through and recovered from the same type of problems have ansered….in the past few months i have found streanth in this but now i am fucked.
i m sick of the anxiety i cannot be around people let alone make friends i cut myself daily even though i find it pathetic and stupid.
my dad is a misogynist who beat his wife and kids, which made […]
Wishing. Hoping. Dreaming. Longing. Living. Breathing. Smiling. Laughing. Hurting. Wanting. Crying. Walking. Waking. Anything and everything. I’m so tired. Emotionally, psychically, mentally, any way possible. I don’t know what to do or who to go to, I don’t know what the meaning of living is anymore. I don’t know what the point it. So many people have it worse than me, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. It doesn’t fix anything. Everything hurts. I’m torn down, broken, sad, no. More than sad. There’s no words for it. I have absolutely no motivation. I’m so emotionally numb to everyone and everything. I don’t know what […]
Against suicide that is.
Why is it considered to be an actual problem that ‘must be stopped’?
It’s that one person’s choice whether they live or die and that is where the option should rest. Outside interference shouldn’t exist.
I don’t understand why so many people are so horribly against it.
I do understand why they may not like it and may want to help someone, but I don’t get why some people attempt to stop a person completely from their decision.
Especially strangers.
Do they feel sorry, or do they just want to do their good deed of the day?
Yes, my complaints are obvious and have probably been expressed hundreds […]
I am still here. I have released this negative energy from me, for now. I still have my hiccups, and that’s normal. I’ve meditated and asked for love to fill my heart. I’ve asked for my heart to relinquish all forms of hate, guilt, and envy; because I have no room for those things. Most of all, I have begun to forgive myself for the loss of a dear friend. We all need ourselves to heal emotionally and spiritually. I have a dream of healing others…I want to save as many people as I can and pay my respects to those I could not…This is […]
I have pushed so many people away from my life… I’m so sick of being fake around people… if I’m genuinely not happy with myself I don’t want to be around others nor do I want to bring them down… I just want to be left alone to deal with my own emotion and problems.
Being Adhd and Autistic isn’t easy for me, during my teens I’ve done a lot of drugs as an outlet to help me express myself since so much I felt I was suppressed through society, school, parents…Â even though now I don’t smoke or pop pills anymore I just don’t feel […]
This is such a weird, yet brilliant website. A place to explore each others internal thoughts, without having to know each other’s name. Reading each post here, I know more about some of these normally unheard people than the people who spend every day with them. Maybe some of the users of this website get annoyed by the use of this website by teenagers, sadly like myself. Anyone who has been through teenage years will blame it on hormones. “Everyone feels the same at your age” “This is normal” “Everyone goes through hard times in their teens” and I’m left feeling no better than I […]
Many People See ThemSelves In The future, But I Dont, Honestly I have No Idea What im Doing Here In The first Place I Feel Like I’m An Outcast, I Look Around Me And EveryBodys Happy,Everybody Feels Like They Wake Up Each Morning For A Reason,Not Me Of Course. I Dont get Why I Am Here, And Each & Every Day That Goes By I Wonder Who I Am? And It Seems Like Every Second That Passes By I Lose Myself A Little More. I Feel Like Shitt All The Time And All I Can Do Is Feel It….
Im sorry when I read these posts that there seems so many people that feel like I do as I know how I feel and wouldnt wish that anyone. Im going ti give in and give up as Im not strong enough to carry on, but dont want anyone else to hope you all manage to find a reason to pull through a hope, dream just anything. I know your thinking who the hell arfe you to doll out advice your gonna end it but I just want to put this out there sorry
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If you ever decide to cut just remember.. Once you cut you get addicted. Your life will revolve around cutting.. In your life it will be all about cutting.. Will I cut today.? Will anyone become suspicious about the long sleeves today.? You may think you can keep it undercontrol but your wrong. It will become all you can think about. You will crave it during the day.. You will loose you ability to open up to people. You will think to yourself.. “I need to hide my cuts.. I need to hide my scars.. I need to cut again and hide them all […]
Do you know what REALLY seems to get people down? The whole world. We’re always told so much s*** about what a great place this is, and how ‘lucky’ we are to be alive, and how we’re just not grateful for what we have. This may be true, but do they realise exactlu what’s happening in the world? It’s a horrible, cruel, unforgiving bad place where a few good things happen? And what’s worse in noone seems to understand what you mean…I personally get incredibly upset when i hear an earthquake has destroyed, ruined a civilisation and killed so many people; I feel so […]
I’m guessing it’s because so many people in the world don’t have internet access, what do you think?
I am back people, I just got out of the hospital. And now I am back, i got 42 hugs, 5 kisses, and 2 punches. People were very happy to see me, many people were. And it confuses me, i feel like the biggest peice of shit, i feel like no one cares, but the thing is, EVERYONE seems to care about me. Out of the 400 people, 300-350 missed me…
To begin, I am fairly misanthropic and disenfranchised due to humanity’s impact on nature and the wildlife that inhabit (or did inhabit in many cases) this once beautiful planet, Â how society is in general, whether it be the intolerance and hate that monotheistic religions have spread for generations (as well as how religious teachings dominate our political and legal systems despite all of the blatant problems that arise from it), the general lack of concern for our irreversible impacts, our horrible justice systems, our spiraling out of control dependency on technology, etc, etc…. but I also share the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer’s views on misanthropy […]
Monday, February 27th, 2012. I had been Sexual Assaulted.
I walk through the hallways, watching people look at me, whispering, calling me names, wanting to beat me. They don’t know the real story about what really happened, so they had made-up stories. I cry every night because of what he told people. everyone is against me, everyone hates me. He doesn’t know the damage he had done; damage is still being processed. People harrassed me everyday, yet I know that if I end my OWN LIFE they’ll regret what they have said.
Many people took sides. Two of my best friends had my side, also […]
I am a girl. I feel like I should be a boy. I feel like i’m not living my life to the fullest because of this. I feel uncomfortable everywhere I go. School, the store, even in my own home. I don’t talk to many people. I’m shy and collective. I feel like if I was a boy, i wouldn’t be so shy and everyone would actually love me. I would have more friends at school. Its extremely depressing and embarrasing. I don’t dress as a boy so you can quit thinking the word “dike” now. I get up at five every morning to straighten […]
I’m…I don’t know what I am. Depressed? Bipolar? According to a medical diagnosis, probably not. I’ve read stories on here that speak of not being able to even get up in the morning, who can’t find the will to do anything. I, however, get up, I go to school, put on a smile, talk to people, act normal. Inside, I’m a complete mess. School is like my own personal hell. I really don’t have friends. I’m so alone and yet surrounded by people. I hate life. I want to die. God, how I just want to end this torture. There are some days I actually […]