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Mental Disorders

I don’t feel right.

by antecedent 12/9/2016

written by antecedent

I don’t feel “right”, and I haven’t felt “right” in a very long time.
I feel an uncomfortable emptiness, and as if life is continuing on in an unpleasant repetition, and I’m growing tired of it.

I am sixteen years old, and I have obtained my GED. I am going to begin college early next year, and I feel like I’m not ready, at least, with tolerating my anxiety. I have terrible anxiety, and I have panic attacks if I’m within a supermarket or similar public setting for too long. I’ve been in the college before, being I had to apply for it, and I began sweating […]

12/9/2016 2 comments

My story

by KelseyPearl 2/27/2014

written by KelseyPearl

8th grade was when it all started. It started in the middle of that year. My dad & I were fighting. He told me that the reason he tried to kill himself was because of me. At that time I started to believe it was me cause of the way I treated him. His mental health issues at that time were up & down. In previous years he was overdosing with his prescription meds which led to him getting into a car accident with me & he also fell down the stairs. Some other things happened like he ran into a tree with […]

2/27/2014 6 comments

How to get help

by Smiley 5/17/2013

written by Smiley

I will spare you my sob story. Here’s what you need to know. I am 23, married and a stay at home mom to a 4 year old little girl. I have been depressed since I was a child. I have times where I am okay but I always end up feeling depressed more often than not. I first considered suicide around 13 years old but never really had intentions or means to do so. In my family mental disorders are not considered medical and I would be told to just get over it.

Now, present day I am more depressed than ever. I think […]

5/17/2013 1 comment

honesty

by disclosureflo18 3/12/2013

written by disclosureflo18

to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m doing on this site but i’m ust gonna go with it. I’m not trying to sway anyone into my thinking or anything this is just my own experiences and opinions. So I’ve read a few posts and stuff and it’s kind of strange but i feel like i can relate. People are saying stuff like “oh you won’t do it” and stuff like that but ppl will, they always do and that’s what’s wrong with this site. you shouldn’t test ppl. I’m just hoping to get some advice on how to kill this shit before myself. […]

3/12/2013 2 comments

The “mask”

by SurvivingNormal 2/17/2013

written by SurvivingNormal

Please hear what I’m not saying. Don’t be fooled by the face I wear, for I wear a mask. I tell you everything that’s really nothing, and nothing of what’s everything, of what’s crying within me.

– TheÂ “mask”

Ever since I first thought of suicide, no maybe even before that, I put on the “mask”. For me this social “mask” that I wear has probably caused me a whole lot more damage than hurt, yet everyday when I step out of my bed in the morning, I still put on this “mask”, even if it’s covered inÂ thorns. Why? This “mask” that I wear […]

2/17/2013 4 comments

I am a suicide victim

by bear417 1/30/2013

written by bear417

i have attempted suicide at least 5 times. I have thought about it more hours than I can count. Ive suffered rape, loss of loved ones, physical and emotional abuse, OCD, and an unstable childhood. In spite of all these painful reasons to die, I’m turning 25 and I am so grateful that all my attempts were thwarted.

I was always in so much pain I could not think about anyone else.

Two years ago my view of suicide was completely changed. My boyfriend of over 5 years killed himself in my bedroom while I was at work. Never in my life have I felt more pain. […]

1/30/2013 3 comments

why do i live if im cursed..

by kataya 12/26/2012

written by kataya

I feel like everything is pointless.. everything. What’s the point in it..
Especially if nothing good seems to last because I have trouble being happy and staying happy since I’m bi polar with schizoeffective disorder.. I don’t have many friends nor do I always want one.. the more relationships I have the crazier I feel. I’m afraid of being hurt..
I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of myself..
I always try.I try so hard.. inside I’m a good person. Just scared :/
Abandonment issues.. ocd, severe anxiety, pcos, depression.. what’s the point if ill have to always have these curses that limit my happiness. […]

12/26/2012 5 comments

Suddenly, my perspective changed.

by mysmilecoversalot :) 5/27/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

One year and 40 days ago I started a diet.

That diet quickly took over my entire life, exposing mental disorders that had been hidden before.

One eating disorder showed so much more… generalized anxiety disorder, a mild form of ptsd, cyclothymic disorder (mild form of bipolar).

My family had been perfect, but when it fell apart i didn’t know how to express the pain. I pushed it down for over 4 years.

All of that pain suddenly came out in the form of starving, throwing up, and cutting.

Slowly, I lost myself.

I had to pretend I was okay, I had to be perfect.

I lied to everyone.

I fought help at […]

5/27/2012 5 comments

First Post… We’ll see how it goes.

by LostForgottenSoul 4/29/2012

written by LostForgottenSoul

No need for a name, therefore, my name will me Anonymous. I’m a 17 year old female who tries to hide away most of her emotion. I was diagnosed with depression, PTSD, mild OCD, insomnia, and possible BPD. My life is a nightmare most days. After my initial hospitalization, i started treatment, and for the most part it helped a lot. But lately, I’ve loss interest in school, isolated myself a lot, and am becoming increasingly more impulsive (I went out one day and just got a tattoo, on my wrist. So much for ever being aÂ professional.) I have attempted suicide 5 times […]

4/29/2012 23 comments

What’s the point of life?

by jacob9688 2/13/2012

written by jacob9688

People always tell me suicide is most selfish act anyone can do to Thier loved ones, but they never think how selfish it is of them to make someone go through hell just to keep thier feelings safe, if that makes sense.

I’m not necessarily talking about myself, but there are people with mental disorders or really bad problems that suicide is thier only way out. like schizophrenia for example, even though I believe it is not the only way out but it’s a choice.

I’ve just been reading yall’s stories for the past couple of days and let me just say my story is NOTHING compared […]

2/13/2012 10 comments

No Future, No Hope, No Chance

by Domicrow1 2/13/2012

written by Domicrow1

I am a Schizophrenic Depressed Sociopathic Psychotic Hateful Hated person, i feel like nothing good has happened to me in almost a year and i am lossing hope every day i sit in my kitchen with a knife shaking and crying i have no idea what to do other than the obvious. my therapist is an idiot my school is full of people with an IQ equivalent to their shoe size and all that is good in my life is my kitty but the suicidalism is still seeping through and is getting worse and worse and worse and i dont know how much longer i […]

2/13/2012 4 comments

To the younger posters

by U.N. Owen 2/13/2012

written by U.N. Owen

This has no specific age range but is directed more towards those who have not yet been free to make their own decisions.

I want everyone who wants to to live. Especially you my little brothers and sisters. Because you have not yet been able to live your own lives.Â Have not yet been able to freely choose anything outside the limits placed on you and the strong influences upon your minds and emotions.Â From your posts many of you have an amazing and solid grasp on life and that would be wasted by you dying and not being able to enrich yourselves with your talents.

Many […]

2/13/2012 13 comments

Went downhill pretty much right after High School

by p.lane 4/23/2009

written by p.lane

I was a pretty popular man in High School.Â Most people seemed to know and like me.Â But, 3 years after in a month, I’ve gone nowhere.Â No job, no school.Â I’m an aspiring writer but don’t know how that’s gonna work out.Â I guess the saying’s maybe somewhat true after all that the popular kids don’t do well after high school.Â I wasn’t mean to people unless I felt they were mean first so I wasn’t one of the stereotypical popular people in school.Â I also did feel suicidal 95% of 2008 and occasionally do this year.Â Thank GOD not to that extent though.Â […]

4/23/2009 2 comments