maybe it’s alcohol or maybe I’m riding a mania. Both ways it doesn’t matter I decided to give my self another chance before I end it all. I will try to find love within again after being dead inside for long time. Nothing really matters since we are going to die someday aight? Fuck depression and fuck all the mental diseases all together nobody deserve it and I won’t wish it for my most hated enemies. I will stick to SP and try to help as much as possible I love u all
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I was first diagnosed with depression in my teens. I was supposed to be medicated but No my parents wouldn’t do that. I left home early to get away from abuse and thought I was running towards love. I was wrong. I tried going to hospitals for help but I had no insurance so it was like I didn’t exist. Years went by and I got worse. Eventually I snapped and tried to kill myself. Recently I found out I have a heart condition and had to go to the hospital. They told me not to work. I applied for Social Security but it’s taking […]
I’m sorry for who I am. I’m sorry that I can’t let anyone close without pushing them away and hurting them, I’m sorry that I can’t make new friends or act like a normal human being for once. I am sorry that this sadness keeps coming back around and hitting me in the face with a baseball bat. I’m sorry that nobody understands or cares too. I’m sorry I’m manipulative.
and finally, I’m sorry that I found this site, for my constant neurosis and self loathing coupled with sadistic, sociopathic-type behavior. What am I supposed to do? You don’t care to understand, […]
I feel like my issues are much different than anyone else’s. Not the depression and anxiety, I know that millions suffer from these mental illnesses. I don’t know what it is. Its along the lines of social phobia but it is even around close family and friends. I don’t know what to say. My mind is completely blank all of the time. Except for worried thoughts. Its like they consume my mind to the point I can’t even engage in simple conversation. Does anyone know what I am experiencing?
ive been referred to four different organisations for mental health over the last 5 years. none of which have worked. only had one session with my new NHS woman but I haven’t much hope. I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and all they seem to care about is the anxiety. that’s the least of my worries. ive been suicidal before, and I still have suicidal tendencies which I am struggling to supress. I need help but they don’t seem to want to get to the issues that are deeply effecting me. is there anywhere that works (UK based) or any methods (currently on […]
I guess this is the place to vent. I don’t know it’s been about three years since I’ve been this depressed. I used to be on this website back then. I feel like crying screaming and then again I feel numb and so emotionally exhausted that I’m hurting physically. Almost three years ago I was raped and I’m holding the best thing in my arms right now that ever walked the face of the earth. She is the product from that horrid night but omg she’s so amazing!!! I fall in love with her more and more every day. But what in the world do […]
…hi
could you please tell me what I’m doing here?
i don’t know what I’m doing here.
im in the same room as my little sister and mother.
I’m doing “homework” for my mock exams this week.
what I’m actually doing is using homework as an excuse to listen to music…
in 24 hours and 15 minutes ill be in the a mental health service place for youth…
and I’m scared.
i was recently referred but now I’m actually going I’m not too sure what to do.
what am i doing here?
and i don’t mean this site.
what i mean is get me the hell out of here please I’m a 15 year old boy […]
I just want to say that I think, for the most part, tough love does not work with people who are going through mental distress. I cannot simply get up and get help. the simple act of getting out of bed is hard. So anything more complex than that is extremely daunting and your tough love isn’t making it seem more appealing.
Hey everyone, its been a year since I’ve been here. I’m back, more tired than I’ve ever been. Barely sleeping, although I lie in bed for hours and hours trying to drift off. Reading through all of your posts. You’re all phenomenal people, and thank you to all those who have so much compassion for others.
Worried for my friend who is suicidal and burdened by multiple mental illnesses. As for myself, I’m at a low point but I need to be there for certain people in my life.
Stay strong and take care, we’re here for you.
My friends found out I was depressed but haven’t done anything about it and barely even acknowledge it. I absolutely can not stand when they used the word depressed or bipolar to describe how they are feeling when they will never feel what it’s like to have a mental illness as horrible as depression. Here I am they’re best friend suffering in silence and they just laugh at the word I can’t stand it
So I met with my counsellor/psychologist today with my sister, the second time my sister went with me. No different than before my counsellor confirmed that our family of origin (the family in which we were raised) is high on the dysfunctional scale, confirming too the cult-like nature of it coupled with isolation and other forms of emotional abuse.
For the first time ever I think my sister realises how close I am to dying. I wanted her to attend partly for her to be able to prepare. My sister and I were close growing up and while it hurts to let her know and hurts […]
I was sad for a long time after being out of a 5 year relationship with a woman who I deeply loved. I still haven’t found anyone yet, not near who much I adored my ex. I’ve slept with other girls and went on plenty of dates where woman have been interested in me, but I didn’t feel anything. I went on anxiety medication which didn’t help. Running was my savior but with starting school again, I have been stressed which has led to me drinking again (running took me away from this and my depression). I really have nothing to be depressed about anymore. […]
Tool has one of the most intelligent lyrics of any band I ever heard. The lyrics that jump out to me the most is “why can’t we not be sober, just want to start this over, why can’t we drink forever”…..then the next line is “why can’t we sleep forever”. – I can totally relate. I wanna drink forever and wish I could sleep forever. It’s a song that can have many different meanings in accordance with people’s personal experiences. It’s deeper than drug or alcohol addiction – for me, I want to just go and sleep forever. Being sober hurts because of my mental […]
Im 23 and im tired of fighting this battle. I can no longer fill my head with the idea that it will get better. Im struggling everyday fighting back the tears. I seeked helped taken meds and yet i still feel like im living in hell. I think i will be done soon or hope i have the strength to end it. I feel bad for the ones i leave behind but enough is enough. My heart just wasnt made for this world. Its terrible we are put through this mental agony. I feel for everybody out there dealing with demons.
I noticed that this group has some of the most undersranding, intelligent, and empathetic people thst I ever came across. I wonder…..maybe we are the ones that are sane but suffer from mental illnesses because we are in a world where the vast majority of humans are nut jobs. Think about it – look how shallow, mean, and ignorant most people outside this group are?
i don’t understand why most people think the way they do. So let’s ask ourselves some questions…
Why do people find Saturday Night Live funny?
Why do news anchors call babies born without brains “miracles”?
Why is society so hung up on on the gay thing, yet don’t seem to worried about real threats such as pedophiles or rapists?
Why do all people universally stop believing in mythological creatures such as the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, and Santa, as children, but as adults still believe in God and Jesus?
Why can’t people produce good music anymore?
Why do people still think that a highly advanced alien spacecraft, advanced enough to […]
So in 3 to 4 weeks I’m ending it just have to do a test run then gain the balls to just end it. I don’t give a fuck or a rats are anymore. Not even sure why I was born the only sucky thing is my family are going to have to bury me with no photo or nothing. I’m over family and parents. They only give a shit about themselves and haven’t once begun to understand mental illness. Funny thing is its going to have to be a burden to bury me or cremate me for my family. Cold heartless family.
Well 3-4weeks then […]
It’s been a while since I last logged in here. A long while. A few years. I don’t know what made me think of it now but I remembered it and how at the time, writing helped.
The depression is back. It never really left I guess, but after I was put on meds I was on those for about two years and became a semi functional member of society. Then I was taken back off them, and I had gotten myself to an okay place and kept trundling on living day by day doing anything to put a bit of sunshine into life. But it’s […]
It never seems to end. I am 24 now and I am still depressed. I have been to six different psychiatrists/therapists and I have been on many meds. I still spiral down into deep depression. I have been threatening to kill myself for years but I don’t have the guts. A part of me does not want to die. It’s like I have this thing inside me that is evil and wants to kill me. It wants to hurt me. I always get more sad when I think about killing myself. It’s like someone else is killing me. I feel like a victim of myself. […]
A little something I wrote. Feedback appreciated.
There once was a man, a traveler . His goal was to reach the other side of the world. Along the way he had to stop and wait for his second flight. It didn’t come till the next day. He saw another man in the city who had lived there for many years. But when he approached the man and asked where he was from, he just said “oh I’m just stopping by, I’m not really from here”, but he did not look like the other people from the town. Interested, the man tried to learn more about the […]