I don’t really know what else i can do anymore. Cameron died almost exactly a year ago (September 8 2013) and I am STILL not over it. I’ve gone to all the groups, I’ve been hospitalized for PTSD, I’ve got a new boyfriend who treats me like gold, I go out, I don’t talk about it all the time anymore. What else can I do to make it feel better.
The thing you have to know is Cameron and I were very much in […]
Writing helps calm me down.
I don’t know why, but it does.
I’m writing right now, because I’m under severe stress.
They’re still fighting as I’m writing this lol
Well guys, let me tell you my story :v
I mean if you bother even to read it haha
Well, my Dad’s a gambler. he lost all the money in the household and now we’re broke. Like BA-ROKE.
My mom’s suicidal. She always tells me how she just wants to stop living and attempted suicide multiples of times infront of me, and my siblings.
Well, me, I’m just a kid going through highschool
I have a little brother […]
so some guy  told me to put my story up here and wait for reactions on it before i do anything.
why not.
here’s my fucked story:
i am Jeroen Steeman. i am currently 17 years old, and i live in a small village in the netherlands. my life is garbage.
i used to have a happy life tough. lots of friends i hung out with. two awesome older brothers. a happy mom and dad. then my mother got multiple scerose (that’s the dutch name for it anyway) and lost her shit. all the joy that once exsisted in our family life just got destroyed. both my brothers moved […]
Not Exactly Sure How To Start These. I’m Just Gonna Wing It.
From The Time I Was In Kindergarden I Was Bullied. Pushed Around, Bothered. No One Really Ever Left Me Alone. It Wasn’t Until 4th Grade It Started Getting Bad. I Started Getting In Trouble In School, I Owed 6,000 Hours Of Community Service By The Time I Had Finished 5th Grade. The Beginning Of 6th My Life Started Going Downhill Fast, My Parents Got Divorced, Week To Week With Mom And Dad. I Was Severely Unwanted At My Dad’s House. My Aunt Lived Next Door And My Uncle Lived Across The Street, I Couldn’t […]
Well hello there! One of the many depressed among this site.(: I’m in depression, thinking about suicide, so I’m seeking help because God knows what the fuck I’m supposed to do. I wonder why i’m told “Don’t kill yourself!” because I don’t really see the point of living. The only thing keeping me in this fucked up world is because I’m afraid of Hell. Yes, I’m a Christian. (:
Why do people try so hard to live? Even if i were to live, and live a better life, have nice house, nice cars,a nice someone that loves me, I really wouldn’t care. People work so hard […]
So I’m seventeen, 17, just graduated from high school. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for about 4 or 5 years now. I attempted suicide in 2011 after I was hurt by someone who meant the world to me and I regretted everything. I’ve started up counseling since May 10 this year and have started medication but I still have depressed days and days that are hard to get through. I feel like nothing helps. What broke me is I had a nervous breakdown a few days before I started meds and going to counseling and nearly ended it. I have a box filled with […]
I never thought I would be on this site as someone posting from a desperate place, instead of helping out through comments. But life is ironic that way, no?
My name is Christiane and I am 20 years old. This is my story.
My mom and dad had been fighting badly the past few years. They had been married 19 years but were together for 22 years. We lived in Florida as the only blood family around. All our family lived in California. My dad would get angry with my mom and fly her there when he thought he was done with her. This was about the third or fourth time it happened and during this last time my mom was in California, my dad took his own life.
On April 11, 2013 I came home […]
i tried to kill myself. more than once actually. i was put in the hospital for 3 weeks. and while i was in there i was happy. i was that happy and excited kid i was before depression took over me. but as soon as i got out everything went back to the way it was before. my mom and dad scream and yell at me all the time, they make me feel worthless, and they make me just want to run away and never look back. My brother lives in a different city and i haven’t talked to him in a long time. me […]
She sits up high surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
“Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I’ve been up here so long I’m going crazy”
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
Now don’t be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
“Big deal,” […]
January 5,2011 The day my daddy passed away, The day my 2 year boyfriend broke up with me, Â The day my mom and dad got married through church , The day I tried killing my self …
My dad died from cancer my boyfriend left me for my bestfriend….My bestfriend told all my secrets. That night it was a school night thursday to be exact. I punched a whole in my wall my nuckles turned purple I wanted to hurt myself I thought “I dont desrve to live im just a waste of space nobody cares for me!” I punched the mirror now my nuckles […]
Another long one.
Seems like a good time to continue on with my confession. I ended the last post after I was caught. I injured myself for four years before my mom saw….. but then again you see what you want to see. My sister an I were always held to a higher standard than most kids. If we got a B on anything we were grounded. A’s were all my mom cared about. Nothing else. She got on to us for every little thing, making it a contest between the two of us. That is the main reason my sister and I started fighting. After […]
I really can’t take it. I just want to take a break. I just want to be happy. I don’t want to try and live like this anymore. I tried okay? I tried so hard to focus on life. And I just can’t reach it. Even though I’m young, I’ve never felt this pain ever before. It hurts as bad as hitting by a truck. I want to cry, but all I have is a mask that covers me when I’m badly injured. I told them, I was fine, just felt kinda tired for sleeping too late. But no. I tried everything to end this. […]
I’m 24 years old. I have a bachelor degree. I can’t find a job. I live with my parents. Everyday I feel like they don’t want me at home. Their home. I don’t feel like it is my home anymore so I spend all the time in my room trying not to disturb them. When my mother was pregnant of me she took a overdose of pills not caring about the baby. My dad didn’t want me to be born and the doctors said I was going to have serious health problems because of the overdose. So it was better to abort me they said. However I was born. […]
i live with my parents (again) and i’m 28 years old, nearly 29. i work on computers for 40 hours a week. over the past year i have cleared up a lot of debt (largely in part because mom and dad have not charged me rent and put a dinner on the table for me). i’m coming up on a year at my current job; the end of May marks both my 1-year anniversary and my birthday.
about this time last year i was calling the police on some dumb ***** and her self-centered daughter when she threatened my life. i was such a wreck, racing […]
The pain hurts so bad, my body feels like someones chrushing it, and i can barley breath. Once again im alone, depressed, and with many sharp objects all i have to choose. But i sit on my bed staring at the clock whispering one more minute as his voice screams in my head “it’s our secret”…..”you better keep it”
“Or i’ll kill you” i wanna scream fun back to my friends, but i’ve gone home for that night and again im alone, the pain is just to much as flashbacks push there way into my head. My heads throbbing and im shaking, it feels like someones […]
Hi my name is Alexandra.
Me being on a website like this would be disapproved by all my family. But my family is not willing to help me and not willing to see the the problem I have as a big deal. I love them all so much but they will not give me help, and help is exactly what I need.
I cut I dont really remember the reason I started or even how I started all I know is that it felt…good.
My mom use to tell me what reason do I have to be sad? I don’t know I just know that I am sad. She […]
I have decided not to sleep in today, mainly because mom and dad won’t let me. I have to go every day like a good little boy, or I will only get more depressed. I’m not actively suicidal at the moment… but I’ll see how I’m doing after the one teacher nags me to do the work I don’t care enough to do. Then there’s the major assignment I have to ask for a 1 week extension on, so double doody today! At least with the French assignment, though, everyone used Google Translate, so my crud won’t stand out after I half-ass it.
ive always been a daddys girl, growing up i always wanted to be with him! every field trip, every camping trip, my dad was the first person i ran to.. my mom and dad split when i was in 5th grade and things started to change.. i saw my dad cry for the first time, i have never seen him so mad. my dad started drinking and became more agressive.. i eventually came out to my parents and my dad didnt mind at all my mom at first was uneasy with it then she came around.. reacently i lost my girlfiend in a car accident, […]
Just called a suicide hotline.. they guy i talked to .. he just kept saying uh well you need to look at it from a better point of view.
I lost my 2nd oldest brother cause my oldest brother raped me! and you exspect me to look on the bright side. I look at his facebook everyday, hoping to get to know him. I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN BROTHER. And i hate it.. i hate it so badly. I only found out last week he’s graduated highschool.. i never knew.. i didnt know..
I miss him so badly, we would stay up reading the hungry catapillar, […]
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