i cant sleep, its not working! its like 4 am where i am and I CANNOT FUCKING REST IN THE SLIGHTEST OF FASHIONS. you would think after having insomnia fro 4 years i would know how to deal with it, but i dont i just get angry and frustrated then waste my days in a fuzzy, sleep deprived blur. people complain about missing one or two nights sleep and im just there being like ‘dude nto only did i cut myself and consider suicide last night but i havent slept properly in over a week’. and when i do sleep.. bad things very bad things […]
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I don’t even know what to say…… I tired I can’t handle being the youngest yet haveing to be the strongest in the family … I can’t do it I have no money I hate everything about me the only thing that has stopped me from just ending it all is my dog….. But I don’t no if thats enough anymore
I couldn’t sleep last night. I barely got 2 hours. I dreamt my father came to me just to tell me how much of a nuisance I am and how much trouble I’ve caused him. I woke up, just in time for class, but I couldn’t find the energy to get up. Once it was too late to go, I started crying. Â I’m going to screw up my whole life, or should I rather say, I’ve already screwed up my whole life. I’ve been going on like this for months now, and I can’t find the courage to tell anyone.
Ever since one of my best […]
I wish i had the courage to die, i wish i werent such a wimp and would just do the deed. I honestly can’t find a reason to live anymore. Any help i get is just a waste, any ‘hope’ story is just depressing. Everything is depressing. I just can’t take it. I can’t be honest with my therapist because she has proven how fast she’ll go and tell my dad. My dad is getting tired of taking me to therapy, i can tell he wants it to end but he doesnt get how bady i still need to go. my friends dont know the […]
I wish I could smack all the people who lied to me and told me my life would get better just so that I would not kill myself. Since then my life has gotten progressively worse. I lost everything. My apt, my money, my personal possessions, went into premature labor at 6 months then lost a pregnancy for the second time in less than a year. In order to get through the day I would have to take 4 pills daily that have side effects like hair loss. weight gain (yippee) and the tendency to make me feel like a fucking zombie….I’ll pass. Death is […]
I fail at keeping friends because I seem to push them away and then I get lonely.
I fail at love. I always get lead on and then they disappear like nothing ever happen. And now I’m falling in love with him.
I fail at protecting myself from bullies and just things that I let people to do me.
I fail in my schooling. My grades are always low because I can’t focus while I’m feeling this way..and it doesn’t help that my parents tell me “what happened? Now you are so stupid ”
I fail at keeping my own promises. I promised myself I […]
It is scary, that I use to find comfort in the idead of being able to die, well, no, kill myself. But now, I am able to find comfort that I am going to work, save up money, and just leave this city, this state, this country and move somewhere else. Just leave everything, all this mess. No one will be able to follow me. No one will be able to find me. I will start fresh, somewhere new. Somewhere else…
I hope everyone is doing good and find their freedom from pain, just not through death. Not through death.
Hi everyone. I don’t know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just need to get this shit off my chest. I’ve been kicked out of college, my only option now is to get a job or be thrown out.
I have extremely bad problems with my confidence, and so getting a job is out of the question. I’m going to take the easy way out and commit suicide. I live in the UK and have £60 from my google adsense, I’m just praying this is going to be enough for some helium, or whatever else I could use to painlessly kill myself.
I feel so […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
i acutally thought working and having a job would make things easier for me. But its actually not. it actually just makes me want to continue on with my plan. It just wont be march 31st it would probaly be at the end of june or before graduation. I got the job so i can save up money and run away….then just kill myself. im just tired in every way there is.
i just don’t see a point to (my) life.
i have no goals.
i have no dreams.
i have no ambitions.
i can do almost anything that i want to and all i want to do is lie in bed all day every day.
i hate shopping and materialism.
i hate smalltalk.
i hate socializing.
i hate people especially judgmental people.
i hate sports.
i hate drinking/bars.
i hated every school i went to.
i’ve hated every job i’ve had. my job serves no purpose.
i hate paying bills. i have the money i just hate the process.
why am i so full of hate? i get bored […]
I was talking a few people on here the other night, and it set me thinking that maybe I could make a massive difference when my time is up…
At the moment suicide has a negative stigma attached to it, with the stereotype of the highly emotional, desperate victim making a final call for help. This may also be why it affects so many friends and relatives as they feel guilty they missed this cry for help before it was too late. Lets look at the other other side, the rational unemotional decision that you should be able to control at least one thing in your […]
I want to disappear. I don’t think I want to die as such, I just don’t want to exist, either.
That’s it really, I just don’t want to exist anymore. If I could just flick a switch and not be here anymore, I would. I would do it straight away, no questions asked. I suppose that switch is basically a permanent one, a switch of life or death.
That’s the thing though, I’m unsure whether it’s suicide I want. I want to not be here but I don’t want to be dead.
So am I suicidal? Is it suicidal to just want to disappear?
I hate the word ‘suicide’, […]
I can’t feel anything because I feel all of itI met him 3 days after I moved back to seattle. And I have been with him since. But in the year that I have been with him I have hung out with friends 2 days. Other than that I’m alone all the time. And tonite was the last straw. I told him about me picking up my tanks Friday and he told me to shut the fuck up with my baby shit. I didn’t want to admit that he doesn’t love me. He used to like me and I make good money. Whowouldn’t keep around […]
I fucking hate my job. i hate it with a passion. its part time and i dont make money from it. the people there are horrible i cant stand some of them i feel like they all talk shit behind my back. it makes my anxiety worse when i feel like this. i get in trouble for things i didnt do or “didnt do by policy” wtf? why does it have to be so friggin complicated? i get up every morning get on a bus to get there i come at least a half hour early. i clock in by myself on time, i stand […]
It’s been a rough few years, and not sure when to expect something better. Soon, actually, but it could end up not happening. I finished graduate school and moved in with family to help raise their kid. I didn’t have anything better to do. Of course with the economy, a job was hard to come by. I temped, but that ended. Two years after graduating I got a professional position, but it ended up not working out – for me or them. And now my old boss is trying to hire me. I just got a bad feeling about it as I got ready for […]
So Much Stuff Can Go Through A Girl’s Mind .. It’s Funny How At My Age I Had To Go Through All This, It’s Not Even Fair. I Turned 16 On January 29th .. My First Birthday Without My Father, Still None Cared.. Plus I Didn’t Wanted None To Feel Pitty For Me. As I Said On My Other Post .. My Mom Got A New Boyfriend .. We Moved To His House 3 Week’s go. I Had To Leave All My Friend’s Again And The Best-Boy Friend In The Whole World. She Moved My World Up Side Down Back Again Just Like She Did […]
Dear ALL,
I have a goal, that I think all of you MAY be able to help me with. When I graduate next year, I plan on becoming a psychiatrist. And I know what you’re all thinking, probably. “Oh, I’ve been to plenty psychiatrists. They don’t help me any.” If this is what you’re thinking, I just want you to hear me out. I want to be a psychiatrist not for the money. But because of what I have went through, and what I have been going through. I have been through most of what you all have been through, and I want to be able […]
I tried to be so nice to people I am I think a mistake my kindness for weakness. I have a lot of learning disabilities. true while I was really feeling well. I got my real estate license and I started really doing well. now I have lost my home to foreclosure. my daughter has done everything she said she finished high school are your early. and now her friends are going to college and I cannot help her. I’ve lost the house I built and now im living in temporary housing. I know money isn’t everything but I can survive and I’m not […]
When I searched for this website, I was totally suffering from my depression. I never went to a consultant but I knew I was depressing.
I was living in a city that everyone has the desire to living here. A wonderful city that make me fall in love with but also drain me in the hell. Two years ago, I graduated from high school, and apply to one of the university in the city which the agent helped me to prepare it all. I got a really bad high school GPA that I was really afraid of the university would’t take me. Eventually I went to […]