Depression is surrounding me again, I wanna cut.
I wanna feel something, I feel so numb.
Today is mine and my boyfriends 7 months.
And he’s currently looking at 10-20+ years for dating me.
He’s 21, I’m 15.
I’ve lost my best friend, and haven’t talk to him for a month and a half.
He was my reason for living.. my happiness.
And like everything else in my life it was snatched away.
I need to talk to him.. I’m slipping again.
I might break tonight.. I know if/when he finds out he’ll be so […]
I’ve always been aware that I’m not good enough for anything I want – friends who don’t treat me as an inferior, mainly, I went through all my life getting that from everyone I liked (and worse shit on top of it) – but eventually I made myself take the advice from people on the internet that I am good enough and to not let people walk all over me. That “self-esteem comes from within.” And I ended up becoming an asshole for two and a half years when aside from that I’ve always been a major softie… and the last person I made friends […]
i feel like i need to vent, talk to someone or just get away.
i don’t know why or whats causing me too since i took a weekend off last weekend.
i’m just sick of school, sick of feeling depressed and like crap all the time, i’m sick of not being able to talk to my girlfriend, just fuck it all
my thoughts of suicide have been on and off the past few weeks, the lesser of what they have been over the past month and a half or so.
thought about ways to go, like a simple bullet to the head, starvation, other things. I feel numb all […]
I have no real reason to kill myself. I guess I’m being really selfish and unreasonable. My boyfriend left me oh..about month and a half ago. I really loved him..no..I was obsessed with him. I still am. After he left me I threatened to kill myself and his mother found out. He still really cares about me, he only left in the first place because he thought I could do better. It really destroyed me inside. I’ve done awful things. I’ve cut, I’ve lied, I’ve threatened to kill myself, I’ve tried to blackmail him and I’ve used other people. I feel worthless, unattractive, unable to […]
I’ve been battling with depression my whole life. I got on anti-depressants when I was about 13, but I caught a lot of flack from my dad’s side of the family so I stopped. I continued struggling until I was about 18 and decided to get back on the pills. It seemed better at first, then it got worse. I was contemplating suicide at least once a week. It was getting to the point where if something in my day went wrong, I would have mini breakdowns in my room. I would cry and curl into a ball and wish horrible things upon myself. I told my […]
Is the pleasures of the afterlife being good to you? Or is religion correct and are you suffering for being who you were just like you were here? I never understood why you went back on your word right in front of me that night and did what you did, but now I do. The loneliness, betrayal, judgment and depression all got to you. You felt like no one understood you, and I thought you were wrong, but now I realize that you were right, no one did understand you or your struggles, not even me. I’m still not sure if I did the right […]
Okay, i’m 13 years old. I have to repeat the 7th grade. I would’ve passed it, but i left my school 3 weeks early. That school stressed me out, to the point where i just couldn’t do it. i never wanted to go back there again. i only had about 2-3 friends at the end of the year. i like, pushed everyone away. i don’t even know how. right now, it’s about a month and a half into summer. i moved across town, so i’m going to be starting a new school. i lost connection with all my friends from my previous school, but like […]
Hey Everybody!
So…here I am again. Don’t really have anyone to talk to. Usually I don’t want anyone to talk to, but that makes it hard for those times when I need to talk to someone. I stopped seeing my therapist about six months ago; I lost my job and I just couldn’t afford it anymore. I see my psychiatrist about every month-and-a-half. He doesn’t say much. I take whatever he prescribes, and I think it helps a little. I don’t like him. I’m going to have to borrow money to pay for my next refill. I’ve got insurance but there’s a copay.
I need to make […]
I’ve chosen a day. This time I will not fail. I am happy. School will have just ended and I wouldn’t have seen any of my “friends” over the summer either. So no one will know. Only the essential family. I will disappear. Like I’d never been alive. So perfect.
I am anxious for June 1st, but I recognize that wishing it were here already is just going to irritate me. So I’m going to try and live as carefree as possible a life for the next month and a half. Anyways, my question is: Does anyone have any suggestions for me before I go? Things […]
I can’t keep this up anymore. It’s been a month and a half. And I need to cut! But if my mom sees I’ll be dead for sure.. I need to feel the blade sink into my skin and see the blood come out of the cut…
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle….
Do you believe in signs?
The most important relationship of my life ended a while ago. The relationship with the love of my life; the only person with whom I’ve felt such a strong connection. Stronger than that between my mother, my sister, all of my family. Stronger than anything I’ve felt with my friends(whom I consider to be my true family).
Both of us are mentally ill, suffering from similar maladies. Yet, one year ago(pretty much to the date) I was going through what I then considered to be the most trying time of my life. I was going on trial for a DUI with the […]
so tired. My apartment has rats in the ceiling.
I had 2 weeks of peace as I’d moved into my new apartment. Before then, I was at my mothers for 2 month, at my dads friends house int he burbs for 1 month and a half and then ina shitty, insect fiiled apartment before that(for about 8 months).
Before that I had the dream apartment in the dream neighborhood but I had to move because I was paying too much rent. The cost of perfection was half my monthly pay. Since Jan 1 2011 I’ve been cold(uncomfortable), but like I said, I had two wonderful weeks […]
My fiance has left me. Again. This isn’t something that has been ongoing. But, it’s happened about three times now within the past month and a half. Every time hurts more than the last. This time started because we got into a fight in the time between him coming back from running errands and me heading off to work. We probably fought for about two or three hours. I had found out while he was out that my period was late. I wanted to tell him, but as soon as he got back we started fighting, so I didn’t get the chance. I knew it […]
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