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my life

Her

by k2fraser 4/10/2014

written by k2fraser

Iâ€™ll admit it, I still think about her every day. I donâ€™t want to. The memories are wrong, twisted. They donâ€™t bring a smile, or a feeling of joy. They just bring me down. The happiest moments of my life, and they are all fake. Oh, at the time I didnâ€™t know they were fake, but now I know. Lying in bed together, holding her as she fell asleep. The love I felt for her, the love she felt for me. The happiest moment. But it was a lie. There was no love from her, no feeling at all.

I burned whatever bridge was left […]

4/10/2014 0 comment

Workin on it..Help

by Arianna 4/9/2014

written by Arianna

I always get on here and just look at everything everyone is saying so I figured I would post something today. I have many scars and a black heart. I miss the way I was before I started cutting myself, but I wouldn’t change a damn thing in my life or anything I have done to myself. The other day I broke down completely in front of the man I thought I could trust completely. I bawled my eyes out for almost an hour because of my f*cked up life and how bad I was feeling about everything. I tried to explained my feelings but […]

4/9/2014 2 comments

Underneath the moonlight

by fox 4/9/2014

written by fox

I realized deeply that I have no chance. Every aspect of my life is too damaged to keep pushing. Sometimes you just have to accept things, however painful it might be to accept that life has to end. I spoke to an old friend on the phone last week, someone I haven’t spoken to for over a year. She was my surrogate mother when I was 17, when I lived away from home. She will be 70 this year. She said she will call me again. She told me she loved me when we said goodbye. I know that I don’t have to speak to […]

4/9/2014 0 comment

i never knew

by olive 4/9/2014

written by olive

wow, i just stumbled upon this site… amazing… i’ve struggled with suicide since i was a child. i’m 23 now. and i’ve been planning to finally succeed this weekend. just getting things in order, getting my paycheck on friday so i can buy what i need. i thought i was a freak of nature, a psycho, and now i know i’m not alone…

i feel so awful for the pain i know i will cause my family and loved ones, but i literally cannot bear this anymore. i live in torment, i have no reason to be unhappy, my life has not been unpleasant and i […]

4/9/2014 9 comments

tired

by time2reset 4/8/2014

written by time2reset

Think i am ready to start over per say. I don’t have a medical condition or was i bullied. Only 37 but feel like 90. Just ready to go. My solution to problems and issues was to start alienating everyone in my life. Did not prepare for succeeding. Got what i thought i wanted. Miserable eveyday and not willing to live like this. If there is someone in your life don’t make my mistake. Don’t let pride give you an excuse to shut everyone out. That person may be able to show you a brighter day. Wish i could articulate better. Can’t get out what […]

4/8/2014 5 comments

armageddon take me already

by adnil 4/8/2014

written by adnil

Hey names jane 12

my life was good up to age 7. My got ill with dementia. Her side doesnt help much. My dad and his family took care of us. My mum has been taken in and out of hospital for the past 4 years. It has taken alot out of all of us. Me and my sisters were taken in to care before my dad got full custody of us. (He and my mum seperated) my dad is stressed all the time. My mum doesn’t want to take her medicine. Â She always talks about God god god god. He hasnt done anything. Â My life […]

4/8/2014 6 comments

thoughts

by Nick King 4/8/2014

written by Nick King

Its weird, when I was growing up in a very conservative home, went to a Christian school and I used to feel like I was suffocating all the time. I am not a very religious person because I don’t really see the point. Who can prove one god exists and one doesn’t? My life goes pretty smoothly and I have great family and friends and I play college sport; so it seems as though my life as a purpose right? I feel as though when I truly look at life as a whole I don’t understand how God (whoever that may be) can not be […]

4/8/2014 263 comments

On Not Accomplishing My Goals

by zedwants2die 4/7/2014

written by zedwants2die

I met this guy over the summer. He goes to an ivy league school and was doing a summer internship at a very well known investment banking company. Perfect 10. If finance doesn’t work out for him, which it will, he could become a model, date a celebrity and never work a day in his life again. Turns out he was gay so we slept together and that was that, and I knew that was that. A few months later he added me on Facebook which I thought was significant because I’d never even told him my name. As usual everything in my head ran […]

4/7/2014 2 comments

failure

by AnotherAnon 4/7/2014

written by AnotherAnon

Why is it that when a woman cries for help, she is immediately assisted, but shouldÂ a male seek a shoulder to lean on he is weak? We are just a frail as are feminine counterparts, the only difference is it is socially unacceptable to be weak and frail, as a result, we hide our pain to avoid further ridicule.

I’ve failed time and time again.

The woman that I love with all of my heart is married, and lives in another state. I’m the other man, and even as such, i’m unsure of my importance to her. Be it because of self-esteem, or because of previous relationships […]

4/7/2014 7 comments

Bound and Treasured

by nobodysgirl 4/7/2014

written by nobodysgirl

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/Let-Her-Go-Jasmine-Thompson-Music-Download-Paradise-Pro.mp3
I ain’t gonna make I have no friends
I am becoming my own worst enemy once again
Why doesn’t anybody care?
Why won’t nobody help me?
All of this for a stupid prophecy!?
All of my life I have pretended not to know
Everything good thing I had have now become owed
I’m trying to cry, trapped with pain
My god is the only reason I am still the same
I’m sick, no help no doctor a queue
I’m lonely, no friends, no one real in my life to talk too
The things they have done and what I have had to do […]

4/7/2014 3 comments

why is the fence so uncomfortable?

by goldencities 4/7/2014

written by goldencities

iâ€™ve been thinking about killing myself a lot lately. mostly because of my consistent failures in university. (and thereâ€™s also the fact that iâ€™ve just been properly diagnosed with bipolar ii rather than clinical depression after five years of taking the wrong kinds of medication. that too. probably.)

if my petition successfully goes through – and my psychiatrist at school assures me it will – then this will be the second semester in the four semesters iâ€™ve been at university that iâ€™ll have medically withdrawn from. when iâ€™m not in the middle of a depressive episode, i tell myself that school isnâ€™t worth ending my life […]

4/7/2014 0 comment

i just dont care

by LetItGo 4/6/2014

written by LetItGo

a lot of people say
that you cant
care about others
before you care
about yourself.
you have to care
about yourself
before you care
about others.
you have to take
care of yourself
before you take
care of others.
but i dont do that.
i dont care about
my life.
i dont care about
myself.
i just dont care.
i care about others.
about their lives.
their problems.
i help them,
bring them happiness.
but then im their
crumbling
breaking
cracking
more and more
each day.
i just dont care.

4/6/2014 1 comment

My story

by user113 4/6/2014

written by user113

I’m 16 going on 17 and I have been thinking about suicide for about 2 years now. I often think about the people who might get affected by my death. I have tried hanging myself once but my dad called me before I could do it. He asked me what was going on in the house( he lives in a different country so calls once a week to ask about ). This all started because of my mother. She has been pushing me to compete with my sister since day one ( exam wise ) I’m not to say dumb but I’m below average. My […]

4/6/2014 2 comments

Contemplating suicide, deadline, 25.

by NZ91 4/6/2014

written by NZ91

I have had a plan since the age of 17 to commit suicide on the eve of my 25th birthday. However, as the years have passed by and my life has gradually declined into unemployment, heart break and despair I find myself contemplating my suicide earlier.

I am currently 22, turning 23 on the 15th April 2014.

I was blessed with being born to parents who had money through working from nothing to something. However, as is often the case, my Mother turned out to be an alcoholic and father, a control freak who smoked marijuana to control his tempers but which in fact made them worse.

IÂ began […]

4/6/2014 3 comments

I’m hurting and fucked up and nobody cares.

by alone.and.lost 4/5/2014

written by alone.and.lost

I’m a 13 year old girl in 8th grade and 2013 was a hard year for me along with the start of 2014. I had already had problems in my family before but all of this made it worse. My parents got divorced when I was 2 and while I was growing up, I was told that they just weren’t happy so it was the best thing for them to do. Around this time last year my grandma told me that my father had been cheating on my mom and got another women pregnant. I grew up thinking that my father was some great guy, […]

4/5/2014 3 comments

i don’t think it’s gonna get better

by benni 4/5/2014

written by benni

Im 25 and so lonely. I don’t have a job or many friends. I’ve never had a boyfriend or even been on a date. I sincerely think I’m super ugly. The last time someone told me I was pretty was on Myspace. So that was a long time ago. I’m chunky, have big feet, broad shoulders, and have dark skin where there shouldn’t be. I’ve tried lots of things to try to lighten it, but nothing had worked. I can’t wear low cut tops or short shorts. I don’t even feel like girl. I feel like this big disgusting monster. I honestly don’t think any […]

4/5/2014 2 comments

I just don’t know anymore….

by 2nd Chance 4/5/2014

written by 2nd Chance

I just don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I’m only 15 years old and a sophomore in high school and I already starting to believe that I’m screwed like hell. My parents keep on stressing the fact that the best I could go is UC Davis and not UCLA or Stanford. In freshmen year, I started off with a crappy GPA of 2.67. As the result, my father would sometimes come into my room either 12:00 or 5:00 A.M just to hit me and complain about my grades. My parents stopped calling me my given name and nicknamed me “2.67” or “Junk […]

4/5/2014 2 comments

I CANNOT COPE WITH LIFE

by lukeyp03 4/5/2014

written by lukeyp03

Hello there,

I am approaching 40 yo and am looking for reasons why to live still.Â I find it difficult to be with people, and that includes anyone, including my parents with whom I have recently (2months) moved home with.

I have a long simple yet complicated story but will share to see if anyone can relate or perhaps offer any words of wisdom.

The story starts I guess about 12 years ago, when living with someguys, whom after a while I found not being able to contribute to stories etc, so would politely excuse myself from their presence, ie go outside for a smoke, say i’m going to […]

4/5/2014 5 comments

As I…

by CrimsonDream 4/4/2014

written by CrimsonDream

As I contemplate this thing called life I can’t help but get Sad, Furious, and frustrated. Why would anyone put me on this planet let alone birth me. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE does anyone understand. Cause if you do thats great. I’m pissed off and unstable with emotion right now so I put into my writing. I don’t want anyone knowing my secret. Although plenty do so why not just say it, the world knows anyways. Everyone knows everything because that’s how it is.

This world is not hell. hell is something we walk around with all our lives. It’s basically in my back […]

4/4/2014 13 comments

Disappear

by Shadowknite 4/4/2014

written by Shadowknite

I made a promise to never disappear and bring sadness. So, before I can disappear I have to ask people close to me if I can, if I’m still needed. If only one says yes to if I can disappear, then I will. 4 of 5 said I can’t. One will not answer me, thanks to that asshole who ruins my life. So, I must stay. Until I am no longer needed. We will see on Monday.

4/4/2014 1 comment

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