There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
It was so lonely
in the cold and dark
and life will continue
when your gone
but you wont regret it
will you?
there will be those that dont give a shit
or care even a little bit
but
i’ll always care about you
whoever you are
wherever you are
i’ll always be there for you
throughout the cold and the dark.
I don’t think I want to die. I don’t really want to live though. I’ve dug myself into a hole and I don’t see a way out. I dropped out of college twice, I lost my job, I tried to kill myself, I spent two weeks in the psych ward, I don’t have friends anymore. How am I supposed to bounce back from that? I’m starting from nothing and I don’t have the energy to do anything drastic enough to make my life better. I’m not even sure how I could do that.
Some people tell me to suck it up, stop feeling sorry for myself, […]
I’m already dead… there is no life left in me…. my boyfriend hasn’t talking to me in a week. and i need him the most right now… I’ve been getting lots of head aches so i take advil… but i always take one more pill then needed… i know this probably isn’t a good thing… but i just want all this pain to go away.
i went to see my counsellor today.. we talked about how i have been feeling. i finally was able to tell her how I’m in so much emotional pain and i just want it to go away!
my mom and sister fought […]
In the darkness you see a light
A gun and a single shot is in sight.
Both hands for the table you reach
You smile and think of that day at the beach.
You load the gun and give it a spin
*Click* it seems this time you win.
You on the table your blinking phone
along with that beautiful and subtle tone.
You open the phone and there it reads,
“You are a good friend Zeke, indeed.”
But your feelings for her are infinitely more
Even when you look down the center of this bore.
Your purpose in life seems to be complete
To be a friend to someone that is joyful and sweet.
You give it a […]
“And I swear at that moment, we were infinite”
Is my favorite quote from my favorite book Perks of being a wallflower.
I must have read that book a thousand times, it always use to help me when I felt down, and I had a lot of favorite quotes from the book, that’s my absolute favorite, because I think we’ve all felt infinite at one point or another.
One time I felt like that, is on Halloween when I was really little and I was trick or treating, and I saw the moon and it was big and full and I couldn’t stop staring at it because I thought it […]
I feel so screwed up, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve had a cutting problem for years now, I can’t get a hold of it. I recently started dating someone and I still can’t stop. It just upsets him, I get patronized for it. Whenever I’m in a situation where I have no one to talk to and I have overwhelming emotions, it’s always what I turn to. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I feel like a burden talking about my feelings, they must sound so trivial and whiny. If I keep it […]
Getting fucking sick of all these people; Lets give them an answer
“I don’t understand why you would want to cut yourself”
’cause it fucking feels good and i love the sight of my own blood
“You’ll regret those scars”
No i fucking won’t. I want more. I think they are beautiful!
“You are only doing this for attention”
I hate this one the most. If you honestly think i’m doing it for attention, why did you find out TWO years after i started and that was only after i TOLD you ’cause i had a cut that was really infected because it was huge.
Fuck wit. […]
how long have I
been in this storm
so overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
water’s getting harder to tread
with these waves crashing over my head
if I could just see you
everything will be alright
if I’d see you
the storminess will turn to light
I want this to end!!!! I cant stop thinking about cutting.I just dont know how people stop. They’re brave. If only…
well i found out my friend died… i don’t know if he remembered me becuz we haven’t talked in a while.. i hope he does  cuz i’ll always remember him and what he was like and how he helped me… why do ppl i care about always leave?
mt sister still beats me… tho its usually for “fun..”
my mom and dad think I’m getting better, tho I’m not… a few friends help me. tho some don’t… they say they care about me yet they treat me like shit… i wouldn’t mind if they were nice to me when I’m going threw this  or helped me….
i cry […]
the pain has become more then i can handle. i need it to stop! i need it to go away!!!1 please!
i want to kill myself  but i can’t do that to the ppl in my life…. i can’t. but i can’t keep going on like this. i haven’t cut in a while  tho i badly want to!  but i know cutting isn’t enough anymore.
almost every other 14 year old girl in the whorl don’t have to go through this, why do i?  want to die  i want the pain to go away, PLEASE make it stop, please?
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle
“some gaddamn time…a man’s due t’ stop arguin’ with hisself. feelin’ he’s twice the gaddamn fool he knows he is….’cos he can’t be somethin’ he tries to be every gaddamn day without once gettin’ to dinner time and not fuckin’ it up….i don’t wanna fight it no more. understan’ me charlie? an’ i don’t want you pissin’ in my ear about it. can you let me go to hell the way i want to?”
—wild bill hickcock, deadwood.
that’s the second to last post on my facebook page. Â only one person got what i was saying. but it was only after another conversation that it […]
I’m a freshmen in college and I have not made alot of friends. I started getting anxious junior year of high school and it ended up being a social thing where i felt like i was constantly being judged by EVERYONE and still do. Either the social anxiety has caused me to be deeply depressed for about 2 and a half years or the depression has made me so withdrawn from being social with old friends and trying to meet new friends that my life has become a very boring one.
For an extrovert like myself it is literally torture to be sitting in my room […]
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keep on believing guys,
it’s not the end<3
i’ve been through it, and i’m alive.
now my job is to keep you alive too
It was valentines day, the day of love, and it was perfect. Things went on normally as they do, except everything was just so much more happier. Because as i had suspected, it would all just go down the drain instantly. Like it always does, i can’t have a great day without something twisted and messed up happening. So it’s 6:30pm and i get back from my new job i was working at [I just got fired from that job as well]. I get called into the residential advisors office because he was looking for me, really, really bad. I thought i was in alot […]
Ever since before i was born almost 17 years ago has my family been fucked up.
I have such high expectaions to live up too, and YES this includes suicide.
My uncle killed my aunt, and then killed himself
My cousin committed suicide left a note for his family that read “I’m in the shed”
I have no fucking way out.
MY PARENTS think i’m okay, i’m really not.
Ever since high school started 3 years ago, i’ve been hiding the fact that i cry my self to sleep and that i wish to die. I’ve been close, so many times but i’m lucky to have such a friend to help […]
I’ve finally finished reading through all my posts on here in the last three years.
ALL 101.
It honestly doesn’t seem like I’ve been doing this for that long, writing on here. It seemed like just yesterday I didn’t know what I was going to do with all my thoughts and feelings of suicide, keeping them wrapped up in my head could only keep me sane for so long and I was afraid I was going to lose it completely, more so then I already had.
Then I found this site, a place where I could get all my feelings out, where I could talk to others who […]
I always think back to when I tried to kill myself last year, OD-ing, and now I really wish I did it. Here’s some reasons why.
1. My family would finally wake up and face reality that everything is NOT “alright”
2. I would be in a better place than alive and my friends wouldn’t care
3. I wouldn’t always have my suicidal thoughts or this “illness”
4. People would actually think about me
5. At least one person would remember me
After thinking about that, I think of other reasons to why I’m alive.
1. My family sometimes cares enough about me to actually remember me from time to time.
2. Â I […]