so my daughter also has depression, maybe other things, but she is only 13 and really just started her journey. i feel like i have no room to breathe. no room for me. i know it sounds selfish, but i have struggled since 8 or 9 as she has.i have threats and attempts of suicide in my life. she posts all this stuff on facebook, everybody calls me. what am i doing?…do more…do this…what about this. i have had to put all my treatment for my depression and fibromyalgia and neuropathy on hold because i am disabled and don’t work. all gas in car, […]
i dont know what to do anymore, i say that alot because i dont. i want to give up but for some reason i cant. i cant move forward because there are so many things in the way, its like walking threw a brick wall. im stuck, and no matter what i do i cant be help because no one wants to. im alone. i think im in hell. is there an age where its inappropriate to cry, because when i do i eather piss people off or they start making fun of me. is that a bad thing now or is it just the […]
This is the first year where I will not have a family to celebrate my birthday with. I’ve received a card in the mail every single year from my parents, respectively, and this year, I won’t get that. I won’t get anything. Not that I need to receive something for my birthday but I’ll be completely alone.
The cuts of the one group of people who are supposed to love me no matter what are deeper than any knife or blade. What am I to do?
I can already feel my soul ripping apart. It’s going to hurt and it’s going to cause me to slip even […]
I shall never have the guts to tell you this but I’m sorry to have inherited your unhappy traits. However, I want to assure you that I’m going to end this “unhappy breed” in my generation. I’m so sorry to have questioned you why you brought me to this world. I can guess as a mother, it must have hurt you very much. I’m even sorrier that the question came from the bottom of my heart. I’d like you to know that every time you leave my room after a bitter conversation with me and sob in the middle of the night in the kitchen, […]
I always thought that the majority of my reasons is because of me… How broken and misserable i am… But now i realize… You are the reason why im completely broken and why im misserable…. Coz you’re a parasite… You suck me dry of my ambitions… How could i have energy to make my life better when each day you fill me with hate anger and resentments. I spend soooo much time with self pitty and crying. I spend so much energy pretending to be happy… And you know what… I cant pretend anymore… You wonder why i nag??? Well maybe coz the things you […]
Nobody knows what kind of hell i live in! People think im happy and ok… But im not! And so long as im in this hell… I will never be ok. Im sick and tired of crying… I just want it all to stop. I cant take anymore…
Nothing will change… No matter how hard i hope… No matter what i do… Nothing changes. And i cant take this anymore!!!!!
My mental health begun at the age of 8, kinda. That’s when I first recognised I was hearing thing’s that other people around me weren’t hearing, and I had the energy not even adults had. This begun to scare me, I didn’t know what to do with all the rapid thoughts racing around my mind and at 11 started to self harm, which I thought was the perfect way to deal with how I was feeling. It wasn’t, because still, at 21 I am self harming, to degrees where I require stitching and hospital treatment.
However, I’m 21 and I’m still here. I attempted suicide at […]
I cant be who i am when who i am gets in the way of what i so desperately want. To be loved, to be accepted as I am without someone telling me what i cant change is wrong or disgusting… So I hate myself. More so than anyone ever hated me. I dont think im a bad person, but every time I try to show someone how i feel, im met with this look of disgust and contempt, given lectures of total bullshit, brushed off, pushed away… even betrayed by people i thought I could trust. They were my friends until i couldnt joke about […]
There’s that occasional night where you just break down and cry because you know that no matter what, Things will never be the same again.
I don’t consider myself as being mentally ill but doctors seem to think that suicidal people are just that. All I believe is that suicide is right for me and yet I will be considered mentally ill with being locked up as a possibility. I am not like an animal clinging onto life no matter what purely because of instinct; I am an intelligent human being that has come to believe suicide is right for me through logic and with thought. Life is meaningless at the best of times, others can’t see this because they have so much going on around them, I have little […]
Hello guys. My name is Costy, I’m 19 and I am from Romania. I won against depression and this is my last post. I went to some train tracks to make fun of them.. such irony 😀 I love you all and I hope you will find peace no matter what you do. Goodbye :*
I wanna say thanks to you all for accepting me into this group. Never thought I’d find such amazing people that think just like I do. Not only that, but yall have the dignity to accept me for who I am and even though I’ll be dead this time next year and have a long way to go to get there (since I got a lot of funding to do), none of you told me DONT DO IT! That means a lot to me. Total validation and acceptance of my choice, and self ownership means a lot to me. As I plan my eventual end, […]
no matter if you commit suicide or die of natural causes in old age, the end result is the same: you will die in the end! Nature is cruel, heartless, and incredibly restrictive. For example, nature says the Ebola virus, which has no good function whatsoever, is more important than a child’s life. To me this is a horrible reality. No wonder people make up gods and believe in an afterlife. I however, do not because I am a man of observation. I can not look truth in the eye and deny it without being delusional and ignorant.
All all we are is meat. Most brains […]
E I miss you so so much I hurt every second of your absence I can’t go on like this I’m so tired of it no matter what know I love you with my whole heart I don’t blame you for what you did Im not someone that deserves greatness
I’ll always love you carino is what the letter said
I would trade no ones shoes to swap suicidal scenarios. I can imagine they are all just as bad as each other. Mental pain, physical pain, no matter what it is. Torment and pain beyond what most of us are capable of handling. How did i get to this place and scenario. Anyone ever youtubed what its like being a schizophrenic.. Its fun for the first ten seconds or when youre on a high then its depressing, scary, obtrusive, crazy and intruding.
Im schizophrenic almost every second of the day and meds do jack shit unless you want to be zombified do you.. No.
Ive heard shit […]
I don’t know what everyone on this site or blog goes through but it doesn’t deny the fact that each and every one of you is or are special. You might have cut, purge, or starve yourself today or you might even do it tonight. But guess what? That’s doesn’t change the fact that you are marvelous. Recovery is a tough road and is filled with swirls and curves and is definitely not a straight line but it’s possible regardless of what path you are on in life. You may be getting abused by others in your life but that doesn’t mean that you do […]
It’s been three years since I put up my first post on this site. Now being 21 years old. If I could go back in time and talk to myself in the past and tell her how the future is now I’d tell her just these few things.
You will fall in love with your prince charming. The perfect boyfriend. And you will have the best time of your life. Then have your heart broken, never seeing him again because you just weren’t good enough. But you will meet someone else. And you two will live together in harmony with a black cat who loves you […]
Here’s a piece of advice for anyone who needs it. Enjoy life. Even when all feels hopeless, enjoy life. Happiness, we chase a dream but it doesn’t exist. There is no pure happiness, we have to settle for 50/50. Peace of mind.
Life is what you make it? Partly true. Life can give you stones instead of lemons sometimes. It takes courage to face these problems. Believe in yourself and love yourself no matter what. Because there is always someone else in your shoes. Don’t let a bad past or things that have happened to you follow you through your life. No it’s not easy, life […]
I regret it completely.
I tried talking to my school counsellor, and another lecturer whom I hoped could trust with this problem. I just felt so hopeless that I thought that perhaps telling someone would lessen it (I don’t know, it was a moment of weakness).
Not only did that lecturer betray confidentiality – she told the counsellor that I wanted to commit suicide (which it do not) – and according to protocol she may have to report me. I couldn’t believe it. You can’t trust anyone, no matter what they swear or promise.
It was awful. The counsellor indirectly blamed me for her not being able to […]
I’m starting to have memory issues.
Sometimes, I forget I did simple things like brush my teeth or take a shower. After exams, I sometimes don’t remember anything about what the exam was about, and…
I’m scared. I’m afraid I’ll disappear. Fade out. Because if I forget everything about myself, am I still myself? Or am I just some empty shell, waiting to drop dead? A shadow? Because you know what happens to a shadow when it’s put in bright light, right? It disappears.
I don’t personally believe in God. Simply because if He was really all-loving and all-powerful, would He really leave us with things like misery, […]