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Why can’t I bring myself to do it?

by blank-clutter 2/24/2016

written by blank-clutter

There are so many moments during my day where I reach a moment of defeat then quickly resort to thinking suicide is the solution. I notice that the issue is far too deep to fix and I don’t have the energy to be able to fix it. But when it comes to the end of the day where I’m suppose to make the decisions and get the things I need, I go numb.

At this moment of my life I’m soooo bad with choices and it’s making this final one harder.

I just want my suffering to end, my heart is foolish enough to think it’s going […]

2/24/2016 1 comment

Old Blood and Drunken Giraffes

by Cordless 2/20/2016

written by Cordless

It’s been a long time since I’ve seen my wrists bleed.

I remember trying to slice my wrists in high school, and it accomplished nothing. I received no compassion. Instead people were disgusted and angry, and they scolded me and tried to shame me about it. I remember a slightly older classmate looking at my bandaged-up wrists saying “You’re going to have those scars forever and remember that dumbass thing you did.”

Here I am decades later, and the wrist has healed so well that I can’t even remember which wrist it was…. maybe it was both.

I tried OD’ing, and that was equally unsuccessful.

I didn’t keep cutting […]

2/20/2016 16 comments

Reflection

by Zetsumei 2/11/2016

written by Zetsumei

Not being interested in life, ain’t that cruel irony for ya…

Normal people will never understand.

To them, life is sacred and in their narrow eyes, “throwing it away” is sacrilege.

Being with someone that doesn’t understand, will never understand…

That’s our follies, for ya.

To the rest of the world, we are nothing more than parasites,

draining the blood of the economy and relationships.

Stuck on their high horses, anyone that doesn’t want to play Monopoly with them

is better off dead.

To my reflection across the world, this life doesn’t make sense,

don’t you think so too?

In your eyes, is being with a fellow outcast that scary, that unknown for ya?

Unless you still […]

2/11/2016 3 comments

Different struggles for different folks

by blank-clutter 1/31/2016

written by blank-clutter

Reading some people’s posts here sometimes makes me think that I don’t have it that bad, if things are written on paper. At the same time I think thought that I personally am much worse. People here have attractive personalities and can socialize so well, they say creative things and go back and forth with each other so well. In contrast I just feel like a lurker, a package containing all the negatives of the human experience who found the ultimate worse addictions, feeling sorry for himself and reading about people who truly struggle with real problems.

I wish I could communicate better, and I’m not […]

1/31/2016 3 comments

Is anyone out there?

by blindaudio 1/25/2016

written by blindaudio

It’s pretty late where I’m located right now. Normal people are sleeping. I should be as well, although I can’t seem to do that at this time. I need to get up for work in about three hours, and if I don’t do that, this day is going to be long, no doubt.

Do you ever feel like the silence is the loudest thing around? I’ve moved to a new area, and hardly know anyone. Sometimes I wish there were someone out there, maybe like a radio Dj, that one could listen to at these odd hours of the evening, and just let everyone know […]

1/25/2016 5 comments

Friends called me a psychopath today

by blank-clutter 1/7/2016

written by blank-clutter

I am trying to keep it together and not express anything that would show how angry and sad I am all the time. I feel like I have terrible thoughts and urges but Im trying to keep it all inside because I dont want to hurt anyone. Today during dinner my roomates were having a conversation and I was thinking I wish I could participate better. I wish I could have a proper conversation and be engaged like normal people are. Instead I was just playing with my napkin. I eventually started ripping and tearing it. They pointed out, you know psychopaths do that, then […]

1/7/2016 8 comments

What kind of movies do SP peeps like to watch?

by bah 1/7/2016

written by bah

Hm, I’m wondering if suicidal / depressed people tend to watch certain kinds of movies more than “normal” people. What kinds of movies do you like to watch? Horror, sci-fi, romance, action, comedy, crime, etc?

I wonder what happy people like to watch? Mostly happy-feel-good movies? Bleh.

I like watching end-of-the-world movies lol. Maybe I want the whole world to end 😛

Likes: action, sci-fi, horror, end-of-the-world, documentaries

1/7/2016 15 comments

A lost Aspie

by pitterftally 11/18/2015

written by pitterftally

I have Aspergers syndrome.

I am a girl. Its not that visible. I am supposed to be very high functioning. The more I realize my struggles and my differences in contrast to other people.

I am pretty much down.

I just cant navigate through relationships. I cant let go of people. I still love somebody whom I loved five years ago, who moved, who I dont see anymore…etc. I make people mad. I make fuss of things that arent important. For normal people. I have just ruined another relationship of mine, because I was too pushy, too needy. I just dont seem to do anything right. Even weird […]

11/18/2015 4 comments

by nm 11/17/2015

written by nm

I. Am 22year old lady.i am so depressed that I dont want to live anymore.before I wanted to die soon but by natural death and was a no to suicide always but now I have no choice left.i am 5 6 tall 38kg..u can guess how thin I must be..and its irritating when always people tell how thin u are

ver and over again..and they keep on telling you will never get a guy if u don get healthy..and whatever I do I don’t put on weight.next thing is I am very silent I have seen many other silent people but I am tooooo silent than […]

11/17/2015 4 comments

by sadsadist 11/13/2015

written by sadsadist

I don’t understand why I’m always alone and why I always feel alone at least normal people can pretend

11/13/2015 4 comments

Lies & Distractions

by iicookieii 10/28/2015

written by iicookieii

I’ve come to believe that medication and therapy are nothing more than distractions and lies meant to blind people to the truth.

When I view society, it’s obsession with reality television, celebrities, and it’s influence on buying happiness, I see proof. When I watch the news, I see horrible disasters. I see people dying, people being murdered, people being slain. I see greed, pain, and suffering. I see war, drought, famine. And of course, what do they always do after these stories play? They find something trivial to distract you from the issues of the world. They tell you about Beyonce’s latest album, or some dipshit story about […]

10/28/2015 4 comments

I’m done… This is my story

by nvm12 10/13/2015

written by nvm12

I feel like I’m done with life. I can’t go on beyond this anymore.

I’m a 24 year old guy. I’m severely depressed. I’ve never in my life had a girlfriend, and it looks like this is my life. I’ve always been too shy and socially awkward and I basically can’t approach girls and don’t know how. And I’ve also been rejected by the handful of girls I’ve approached. I don’t bother trying anymore. I’m sure that even online dating won’t work for me, so I haven’t tried it. Besides, who wants to date a depressed suicidal person anyway? The irony in all this is that […]

10/13/2015 28 comments

weary

by jadedkeizy 9/30/2015

written by jadedkeizy

I am so weary. I cannot stop thinking about death. The thought of smiling scares the hell out of me. I lack enthusiasm to make moves or find a job. I am fucking useless piece of shit. I cry uncontrollably and can do virtually nothing meaningful with my life. My friend beat her depression and anxiety. She’s always been there for me but it looks like she’s getting a little distant because my depression is chronic… just when I thought I was gonna turn my life around.

I radiate negativity and sadness and well, that’s not something normal people or those that have finally decided to take charge […]

9/30/2015 4 comments

by jadedkeizy 9/1/2015

written by jadedkeizy

Just tired of life. Tired of dealing with mindless sheeple out there. Tired of the world and its empty material pursuits. Tired of faking the funk when I obviously don’t give a shit about anything anymore. I am to mentally sick to do anything meaningful with my life. I have come to terms with my fate. Tired of family that only tells me to pray to mythical men in the sky as a remedy for my depressive state. Sick and tired of all that. I am going to pop 5 lethal pesticide pills and that will be it. I have always been looking for something […]

9/1/2015 1 comment

Those who have gone..

by rubdoo50 8/20/2015

written by rubdoo50

Is anyone else on here fascinated with the faces & stories of those who have committed suicide?

I spend hours watching YouTube “people who have committed suicide” then researching everyone of those faces to learn their story & look at their facebook pages.

They all look like such beautiful, everyday normal people

I hope to have their bravery someday soon!

8/20/2015 6 comments

Some quotes for the day…

by jadedkeizy 8/17/2015

written by jadedkeizy

“There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, ‘There now, hang on, you’ll get over it.’ Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.”
? Barbara Kingsolver, The Bean Trees

“Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. That’s above and beyond everything else, and it’s not a mental complaint-it’s a physical thing, like it’s physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. They don’t come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people’s words do; they come […]

8/17/2015 2 comments

Just sick of this Bullyshit….

by jadedkeizy 8/3/2015

written by jadedkeizy

Okay, I was seeking advice and my brother gave me this B.S :

” People react differently to pain.Its so easy to opt out of life…It takes courage to face life.one is the way of comfort the other is the way of maturity.Those that stand in the way of comfort are miserable right now.Whats the cure?Man was created to entrust himself to His creator…not to live for anything else.As soon as these posts change,man loses the courage to live.We are created to fellowship in the love of God…Grace and Peace to you through our Lord Jesus Christ who LOVED US and shade His blood for all our […]

8/3/2015 11 comments

What to do with my torturing life?

by flatliner 6/26/2015

written by flatliner

I am 18 years old and i have been depressed and sad every single day of my fucking life for a very long time now. From the time that i wake up in the morning until night before sleep i feel terrible and sooo depressed and i can’t live like this anymore. My awful physical appearance make me hate my self and become an introvert. I am very short and have a small childlike face. I literally look like a 10 year old kid. I never had a relationship with a girl and never will. I am just an outcast in this society. This makes […]

6/26/2015 2 comments

You’ll laugh at this

by TheRoadSoFar 6/9/2015

written by TheRoadSoFar

It’s like fucking 5 o’ clock in the morning, a time in which normal people can sleep right? Well screw that! What a better time than this? This just happened to me.

I was talking to my best friend (and unluckily for me I’m in love with her). That’s why I’m awake.

So yeah, things were going normal until she said “I love you” and lots of hearts. For some reason I knew she wasn’t the one who was sending those messages. But then again you couldn’t imagine how happy I was.

Guess what? I was right. I then received a voice message that said it wasn’t […]

6/9/2015 4 comments

Scars

by maxwell 4/28/2015

written by maxwell

We all have our own stories some may be worse than others but Every scar that buries deep within my skin holds its own story, every one of them shows a victory, its showing that I have won yet another battle with life, so why hate me and judge me for what lies on my arm, you don’t judge a soldier for a battle wound or scars because he got that fighting a war for his life, I did the same thing I have won a war for my life and these are the wounds and scars that have been left behind for me to […]

4/28/2015 1 comment

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