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by the-lord-of-the-lamps 5/10/2015

written by the-lord-of-the-lamps

I told myself I wasn’t going to post here until I started my short story, but I found an old journal of mine and felt like I should post anyway. I was flipping through it and I was kind of startled at how much I wanted to die. Not because I’m better, but because I have made absolutely no progress. If anything, I’ve gotten worse. I’m more isolated now. I feel things less. I’ve lost any bit of hope I had before.

Damn, usually when I see these types of things, people always say how much better they are, and I’m jealous. I don’t want to […]

5/10/2015 4 comments

hi there?

by kukushafeek 5/10/2015

written by kukushafeek

hi my name is kuku thats just a pet name.
i am 26 years old facing depression and loneliness i have never had a gf (girlfriend) while all the friends i know (which are very few) are happily in a relation not just that am really unhappy am looking for a suicide partner or probably a friend i dont know

5/10/2015 9 comments

Speechless

by emmurementsss 5/10/2015

written by emmurementsss

Ever feel like you can’t get any words out? Let alone care enough about communicating? I guess it’s my way of saying fuck you to the world, just ignoring everyone and everything. In life is death, in death is life. Bringing an end to an inevitable miserable life is not cowardly, at least it will be on my own terms. You know what pisses me off the most? These “social norms” that we are all supposed to abide by. The “how are you”, “I’m good thanks and you” get pretty fucking old very fast. I guess I’m just sick of it all. I’m sick of […]

5/10/2015 3 comments

Broken.

by xintaxs 5/8/2015

written by xintaxs

Well, I will uh, I’ll keep this concise. I am admittedly young. I am old enough to realize that I have feelings for members of the same sex, and, when my parents found out, indeed, my dad broke into my phone and found my boyfriends contact, we’re not happy. Their supposed perfect son was…. Undesirable as far as they are concerned. They have tried to get me to fix my “lifestyle” and “help me though this phase.” As it is, this is just…. Breaking me. I physisically cannot fathom how who I care about can make me undesirable. And while, I have figured might as […]

5/8/2015 3 comments

Improvement

by mortuarychic 5/8/2015

written by mortuarychic

I haven’t been on in a while nor have I written anything in quite sometime. I don’t know exactly why, but I just haven’t. My life has taken a turn and it seems to be a positive one for a chance. I fell in love despite my best efforts. It was quick. I knew as soon as I saw him and talked to him it was over. POW! Head-over-heels in love. He means everything to me, essentially he is my life. We moved in together and it seems to be working out. Honestly the biggest change in my life is that I am about 4 […]

5/8/2015 3 comments

A post from an old newbie?? Musings from someone who has been here a while and is looking for a chance to get involved in this community………………………

by Lost26 5/8/2015

written by Lost26

Hello SP community!!!! How is everyone doing today?? I hope you all are as well as can be expected……….. I know that those of us that even come to a site like this are not in the best Mental Health and if you are anything like me you really don’t have too many (or maybe none???? I know I fall into such a category…..) good days. But I can wish it for you and perhaps something can come along and make the day a little more tolerable and a light of hope-if nothing but a spark-can help you make it through one more day. So, […]

5/8/2015 41 comments

Once upon a time…

by justanothergirl09 5/7/2015

written by justanothergirl09

Well, I guess it’s time for my story. I have made some posts but I guess it’s time to say the real deal.

Ever since I was a kid my mom would spend most of the time at a hospital. I usually stayed with her best friend or someone that took care of me since I was a baby. Such a nice old lady. She was like the grandma I never had. So yeah, I went to a private Christian school and had a few close friends. Well there were times when the security guard would go looking for me telling me my mom was outside […]

5/7/2015 1 comment

I Don’t Know What to Do

by wiltingsucculent 5/7/2015

written by wiltingsucculent

I guess I’ll just start from the beginning here… I found this site while looking up suicide information, and I guess you could call this my last resort.

I’m 18 years old, raised under an abusive mother and a father that loved me but never stood up for me and my needs. The last age I can remember not being depressed was probably around 12 years old. I’ve been told by my family and friends that I need to simply choose to be happy, but that simply isn’t working for me. I know I’m sick. I hear voices and have episodes where I forget who I […]

5/7/2015 3 comments

First time posting.

by CyneAdr 5/4/2015

written by CyneAdr

Hello.

I dont really know if this is how im supposed to write this but anways. I’ve been lurking this site for a while and i finally decided to make an account. I guess i should introduce myself ( to whoever is reading this ), anywas not gonna share my real name but lets say my name is Cyne. I’m 18 year old male and have been dealing with depression since around 11-12 years old, maybe even before that but i didnt really notice that it was effecting me. I guess the major part of my depression and thought of suicide is being alone, dumb reason […]

5/4/2015 7 comments

Kitty b!$@#ed out

by jennjenn 5/4/2015

written by jennjenn

My best friend died. We were hardcore drinking buddies. She was 26. I told her about my withdrawl nightmare (but it actually happened). She died with an old man, that she didn’t care about, but he bought her vodka. I guess I was the last one to talk to her. It took them four months yo let us know she died from withdrawls. I f!$@ing died from withdrawls. He found her cold, hands frozen in place, thats what he told me.

I wanted her to come here, maybe I could help her. Both parents dead at 17. She was a tough girl. He wouldn’t ler […]

5/4/2015 2 comments

life

by PainNlife 5/3/2015

written by PainNlife

…its hard… It’s harder…and occasionally it’s on super extraordinary hard mode…

I’m an old member who thought I was done with this place…. Right… Not even close. I won’t say I wish I was dead. But I wish I could free myself ….

After retrospectively examining every second prior to this I now understand that it all boils down to choices….

There isn’t anything stopping us from making better choices.

Seriously just think of a few choices in your everyday life that could drastically change your life. Something as simple as a bus ticket can change your life. If you are underage a new book, look, game or friend […]

5/3/2015 11 comments

My Brother

by Astley 5/3/2015

written by Astley

Hi, it’s Astley. So on friday, I walked into parents room and my dad says “You’re wearing long sleeves” and gave me a look. I sat down on the bed and my three year old brother leans over and said “Let me see” I pulled up the sleeve with my cuts on it and he looked at me and said “Now the right side” so I showed him (no cuts on the right side) and he said “good job” then went back to teen titans…

5/3/2015 5 comments

My story..

by Astley 5/3/2015

written by Astley

Hi.. My name is Astley. I’m fourteen years old and I think I’ve been through a lot. My grandma has ALS so my family’s been gone a lot. I’ve been cutting for over a year and I really really want to kill myself. I struggle with horrible anxiety, Anorexia, and depression. I honestly hate myself. More than anything. I don’t think I deserve to live. I think I’m more trouble than I’m worth and I do take more than I ever give in. I hate myself so much. If I kill myself though, so will my boyfriend and I just can’t do that to his […]

5/3/2015 1 comment

All alone tonight once again…

by BrokenAngel8 4/28/2015

written by BrokenAngel8

Well It looks like I’m all alone once again in my dorm room tonight.. Worse part is I walked down to the lobby of my dormitory and saw a big group of my friends playing a card with a group of guys. Said hi and they said hi back the rest just look at me awkwardly and do I say anything no. Thinking about reopening some old scars on my thighs with one of the spare razor blades in my dresser drawer to cover the pain for a while and just move on…. Much better then break down crying and maybe get some sleep.

So what […]

4/28/2015 3 comments

Question for the regulars or administration

by jennjenn 4/28/2015

written by jennjenn

Can I post a picture of an old si? Solely for the purpose of hoping it might stop someone else?

4/28/2015 4 comments

sigh

by spvnalittlelie 4/28/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

life has been really hard on me these past few days years. i kinda want to go to the library in town, check out a g i a n t stack of books, and just read somewhere quiet and out of the way. there are some books i want to read i haven’t read before, and a couple old favorites i want to read again. i’d have to walk there, and it’s kinda chilly outside, but i should be fine with a jacket. letting it warm up a few more degrees, and then i might. these probably are going to be my final […]

4/28/2015 6 comments

who fukin cares

by jizmhead 4/28/2015

written by jizmhead

My cat is my best friend and my mother, my children are awesome but live with their mom, big accomplishment from a 37 year old male! Been completely alone for a few days and have spent much time pondering the remainder of my crippled life. I survived a motorcycle accident in 2011, have T.B.I. that has affected motor skills on my right side. I can go on about how drastically my life has changed in what seems a blink of an eye but who really gives a fuck! I do not want this existence, I’m %100 cognitive, very intelligent but everyday I stare down the […]

4/28/2015 4 comments

My Way Back

by johnbp123 4/27/2015

written by johnbp123

I’ve suffered from depression a lot in my life. In the late 1990’s, approaching 40 years old, I fell into a deep depression my wife later said I should have been hospitalized for. I was overweight, had left my job and sold our home hoping to follow my dreams. I was (and still am) married with 3 of my 5 children still at home. The 2 oldest had started college.

The money I made from selling our home began dwindling away. I didn’t have a concrete plan or goal as to what I wanted to do but just a vague idea. I ended up moving my […]

4/27/2015 0 comment

A rant; Suicide and opression

by cephalus 4/27/2015

written by cephalus

This was going to be a comment… somewhere… But it got promoted to a post.

I think a future where society has dissolved the taboo that one should /not/ have control over their own life, is a great and wondrous one. I would argue control over ones life is a cornerstone of freedom, and without that basic right, we are oppressed.

The natural order is to die from disease, not from old age. Today life expectancy has doubled *worldwide* since the 1900s. So, It seems we are just entering the era of death from old age (if 70 is old). Still it is almost always from illness […]

4/27/2015 6 comments

Suicide is inevitable. Questioning how to go about it

by pointless821 4/26/2015

written by pointless821

I am going to commit suicide. I want to. I am a really blessed kid, but I do not like living. Just seems pointless. The issue that is eating at me so much is whether or not to tell my mother and sister beforehand. I think about it as if it were a terminal illness. Would my mother and sister rather me get hit by a bus and hear that I’m dead, and have it hit them like a brick wall? Or would they rather me have a terminal illness, where I only have, say, three months to live? I like to think the latter, […]

4/26/2015 12 comments

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