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Sick of life

by whyshouldibother
written by whyshouldibother

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m lost and no ones helping me find my way. I’ve fallen out major with the person who saved me, I want to talk to him but he’s deleted me from everything except my number. Seeing him happy without me at school breaks my heart because I’m not happy without him. I miss him so much. Makes it worse when I’ve got to spend a week with him in Poland with my school. It’s going to be so awkward.

I’m even making myself go deaf by how loud my music is when I have my earphones. I like to […]

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Why Didn’t I Die?

by Thesuicidalfreak
written by Thesuicidalfreak

I tried to do it about 3 days ago. I tried to take my own life. It was a situation where it should have happened, and I was prepared for it. I had written all my notes to everyone who would have cared and I cleaned my room so it wouldn’t be a hassle afterwards. I was ready and I did it. I drank bleach until I couldn’t take it. I knew the end was near and my peace would soon come. But my peace never came. I woke up the next morning drowsy and in pain. But 3 days have now passed and the […]

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All life is just a progression toward and then a recession from one phrase– ‘I love you’

by alina_01
written by alina_01

Its what we all seek ultimately whether we want it or not, is it not true? We search this world for someone who understands us who can accept us and love us, thats the dream. To mean something to someone, at least based on my perspective how can I mean anything to myself if I mean nothing to no one? When I was younger I always wanted love I mean I never truly had it I was drunk on the idea of love and in my mind love was the only thing that could heal my brokenness. I found love, it was amazing truly and […]

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Nothing

by creeper tales
written by creeper tales

I’m not here,
I’m not there.
You can’t find me anywhere.
I have left,
I have gone.
Cause everyday
made my life wrong.
What people do,
what people say.
” I hate u”,
” Go away.”
I tried to keep calm,
and have no fear.
But it got too much,
so i disappeared.
I took a rope,
and made a bow.
Put it around my neck,
and just let go.
For a second there was pain,
but soon there was no more.
As the life in me left,
my body went limp and poor.
Nobody knows,
nobody cares.
I’m transparent,
as thin as air.
People’s […]

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CUTTING

by sad_face7
written by sad_face7

I cut myself for the first time in a year…I hate on what I did but I had to get the pain out one eay or other…im trying to hide it from my family because my grandparents said if I do it again they are going to make me go to a hospital so I can get help…but here the thing no one can help me only I can help myself because its my doing

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Day 25?

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

It’s 8:30 here and I am already exhausted… I haven’t been getting much sleep these past few nights… Maybe 4-5 hours at the most? Maybe less? All I know is I have been going to bed around 1-2 am and waking up at 5-6:30 am… So not much sleep there… But ya know I don’t really care… Well I guess I do because I feel lonely those 3-4 extra hours and I don’t know what to do with myself…. I start overthinking things. I start wondering, questioning, questioning my very own existence. Why am I here for? What am I here for? What is […]

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Nobody knows it but Me…

by snowflake
written by snowflake

Snowflake

 

 

You see that girl? She looks so happy, right? Telling jokes, smiling, having a great time and… Dying inside. She’s hurt, And tired. Tired of the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn’t want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking. So she keeps it all inside. Acts like everything’s perfect but cries at night. So everyone thinks that she’s a happiest person they know. That she has no problems and her life is perfect. If only they knew the trust…  :’(

I can’t do this anymore, I really can’t…

I wish I […]

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Day 24

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

It’s almost 10 here and I am exhausted… Needless to say I do enjoy writing, just not when I am extremely tired. So if this is short I do apologize for that.

Now how are you? (Don’t forget to comment! I do read them… Sometimes I forget to reply… Sorry, but I do read them!)

How am I? Physically: Sore, Tired, Exhausted Mentally: Broken

My physical state… Well I went skiing tonight (for ski club) fell down and my ski tip jabbed into my inner thigh soo that’s bruised. I had a few panic attacks and two breakdowns where I couldn’t take […]

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After all these Years

by lostandconfused17
written by lostandconfused17

Why after all of these years must these thoughts return?

The dark urges screaming for pain,

Begging for the split skin and spilt blood.

Purifying my soul.

 

Why after all of these years have they returned?

The voices screaming silently in my head,

Screeching their displeasure at my joy.

Burying my pain.

 

Why after all of these years must they be heard?

The drip, drip of blood spilling on tile,

The scent of it rising in the air,

To cleanse my mind.

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Day 23

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

How are you? How’s your life? How is your day? Don’t forget to comment down below how you are! I do want to know!

NOTE: Really sorry for this being a long post… I didn’t really try to… Writing is the only way I can get my feelings out.

How am I? Does it even matter how I am? Does it matter? Maybe it does. Maybe it doesn’t. How am I? Physically? Sore. Bruised. Hurt. Scarred. Mentally? Broken. In Pain. Hurt. Scared.

My physical state… I keep getting headaches… Waking up this morning I hit my head on my wall and it hurt like crazy, but […]

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An open message to God

by nozmoking
written by nozmoking

I thought I once knew who or what you are. I am not stupid; I can see the wondrous universe and all of its beautiful order and structure and I know this did not happen by chance. But all I know of you now is the pain you think I and others need. I awaken every day with my addictions to something better and my burning desire to leave my broken body and relieve the searing burn of my broken spirit. I am through begging a higher power for delivery. I am done feeling the compulsion to dig an artery out of one of my […]

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Suicide is painless – Johnny Mandel

by SuicidalBilly
written by SuicidalBilly

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Through early morning fog I see

Visions of the things to be

The pain that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see…

 

That suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

And I can take or leave it if I please

 

The game of life is hard to play

I’m going to lose it anyway

The losing card I’ll someday lay

So this is all I have to say.

 

That suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

And I can take or leave it if I please.

 

The sword of time will pierce our skins

It […]

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I am.

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

im shivering
im cold
im crying
im broken
im alone
im terrified
im shivering

doors close
radio on
darkness within
no light
pain hurts
hurting now
doors close

feeling lonely
feeling useless
feeling worthless
feeling terrible
feeling hurt
feeling suicidal
feeling lonely

i scream
i yell
i talk
i whisper
i hear
i listen
i scream

within me
within darkness
within pain
within hurt
within loneliness
within brokenness
within me

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People Are Full Of Bull.

by Peachturnover
written by Peachturnover

People tell you to not kill yourself and they give you every fucking reason to do it. How’s about it’s my life and I will deal however I feel like I can to get over the pain. Someone hurts you and then tells you how to deal? That’s just bullshit. I believe if you don’t want to go through pain, you shouldn’t cause it in the first place. You can’t call yourself a good person and then go around using people. I never thought a piece of ass was so damn worth hurting someone over. Or money for that matter. I always thought that as […]

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Over did it…

by PhantomShadow
written by PhantomShadow

I’m in agony right now…every movement is pain and I know it’s going to be ten times worse tomorrow morning.  Hopped up on myprodol, tramacet and coxflam and not even a slight improvement.  If this keeps up, I’m gona accedentally suicide on the pain-killers…though I fear it might turn into full blown attempt if the pain gets any worse…and it’s going to.  The fact that I am burning up from the widespread inflammation doesn’t help either.  I’m hot, sticky, in agony, miserable, unable to move and confined to my room so I can turn on the fan…family is actually feeling cold…I’m feeling like I’m boiling.

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i dont matter

by LetItGo
written by LetItGo

ive decided to bottle things up again. ive decided that it doesnt matter if im breaking, broken, or perfectly fine. it doesnt matter that i want a hug. it doesnt matter that i feel so broken and in pain at times. it doesnt matter. me. i dont matter. my feelings dont matter. everything about me doesnt matter. what matters if you guys are okay. if you are okay good. i dont matter. it doesnt matter. my life. my feelings. my pain. it doesnt matter at all. what so ever.
ive also decided that im going to start lying. if you ask me how i am […]

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Consuming Guilt

by EndlessWhispers
written by EndlessWhispers

I found out Thursday that my cousin ended his own life. The entire community is devastated. My father and Grandfather were both close to him. I have this guilt in me that is just all consuming. All I want to do is cry. A year ago, this could have been me. If I succeeded in killing myself, I would be the cause of more pain than I could ever deal with. I should have been a better family member, a better person. Maybe I could have done something, seen the signs, and now my entire family is feeling so much pain, and al I feel […]

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confused

by Jayykeith3312
written by Jayykeith3312

I’m at the point where I feel like I’m only living so the people I’ve grown so attached to don’t have to deal with my death. Knowing I’d be missed does feel nice because not all people can feel that. But living for everyone but me is taking it’s toll. I’ve been thinking about suicide everyday for a couple months, each day its becomes more desirable. Even though I know I’ll be missed, I still feel alone. I don’t see my future going anywhere. And I’m okay with dying. But pain is what brought me to this point and my death would cause a lot […]

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