I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m lost and no ones helping me find my way. I’ve fallen out major with the person who saved me, I want to talk to him but he’s deleted me from everything except my number. Seeing him happy without me at school breaks my heart because I’m not happy without him. I miss him so much. Makes it worse when I’ve got to spend a week with him in Poland with my school. It’s going to be so awkward.
I’m even making myself go deaf by how loud my music is when I have my earphones. I like to drown my sorrows in my music, though still nothing gets any better. I’m seriously thinking about self harm, I know you might say no but I’m trying to swap the pain in my head to the pain on my body. I feel like I’m losing everyone and everything around me. No one understands. What should I do?
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I’m aware of how you feel. Although my situation is slightly different it feels like everything is gone. I’ve started having anxiety attacks that last what feels like all day because of how often they come. The meds barely help to quiet my mind anymore. I’ve been in your shoes. I’ve been engaged twice. The first time she cheated on me. This time I’m still not sure where we are going with things. Its crazy how quick life can shit on you no matter how good of a person you are. I’m sorry for the pain you’re in. It’s rough and I’ve been planning a way out for a long time. I carry my note in my wallet just in case. How old are you?
I’m 13 🙁