Hey everyone, Frodo here (for those wondering, no that isn’t my real name, though it’d be pretty cool if it was). I don’t really know what this site is for, as I found it while searching up how painful it is to overdose (apparently very painful). Â But I decided to register because I thought someone here might be able to help me. I just can’t take any more of my life. I know it sounds insanely selfish, but I just don’t want to live anymore. I feel incredibly weak for having these feelings, as I see people who have much worse lives than me be […]
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The girl was laying in her bed staring up at the ceiling, unblinking, her long hair streaming out around her. Her tears had made large damp marks on her pillow case. The door was closed; the blinds were drawn.
She was waiting for the pills to take effect.
She wondered how long it would be before she started to drift away. She hoped it would be painless and peaceful – just like in the movies. How long had it been already? It felt like forever.
She thought of her family. Of her brothers and sister. Would they miss her after she was gone? They had never exactly been […]
I see absolutely no point of being around.I just keep forgetting that and end up backing out of suicide before its to late.I cant keep doing that.Im not meant to be was never meant to be.My oldest sister will be leaving soon off to college i will never hear or see her again.I cant deal with that.
If i continue to live i will be homeless or institutionalized.My best friend says shell take care of me but she cant take care of herself let alone can i.I dont know how to survive this world.I cant survive this world.Ive thought of seeing if i can hang […]
To whomever will listen,
2 years ago my mom passed away of an accidental overdose ever since then my life has been awful. Before my mom passed away it was crap, but it got worse. She past away when  i was in 7th grade it seems like yesterday. In 9th grade during a school break i was alone watching my neighbors house for her since she trusts me and she was away for the week. During the time she was gone my friend offered to get me fucked up i turned her down because i wasn’t ready to fuck up, but just a day later everything […]
It has come to my attention that my disease is never going away. It is incurable. I’ve recently talked to a woman that is now 83, who has been on pills for this since she was 18. I’m 16. Never again can i spend the night, spur of the moment. If i miss too many pills they tell me my body will go into shock. That’s nice. I’m worried about my future, can i even have a child? I’ve researched that it may be complicated, depending. I have a higher chance for getting cancer. I have a chance of going blind. All these nice little […]
Every day I wake up and go through the same shit, nothing necessarily bad, nut nothing good, ever.
Every time I think something good is gonna happen and make stuff better, it doesn’t, and I just end up feeling worse.
I have a lot of friends, and I’m pretty popular, but every fucking day shit gets worse.
I used to be laidback and funny and outgoing and just a nice fucking person but everyday my patience runs shorter and I’m starting to become so paranoid and I get losses off so fucking easily anymore.
This has been ongoing for the past 6 months and it really hasn’t snapped into […]
So, suicide is a weird thing.
I don’t mean to offend anyone with the above statement so allow me to explain further.
Every day since it’s entered my brain that at some point whether in the near or later future, I will most certainly be ending my life, there has been a war inside my mind. Now, there has always been a war inside my mind. The devil and the angel on my shoulder..the good wolf and the bad wolf, we’ve all heard those examples and cliches, but all in all they sum it up. The good voice telling me I’m great and awesome and offer the […]
Honestly its pissing me off and I really needed somewhere to rant and get out all these terrible ideas and thoughts out of my head.
Me and my boyfriend have been going through a rough patch with my trust issues and his past relationship. But I have been trying to put up with it for a long while. I mean, I do understand that we will things that the others left behind but saying the you have already got rid of it and lying to my face. It hurts. The reason why im just so incredibly angry right now is because I found naked pictures of […]
My life has no meaning. I spend almost all my time doing nothing, when i try to do something different, i fail and feel like i can;t do anything. since i was 6 years old, my older sister would of called me names and yelling to me im incapable and retarded. It might sound like it’s not so bad but then again i have my mother yelling and shouting to me how much of horrible daughter. she tells me how my brother and sister are better and that she would of never got me in this world if she knew what i was going to […]
Last night… Well, last night I almost did it. I almost killed myself. The pain was at its peak. I’m on medication for depression, but I don’t think its working. If anything, it’s making me worse. My note was half finished, the pills and bleach beside me, blade in hand; when a friend called me. Stupidly I answered the call, despite the state I was in. As soon as I spoke, he told me to tell him what was wrong. And that made me bawl. He is the first person who has asked me what’s wrong even when I’d said nothing. And, even as I lied […]
Ok, I’ve never expressed myself like this before but I have nobody else to turn to. I am a 35 year old man whose partner left 5 weeks ago. I had a 19 year habit with cannabis, something I have given up since my partner left because it caused me to rage in uncontrollable ways. So would never physically harm her but the mental torture I must have put her through was intense. I don’t even know why. Now after 5 weeks off it I haven’t had one money of madness and feel good about that but there is one problem. She won’t speak to […]
Everyday seems to be getting worse…. I’ve been thinking of suicide a lot… I’ve been hurting  a lot but no one seems to notice it, I’m screaming for help but I’m not getting any.. I feel as if no one cares no ones listening. I’m so scared of letting go but at the same time I feel the need that it’s my time to go I will never be what anyone expects me to be everyone’s trying to change me.. Every little side comment that people make about me hurts me more inside than they realize.. It hurts to show my face anymore! NO ONE […]
Why is life so unfair? I’ll never understand. I’ll never understand why people can be so cruel, why people die, why we cant be happy. We are in a world where people actually want to die. But not for selfish reasons, not really. We just want the pain to end. And people dont get that. Many times Ive dreamt about ways to die. My friend says its “a cry for help.” But when I was doing it I didnt care about wanting to be saved. I just wanted it to end, it meaning the pain, the depression, the sadness. I didnt mean to fail those […]
My grama thinks that I dont aprisieat what my dad gives me but thats a l I do aprisieat but she keep saying Im not. My mother things Im stupid that I do everything wrong that Im lazy but is noI dont help a lot because everytime I do my mom fighs that I do it wrong. My dad was always there for me but my grama always say that i brain wash my dad so I dont talk that much with him anymore. I only had a special person in my life my best friend and started to be my love yes it was […]
Is it normal… to look in the mirror and not see yourself in the reflection?
Having been so caught up in everyone’s “expectation†of you. To have completely lost yourself trying to be what everyone else wanted you to be?
Every night you dream of this life, you could NEVER have, but every day you long for it.
You have all these hopes… dreams… ideas… that you want to fulfill but just not enough time to do so.
Then you go to sleep… still having yet to achieve anything extraordinary in your life, waking up in the morning realizing your one day closer to […]
I am not going into full detail of all the shit that made me who I am today but I’ll give you a little summary.
I was bullied horribly and pretty severely at a private school with 100+ kids and 20 kids in the grade. You were with the same people your whole pre-k to 8th year.
I contemplated suicide at the age of 11 and still do. I wouldn’t let my mom leave because the thoughts of it were overwhelming. She didn’t leave without me but she didn’t take it seriously. I was really going to take a knife and stab myself in the stomach. She didn’t […]
I’m a 14 year old girl going into highschool and I basically hate my life. I’ve attempted suicide once with pills but I ran out. I self harm. Only 3 of my closest friends know I hurt myself and I’m afraid word will get around. I don’t want to be a freshman and have a harder time in school because everyone knows I hurt myself. I’ve went maybe a month the longest without hurting myself. I hurt myself because I feel useless. I’m not pretty or very smart or athletic or talented or rich. Those are the only things people care about. I’m fat. I’ve […]
I’m 24 but i feel like i’m 16. Â This sumer has been the longest one ever I feel like I’m hiding from all my friends so that i don’t have to answer the question what are you doing right now? Whats next? Hows school?
What am I doing right now?! I”m trying not to fall off the edge every day feels the same and I’m wondering why am I still here why didn’t I die? Â I see news reports every day about innocent people being killed and i wonder why are they gone but i’m still here? Â Why couldn’t it work? Â Why am I so useless […]
i do not belong, in this world full of love, it’s easy to think things could all get better. trapped in the soul of the devil, consumed by his love for death it turns to be mine. the blade hungers for my skin, i hunger for the feel, it bites me deep and i smile with enjoyment. i can no longer cut as mother searches my body for new wounds of hate, the ashamed look in her eyes, WHY, WHY DO YOU CARE, you never cared for i, till you saw i wanted to die, none did. so instead i turn to pills lots of […]
IÂ just want to be happy with myself and be happy with my body
I became ill with m.s 13yrs ago.
so the drs give me pills to help with the pain but I got fatter and fatter
to the point I wont to end my life.
so I went to bed early one night with all my tables. and I tock them all .
but the next morning I woke up the some time I wake every morning.
so I had to make appointment to see my gp.
when I got to see him that day I told him what I had done the night before and I need my tablets […]