im thinking about ending it all tonight, i just really cant bare to be apart of this horrible world anymore, ive been getting nothing but depressed evry single day and each day it gets worse, nothing good is happening to me only bad things, im being bullied by my own family, and i just cant take it anymore. and on top of that i ran into my friend or should i say ex friend/ someone i liked and she was at the counter and i was standing in line at tim hortons and she didnt even wave at me she was freaking facing me too […]
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i dont know what to do… i like my ex agai… ive been waiting for her for 5-6 years now and shes in a relationship, but thats kinda going dwn the drain and ive been talking to ppl and they say she’s just using me and or toying with me. one minute she would flirt with me and the other she will keep her distance… were already doing “couple like things” where whang out everyday and text everyday, and even talk on the phone till we fall asleep every other day. ppl say that im her fall to guy but i dont want to be […]
some of my friends think I’m getting worse.. i can feel it too… it so hard! why is it have to be hard! ya no body said life would be easy. but i never thought it would be this hard…
my “group” of friends all know what they want to do when they’re older and done high school…. but i have no clue! and ya i know I’m only 14 and i have LOTS of time to figure it out. but do i really? high school goes by so fast… soon i’ll be in grade 12 and still with no idea what to do….
its […]
when people ask me how i am i don’t respond, becuz i can’t anymore.. i don’t know whats happening tho i feel I’m getting worse… ugh.. I’m in so much pain and i don’t know what to do anymore… i can’t even try to explain it to ppl anymore… its like I’m giving up.. but I’m still scared… i cry more uncontrollably.. i get mad at people more.. i piss people off more… and my friends seems like they’re leaving a bit…. or just getting more distant… I’m so F*CKING lost….. and scared and alone….
-RawrImaTurtle….
The last few days i have been feeling really depressed, and i stipped eating again. Yesterday i forced myself to throw up the food i ate. And i didnt eat at all today except dinner. The thing with my eating is i dont care about the side effects, thats why ppl cant help me.
well i found out my friend died… i don’t know if he remembered me becuz we haven’t talked in a while.. i hope he does  cuz i’ll always remember him and what he was like and how he helped me… why do ppl i care about always leave?
mt sister still beats me… tho its usually for “fun..”
my mom and dad think I’m getting better, tho I’m not… a few friends help me. tho some don’t… they say they care about me yet they treat me like shit… i wouldn’t mind if they were nice to me when I’m going threw this  or helped me….
i cry […]
the pain has become more then i can handle. i need it to stop! i need it to go away!!!1 please!
i want to kill myself  but i can’t do that to the ppl in my life…. i can’t. but i can’t keep going on like this. i haven’t cut in a while  tho i badly want to!  but i know cutting isn’t enough anymore.
almost every other 14 year old girl in the whorl don’t have to go through this, why do i?  want to die  i want the pain to go away, PLEASE make it stop, please?
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle
I am a little bit ashamed i am here now. I am not thinking about suicide again, at least not so often. I just have this constant feeling of being down.
I am sometimes thinking i am not capable of feeling good or enjoying life. I have those episodes of euphoria when something incredible happens and when life surprises me spontaneously. But i feel they are terribly rare. I know i have no reason to be unhappy because i have so many things and new people around me and i even learned to be happy because of others. I also tried to talk about my problems […]
Hey everyone. If you have read my post i then you will know alot about me if not then here it is i cut and burn, and suicide thoughts cross my mind alot. But today i want to hear your guys stories. I am doing a video for my school to share about how suicide efffects peoples lifes everyday. And i want your stories. If you would be willing to make a short more about what your going through or what you went through, how cutting burning or suicidee effected you or how its affecting you now> i would love to share and impact my […]
I will not kill myself! i will not take your crap . you will no longer play mind games with my emotion. i dont care that your my father you can go to hell and burn. To ever bully that ever teased me… FUCK YOU. You know what you guys are? pussies! spineless maggots that fed off my need to be like everyone else. One time i would have gave in and died. but now if i ever see you again DAD i will sock you in the teeth until someone bleeds. and it wont be me. To the man that raped me as a […]
what should i post about? this is my first post. i’ve got a couple of saved drafts where i started writing about myself and my situation and things i have been going through but i’ve put them aside for now, probably won’t go back to them. Â i feel ok, almost good at the moment. whenever i read a post from people on this website where they talk about their immediate feelings without talking about whats going on with themselves in the big picture, without talking about the whys and whats and hows, i sometimes dont like it because i want to know about those very […]
ppl its been so long since iv actually written something.
nothing has really changed in my life except dat it gets worse and i keep on sinking deeper and deeper into this dark hole, im so tired of all these emotions. Iv been going to church alot lately but when i get home i go back to the same old darkness and neverending pain. i cant stand this pain no more. i have nothing left to lose and its not like anyone really cares or truly loves me and it will be best if i just left dis world.
i thought it will get better with time […]
kay so if you’ve read my other entries you’d know how I’ve been and whats going on.
to recap me and my bf broke up becuz we had to…. i miss him so much.. i think I’m falling apart..
i don’t want to do anything anymore. I’m getting in fights easily. on chat pas on my iPod… i don’t know what to do!
i go back to school tomorrow and finals are coming up.. how am i suposto focus?.. and my friends… i don’t want to talk to them.. i think I’m giving up… some ppl are telling me to try and move on. the thought of it […]
it’s just hard to tell other ppl about my situation
Cuz they may not believe me or understand what I’m goin through…
So it would just be a waste of my time to tlk to someone
Tht really doesn’t care..
it irritates me soooo godamn much how everyone try to downplay my feelings and coin it as a sort of illness that can be overcome if I try. I’m not looking for sympathy. i don’t care about that either. ppl telling me im still young, i need to see a doc and such really ticks me off. when im angry, i throw things. okay, face it u do-gooders. u arent gonna save us. we dont need u saving. take ur nice ass off somewhere else. im trying my godamn best to live on. i dont need ppl saying to buck up, to try harder when im […]
I recently read this book called “Thirteen Reasons Why” by Jay Asher about a girl named Hannah who kills herself, but before she does she makes these tapes that explain why she killed herself, and who was involved in her making that decision, and then she sends the tapes to the people on them and tells them if they don’t pass them on, then someone who has a copy of the tapes will release them to the public at school, ruining their lives.
It got me thinking: What are my reasons? If I were to kill myself, what would my reasons be behind it, and would anyone […]
I would love to cht online with other ppl from my area for support. is there anyone on here from Australia?
im 16 my name is jeff, i am depressed and dont know why, my mom and dad got a divorce when i was 5 and i live with my mom, i am a christian, i hav a fairly good relationship with both of my parents, i’m actually not a bad looking kid, but i havent had a girlfriend in like 3 yrs, i feel very along bc ppl say they are there for me, the they arent. but speaking of girls, there is this one, and i dont know about you other guys (PLEASE TELL ME IF YA’LL DO THIS) but every time you think […]
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