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Broken Dreams

by buried and dug up 1/5/2013

written by buried and dug up

Somewhere life has nothing left for me,
Some how everything’s taken over,
There’s nothing left for me to be,
Nothing to keep me under…

Old and slow decayed is,
All this man has obeyed,
So tired and displaced,
Ill still run on and on misplaced…

All my dreams, never come true…
Is it so hard to ask for a father’s love,
When a cold stone is all I feel?
Hard rock against my chest,
Cold stones, all depressed,
All I ever see,
Are a load of broken dreams

Maybe Jesus Christ will come over,
Right when Hell freezes over me,
Maybe you can cry your way,
When your […]

1/5/2013 3 comments

Short story thing with no title.

by BladesxOfxHope 1/4/2013

written by BladesxOfxHope

I sit there, curious about the cut on her arm. She looks sad. Did she do it on purpose? My mommy is crying, she’s crying over Sophie’s body. Sophie did hurt herself.

“Mommy, what happened?” I ask.

My mommy just looks at me. She looks very, very sad. I think I didn’t ask the right thing. “Sophie hurt herself very bad.”

I am confused. Then I hear my big brother, my worst enemy, Joshua, come in. He looks at Sophie, who still hasn’t woken up, and this look of rage enters his face. He starts screaming bad things at me. “It’s yourÂ fault!”

“Why where you even born!?”

“You waste […]

1/4/2013 2 comments

I sit and wonder if I’m okay

by DiademS 12/29/2012

written by DiademS

school is going to start, it’s going to be a sudden change of pace… reading, always reading… so many people… memorizing stuff… I may not have to post anymore… it’s interesting to have gone through this in this way… i’ll be back but who am I?

I’m sore from trying, I’d rather be sore from doing… my head hurts on and off… 2 more days until a new year… will I be able to do it? will IÂ finallyÂ make it? I tell myself I’m strong enough… I do… I believe I’m ready to do this… Time is crawling…still I wonder, am I worth making this memorable again?

Did […]

12/29/2012 0 comment

Ranting and raving

by Tormenting Dreams 12/19/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

hey guys, have you ever been made aware that you were going to lose someone and the person you were going to lose didnt want to talk about it or didnt want you to help them?almost like they wanted to die, just give up and die. and you cant really talk to anyone but that one person. and because they dont want to talk about it ect. you bottle it up inside, and its like a wounded dragon who cant lick its wounds. so eventually it lashes out to make people feel or aware of what your feeling, and of course you look like an […]

12/19/2012 2 comments

This ugly boy needs to die soon

by legrandincendie 12/11/2012

written by legrandincendie

I don’t really care what people look like. Ugly people have every right to happiness and success as the beautiful, but I don’t feel that way about myself. I have not been able to look in mirrors since 2002. I’m so fat and ugly and I want Â to die. I will never be able to accomplish anything good in my life and I will only get uglier as I get older. But how do I do it? I need it to be painless and it must be successful.

I have always felt ugly since at least 8 years old. I remember getting in trouble at school […]

12/11/2012 3 comments

The story…

by Theloner 11/23/2012

written by Theloner

I’ve always gone back, to the place where I once sat and cried. I can remember the pain, watching all the little kids play and me just sitting there and wanting one to come over and ask if I would like to play with them. I remember when I sat on the swing and watch the girls play jump-rope and the boys played one their game-boys. I remember being alone. It hurt everyday, and everyday even more rage would full me up inside because I wouldn’t eat anything. I remember hating myself and wishing I could start over or die. It didn’t help that […]

11/23/2012 0 comment

just another day

by crazythoughts 10/30/2012

written by crazythoughts

I can’t calm the burning sensation of thoughts racing through my mind. i just want to sit in the rain and be washed away. i wish there was a way to control the Â rage of my emotions, but I feel like i can’t, because I do not know what is causing the pain. at the end of the day, i just want all the hurt to go away. i really do. what can I do? i hate being so alone everyday. so vulnerable, so dare i say, unhuman.

10/30/2012 3 comments

I need an advice, please…

by genius.otaku 10/22/2012

written by genius.otaku

Today, I am posting this because I need an advice. Like almost every comrades here on this site, I am suffering…A lot. I want to die…But I have no intent of suiciding. I have 3 personalities, so they gave me 3 different choices of what to do, so help me to decide:

My 1st: Continue to suffer, until somebody save me or I have an mental breakdown -> killer -> cops will get rid of me. This guy is weak, lonely, yet gentle and kind.

My 2nd: Cry loud enough to gain everone attention/fake mental breakdown. This guy is stronger, easier to get rage, but is also […]

10/22/2012 2 comments

I know this will sound stupid but Its been bothering me

by KRoN44 9/20/2012

written by KRoN44

Why is this blogging site called THE SUICIDE PROJECT, what do they mean by project. Is this a site studying emotions of dpressed people. I know I will get a lot of rage comments but I would like to know. It sounds stupid just reading it over. But still I wish to know

9/20/2012 2 comments

I just don’t want to live!

by Viktor 8/25/2012

written by Viktor

Hello, my name is Viktor D.
I’m from Serbia, and I have a lot of emotional problems, along problems with people.

I am a metal-head and people who don’t know what metal is and how good metal-people are, and that they also have emotions, and can be soft and good to other people and nice, polite etc. but when I see other people who don’t understand what it is, and when I see them make fun of it and me and my friends, it makes me burst with rage, but then I understand that even if they somehow get better and start to understand, there are […]

8/25/2012 3 comments

just another story

by helios 8/16/2012

written by helios

i’ve dealt with complicated thoughts and feelings my entire life, all of them inÂ theirÂ most extreme form. i daily go from being angry at everything else that exists, to quietly loathing myself in a corner. i had suicidal thoughts from the time i was very young, maybe as early as eight. i first really plotted to kill myself when i was sixteen. i even learned how to tie a perfect hangmans noose. i’m 20 now. and the thing is, that it really has nothing to do with my life. i don’t have any significant problems, hell, i even just got engaged to myÂ girlfriend. but i hate […]

8/16/2012 1 comment

My failure to die

by Blackart13 8/15/2012

written by Blackart13

hey guys just joined up, my story is about my failure to die.
it doesn’t begin in any fancy way, just with a girl, why is it always a girl? it’s been 10 years since i fell in love with her, both of us were nine years old at the time. but there never seemed like a time for us. for years we remained friends, best friends, but as close as we were it just never happened, i could never say how i felt. then she started seeing those guys, just in it for her looks and her body. she was clever enough never to […]

8/15/2012 1 comment

Have you ever truly hated someone?

by messi 8/11/2012

written by messi

People toss around words like “hate” and “love” pretty often and yet they don’t know what either truly feels like. I thought I knew what hate was at one point, but I got over it and let it go. Then I met someone who caused me the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. There hasn’t been a day in all these years I haven’t thought of that person, I dream about them, I think about them often enough when I wake up, during the day, and especially at night. Sometimes I picture resolving things with them but that’s extremely rare and not possible […]

8/11/2012 4 comments

New uderstanding

by balancedhope 7/30/2012

written by balancedhope

I went crazy yesterday.

Â Mom brought home the one who irrates me so. We had an agreement that I would get advanced warning we she was bringing him home. Yesterday she had left a message on my phone. I had be working in the barn and hadn’t had my phone with me.Â There’s a longer story but I ended getting upset and lost my ability to talk and think straight. I tried to contain myself/felt an explosion inside. Ended up mucking up two of my belongings(silently with no audience-it was the best I could do).

Today, he’s back again. Today there was not even a call before. […]

7/30/2012 0 comment

Trubadour

by gbfhjoshers 7/28/2012

written by gbfhjoshers

My mom had a bikers wedding. Real punk rock, real horrorshow.

That was dad #2, but I didn’t know that. Not at the time.

He was good at getting to the bottle, and the bottle getting to him. Then she remarried. A real stiff guy, the kind who could make diamonds.

We moved away from the continental US. That was the first time I became the black guy; attacked and ridiculed for nothing more than the color of my skin.

I’m a white kid.

Guam attacked me with a rage that I’ve never really lost. My first taste of real life, the first real look beyond the facade of peace, […]

7/28/2012 2 comments

Wish

by whatever. 7/21/2012

written by whatever.

Blacklisted – Wish

Please just give me a Chan Marchall eulogy

If I was ever anything at all, it’s all breaking news to me

Breaking down in a rage, just to apologise

It’s really so strange watching all these strangers sigh

It feels like I’m living through my last days every day

On your strongest of days, you couldn’t make me feel any less insane.

Wish the ongoing theme about me, wasn’t “He’s just crazy”

Wish I knew safety

Wish nothing phased me

Wish I felt more than just feelings of unrest

Wish the darkness didn’t cloud me

Wish I wasn’t an emotional wreck

—

I don’t think I’ll be able to relate to any song more than […]

7/21/2012 1 comment

Doing but not Moving

by SomeMalaise 7/12/2012

written by SomeMalaise

Had a rough few days. I’m so drained, and still have things to take care of. Crying every now and then. Music by my side, stuffed animal by my side. I do not hunger and I do not thirst. I just sit here like a brick as I keep moving forward. I read a an old posted link and It made me realize I am not as good as I thought. While other want to fight but don’t know how I’d just like to get away from everything. Away far away. I don’t know where that is. But it’s what I want. And just like […]

7/12/2012 2 comments

dark

by jeriko13 7/8/2012

written by jeriko13

my name is not that important but just for making it more human, it may be jeriko.
i constantky since years like with something i call “the dark”.
the dark is that part of me that constantly arise rage, hate and will of suicide … and for what i know he has a plan.
first he made me break with some friends, thne made me deaf to listening suggestions, then he isolated myself from reality.. and i guess that now reached its ultimate target, unlock all “breaks” that keep a normal person from doing stupid things.
i call them stupid but not as disrespect, but […]

7/8/2012 0 comment

i am the sacrifice

by --334560 7/2/2012

written by --334560

i cant stand that he still gets to walk around. he still gets to drink his beer sit on his fat ass walk around like he owns everyone spend all day on the computer stalking people on facebook. i cant stand that he will never be held accountable for the hell he made me experience and for ruining my life. all i feel is a very deep hatred that goes beyond what my body can contain. i hate having to see him. i wish i would never see him again. the problem is that my mother is still married to him and i love and […]

7/2/2012 4 comments

Really struggling

by SoVeryTired 6/28/2012

written by SoVeryTired

I am really struggling at the moment. My suicidal tendencies are so strong, I am so de-sensitised to the idea of killing myself, that it is really only my two sons who keep me anchored. When even that becomes not enough, I go into hospital, where I am now – again – the fifth time in 2 1/2 years, and I’ve already been in now for five weeks this time. I just looked at my progress chart, and basically there has been none – a few blips where I got better for a few days, and then I drop down again.
I am just loosing […]

6/28/2012 2 comments

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