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There are moments when even to the sober eye of reason, the world of our sad humanity may assume the semblance of Hell…

by KH 7/13/2015

written by KH

The title above is a quote by Edgar Allan Poe – one of my favourite writers, and if you haven’t read any of his works yet I highly recommend it!

Ive been reading through his Complete Tales and Poems recently and honestly I’ve never enjoyed myself more. His writing is beautiful, and the words come alive as you read them.

Anyways, the point of this little note is to say that Hell is already in the world in humanity itself. It is a tragic thing but it is logical in the sense that humanity is the worst and best thing to happen in this planet; so corruption […]

7/13/2015 10 comments

Don’t waste your time reading this.

by daitya 7/11/2015

written by daitya

Hun… 🙂

Here I am. Finally writing.

It’s been 3 or 4 years.

I don’t remember.

This is the good part. These days I don’t remember anything.

Everytime some feel something inside me. I can’t put this in words.

Emptiness. (Maybe)

As I said I can’t put this into words.

Please don’t pity on me. I am very bad person. I did some awful things in life. Which I regret very much. I feel guit everyday every moment.

Yes I do want to die.

But I can’t.

I have a girlfriend. She is the reason I can’t die.

Mother, sister…. are also the reason.

I have faced alot. I know. I know everything. Then why I am so […]

7/11/2015 1 comment

I want to get to know you.

by AfflictedSmile 7/10/2015

written by AfflictedSmile

First, who is your daddy and what does he do. Oh sorry, that’s Kindergarten Cop. (I’m silly, I know)

So the other day I was reading through posts here on SP like normal, and I read something someone posted and it really got to me. Because I could relate to her for one, but the way she spoke through her words and what she said just got the best of me. I mean my heart goes out to all of you, but this person really grabbed me. I don’t know how to use this site well. I know how to post, read posts and look at […]

7/10/2015 0 comment

It’s the beginning of the end and I don’t know where I lost control…

by amzibabi_666 7/8/2015

written by amzibabi_666

That’s a bit of a lie actually, I suppose i can pinpoint where, I just don’t know how…

First off, thank you to those who are reading this craptacular piece of…well crap.

I have read many of the posts on here, and have become completely immersed in other’s stories. Each of you are so important. It’s just a shame I am a spectacular hypocrite. There is no way I could say the same about myself.

I care for others, I seriously do. I care for others so much that I distance myself away. I don’t feel worthy anymore. It is incredibly frustrating and difficult to explain, even in […]

7/8/2015 3 comments

About Me

by nameisnotreallydave 7/3/2015

written by nameisnotreallydave

Hello everyone. I have been coming to this site on an off for several years now, anytime I was thinking about suicide. Reading the other stories helped me to feel that I was not alone. That I wasn’t the only lonely person in this world that didn’t seem to fit in anywhere. That I wasn’t the only self-loathing person that hated their existence and felt the need to apologize to everyone about it. I only ever indulged in reading though, never made an account or posted. It’s a tad narcissistic to just talk about oneself, so I never wanted to bother anybody with myself.

I have […]

7/3/2015 6 comments

My mind.

by cocoki 6/30/2015

written by cocoki

I’m not sure it I’m convinced that

nothing good will ever happen to

me or maybe I don’t deserve

what ever I do have I feel like I

can’t even do nothing without

being punished and I don’t know

y I wish I had the balls 2 do what

I think about almost every night.

I’m not going to proof read this bcoz I don’t like reading my thoughts.

6/30/2015 2 comments

Lastt Words

by mattmp55 6/28/2015

written by mattmp55

Hello all i beleive by the time you read this it will be to late so im just writing this for my family and ill leave it up so they can see. Ive finally reached the edge ive been battling depression and suividde since i was 13/14 years old and attempted it for the first time when i was 13 but i was not able to go through with it im 21 now i have streaches of good and bad but this year has really been it for me i recently moved back to my small hometown about 2 yrs ago after being away for […]

6/28/2015 3 comments

Lost

by Lota 6/26/2015

written by Lota

I’ve pushed away everyone who I used to care about. Each morning before school I sit in the library reading a book in a pathetic attempt to escape reality. The bell goes and I’m scared to go to class, then I become aware that I’ve forgotten my timetable. I get this sinking feeling and the anxiety starts to kick in. I’m shaking and I can barely breath when I realise that I’ve now got to speak to someone and ask where to go. Walking to class I’m pushed, laughed at and of course I end up running into one of my old friends, the one […]

6/26/2015 1 comment

Final farewell

by Bloodboil 6/13/2015

written by Bloodboil

Over ten years and counting.. I have never felt this calm before. Like a world has dropped off my shoulders.

Everything is ready. I have my method, I have my location, I have my suicide note. I have my courage and the means to an end. Nothing holds me back or opposes me.

The serenity of it all is overwhelming. Finally this torture ends

Thanks for the stories and reading mine way back when.

Good bye

6/13/2015 12 comments

Some things personal

by tralala 6/11/2015

written by tralala

fuck, i don’t know where to write. This is the only place i felt safe to write something down and make it public. I am sorry, I am not suicidal anymore. Life is way more sucky this way. I can’t let myself even fantasize about killing myself because now I am a bitter grown up person who is not selfish enough to allow myself those fantasies. But I am selfish. And my lazy, depressive and lost existence makes life difficult for people around me, just less difficult than it would be if I killed myself. So I am that much less selfish.

Some days are so […]

6/11/2015 8 comments

Dancing with the devil.

by lifeishorrible 6/5/2015

written by lifeishorrible

It all started with an urge to play the ouija board.So three days ago I started reading stories about playing with the board & that’s when It started.It started off with a scary dream but that’s It till today.I was smoking some fake weed & then I started choking on my tongue piercing.This happens often but this time It felt different.An hour later me & my friend are driving & smoking.Suddenly I started to trip out.I promise you Its not cause of the fake weed.It felt like someone,something was trying to possess me.Its like I was there but then It felt like I left my […]

6/5/2015 3 comments

Excelsior

by polaroidnat 6/1/2015

written by polaroidnat

Ive recently been diagnosed with manic depression. I’ve been reading the posts on here for the last few months. About 2 years ago I tried to kill myself by hanging and was nearly successful. I was unconscious and found by paramedics which is unfortunate. I’ve been battling with my depression for some time now and have had a partner on and off for the last 4 years. The support I’ve received from my friends and so called partner is diabolical. I know my parents will miss me especially my mum and I am so sorry and love you with all my heart. I just can’t […]

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6/1/2015 4 comments

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It’s been a while.

by lostsoulblanklife 5/20/2015

written by lostsoulblanklife

Hello everybody.

In my other posts, I do not think I made myself as clear as I wanted to. To me it’s a miracle I’m still here. Still breathing. Still fighting. A couple of weeks ago, I lost my best friend. She said I was too sad for her well-being. How selfish can one be? How inconsiderate?

I’m not surprised I feel like this. I feel like I’m at the breaking point. I feel hopeless not only about my social life but also because of my skin condition. I haven’t mentioned this in the other posts. I have acne. Acne that I can cover up with makeup, […]

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5/20/2015 2 comments

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Don’t die tonight

by gamma1 5/15/2015

written by gamma1

Please, please read if you’re considering suicide:

I have bipolar disorder and I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times. Every single one was a nightmare. I’m totally with you and understand you when you say you feel hopeless, lost, worthless or in pain. My depression is with me frequently and I often wish it would end.

The fact of the matter is that it will be with me, in some degree, for the rest of my life. And I’m ok with that. Because despite the difficulty and the occasional emotional torture, I know – I know – that life offers happiness too.

Relief does come, it will come, […]

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5/15/2015 9 comments

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What gives you hope?

by Mr. Bateman 5/14/2015

written by Mr. Bateman

We are all on here for a reason. But since you’re reading this, you haven’t done the deed yet. So what keeps you going? If you have something that gives you hope, whether it be a person, a special moment in your life, a dream, whatever, tell us about it. And if you don’t have something that gives you hope, just read others’ comments. Maybe someone else’s can become your’s too. As for me, this is a little something that has kept me going: https://youtu.be/8tN60yFjO-g

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5/14/2015 8 comments

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i’m just scared…

by itstimetogo2015 5/8/2015

written by itstimetogo2015

After years of searching without and within – I’ve decided that the best decision I can make for myself is to die now instead of later.

I’m scared to die because I’ve never died before; however, I refuse to stay and am terrified more of staying here – miserable for no reason at all. I’ve spent 3 years coming to this conclusion, asking questions, researching, you name it. I’ve had 30 years of sheer misery.. it’s time to go and this isn’t an act of desperation. At least I don’t believe it is. I’ll know on the other side. Since we all fail (daily for me), […]

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5/8/2015 5 comments

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First time posting.

by CyneAdr 5/4/2015

written by CyneAdr

Hello.

I dont really know if this is how im supposed to write this but anways. I’ve been lurking this site for a while and i finally decided to make an account. I guess i should introduce myself ( to whoever is reading this ), anywas not gonna share my real name but lets say my name is Cyne. I’m 18 year old male and have been dealing with depression since around 11-12 years old, maybe even before that but i didnt really notice that it was effecting me. I guess the major part of my depression and thought of suicide is being alone, dumb reason […]

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5/4/2015 7 comments

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greetings fellow poor devils

by sadsadist 5/3/2015

written by sadsadist

I’ve been around watching and reading for three years guess I decided tonight was the night I made an account I don’t really know why maybe because the only person I’ve cared about is on the phone with a asshole that treats her like shit and by the time she gets off the phone shell tell me how much she regrets being intimate and cheating on him with me then again I could be here because I’m a sick puppy as is

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5/3/2015 2 comments

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Please read

by Mylastwords15 5/2/2015

written by Mylastwords15

If you are on this site you obviously feel suicidal. But I have something to say. Reading the comments something had come to my mind. Most of you post something saying your bad people and worthless etc but by reading the comments it came to my mind that your all good people. None of you deserve to die because your helping others. I read some of the comments on my posts and honestly it made me feel better and like there are people out there who care about others even though we don’t know eachother. This world is full of scum but people like you […]

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5/2/2015 7 comments

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still here

by worthless_loser 73 4/22/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

Just wanted to let anyone interested that I have decided to postpone my planned suicide attempt (I call them PSA) until another time, for now.

Nothing has changed, just decided it wasn’t the right time. I wish I had some good news to share, but I don’t.

I’m sure the next time will be soon enough. Until then I will be reading and commenting, hoping to maybe help someone out there that needs it.

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4/22/2015 7 comments

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