the gental breeze
wind in her hair
i recognize her scent
as she passes by
she does not know that i am here
her laugh and smile
and her bright eyes
but i only watch her
never tell her my name
i sit next to her in every class
her sneeze is just beautiful
and so is she
she is my happyness
she is my reason to stay
i love her, but she will never know
I’m sick of waiting.
I’m sick of having my heart broken again and again. This year has been horrible. I started off telling someone something and having it thrown in my face, and then recovering from it only to find myself falling for the same things all over again with someone new. But this person is different, yet I have to wait for her, but she will disappear from my life. I don’t want that…
She makes me want to strive, but then not being there for her makes me sick, I’m being to obsessive maybe.
I feel empty without her, she’s special, and I don’t want this […]
i’ve just come out of a relationship, and before you all start, that isn’t the reason i’m feeling the way i am. i can deal with not being close to somebody, its the fact that when something goes wrong in my life, i have nobody i can talk to about it? if i tell my mum she just gets the whole family involved, and i don’t want that. all of my friends seem to have turned against me these past few days, and i know break-ups are hard, and it isn’t the end of the whole, but this is so difficult and i can’t express […]
I know, I hate spamming, and I’m sorry for reposting but I feel that this will help alot of people. Now before I start, this isn’t a story about how I’m depressed or anything, but, in fact, I’m not depressed anymore, well at least not as much, thanks to you guys. I want to return the favor. Right now I’m working on a project (movie) that will help others just like you and me, struggling to get by day by day, and I need YOUR help. I want a video of YOU telling your story, your story of struggle, but also, telling us what makes you […]
Now before I start, this isn’t a story about how I’m depressed or anything, but, in fact, I’m not depressed anymore, well at least not as much, thanks to you guys. I want to return the favor. Right now I’m working on a project (movie) that will help others just like you and me, struggling to get by day by day, and I need YOUR help. I want a video of YOU telling your story, your story of struggle, but also, telling us what makes you happy, what keeps you going, or even a video of you doing what you love to do, whether its […]
i have never been the one to believe in suicide, but the feeling of this hurt is overwhelming. its almost like i cant breathe. im a 30ish something female, and i have a great career, children, family and friends. my husband left me earlier this year and my entire life was flipped upside down. i never saw it coming. i later found out that he was indulging in activities with another female. i was a good wife and my family is everything to me. i didnt do anything to deserve this. i dont eat, i have taken time off of […]
I swear I’m a danger to other people. Everyone that means something to me, that I truly love with all my heart, gets hurt because of me. I don’t intentionally hurt anyone. I’m not that kind of person. But something bad always seems to happen to people that try to help me. It occurred numerous times in the past. And it just keeps coming.
This past week has been terrible. I wanna keep going; I just don’t know how anymore. I don’t want to invite anyone else into my life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m beyond saving at this point there is no use in […]
Hello, my name is Viktor D.
I’m from Serbia, and I have a lot of emotional problems, along problems with people.
I am a metal-head and people who don’t know what metal is and how good metal-people are, and that they also have emotions, and can be soft and good to other people and nice, polite etc. but when I see other people who don’t understand what it is, and when I see them make fun of it and me and my friends, it makes me burst with rage, but then I understand that even if they somehow get better and start to understand, there are […]
My life is the worst. Whatever i do i feel sad. And the thing is that im not supposed to! I have a great family, good grades, going to a high school that is the best in town, i have friends, people sometimes think im interesting and many people would say that i look just like a regular teenager. But… even though i have all that im suicidal. The thing is that i can’t find any joy whatsoever in my life. I hate school, i hate every subject, i hate watching TV, i hate playing games, i hate my friends, i hate all people at my school, i hate my […]
Yesterday, I was all set to catch the bus. However, I didn’t end up doing it. :( The main reason is because my preferred method requires dry weather for its best chance of success, and the weather here at the moment is very wet. I know, it’s a lame excuse … but I’m pretty lame.
I could have used one of my other two methods. I didn’t.
Parts of my world are falling down around me. Other parts I thought had fallen down may be more resilient than I first thought. Depending on the outcomes of today, I may or may not decide to try tonight. I’m […]
I strangled myself today.  I made the mistake of doing this whilst standing up. When I got unsteady on my feet, I let go. I didn’t get as far as to make it to unconciousness, but I did feel a little dizzy for a few minutes afterwards.
Next time I’ll try and get myself to unconciousness. Perhaps I’ll sit down. Or maybe I’ll tie the other end of the cord up on something that won’t move, thus freeing up both hands to operate the other side thus increasing my strangulation strength.   The main reason I want to get to unconsciousness is that I want to […]
I swear to god, there is something very unnatural about capitalism; it is dehumanizing. I know I was not put on this earth to be a pawn in the system, and neither were you. I think that the industrialization of society was more of a curse than a blessing–sure, things are more convenient than they were 200 years ago, we live longer, have antibiotics, (is that really a good thing?….) but I would trade every convenience of modern society to be free from this system.
I am currently unemployed. Again. Do I want to go out and sell myself into wage slavery, again? NO. That’s right, NO. For some […]
Just making a list that I can look back on whenever I feel down.
– Parents: Unlike what most people I know say about their parents, mine are amazing to me. They have supported me through everything and never left. If anything, they are here more than ever 🙂
– Close friends: They understand that I need them, but that I also need space.
– Boyfriend: I don’t even know where to start with how much he has helped me.
– My old therapist: The reason I can trust.
– My ex / now friend: The one person who completely understood and took all the […]
so i’ve heard that there are good people in the world. and i have this stepfather who is generally an angel. but he’s, i would suppose, human. human in that-
somewhere, deep down, when nobody’s looking, people are petty, blind, stupid, immature, ingenuine, farcical, prejudiced, lying, selfish, ungrateful, sex-driven, etc. in some way
and i just can’t stand being surrounded by all of it. for some reason i suspect everybody of having these ugly sides. i’m all of the above too. and for some reason i just can’t stand that this is the world we live in. i usually ignore it but today it just drove me […]
My mother. I know it would tear her apart.. Especially since shes going theough an insanely rough patch in her life. I juat couldnt cause her so muchMore pain. She deserves happiness and thats all I really want for her. I think yesterday would have been the day.. Oh mommy.. Why cant you just.. Idk not care? 🙁
I found my neighbor hanging dead in his house last week, and my journey for answers brought me to this site and I feel the need to share.
Myself and other neighbors had expressed some concern that we had not seen our neighbor for several weeks. Those weeks turned to months. We didn’t know what to do, and just hoped he was away. We didn’t really know what to do, there were no signs of foul play on the outside of his home, so the police would do nothing.
A few weeks into the concerns, I told my neighbors I would check to see if his second […]
I am only 13. And I think about suicide often. Im so young, and ive had it so hard. Things just confuse me so much. When I was 10 I made a “reasoning book” Every time something kills me a little more inside, and makes me think of suicide I write it down in my reasoning book. My plan is when I get to my 100th reason, I will finally try to seek help. I will ask for help. I will put all my trust on a line, and ask for help. And if finding help fails, It will be my last day to breathe. […]
I edit and rewrote this poem. Originally not mine but from an old friend. A stranger; now…Â I suppose. The reason why I rewrote this, because it is very beautiful and that person used to mean a lot to me. Still do in a way… but its difficult.. Hope you guys like it.
My hands Shaking like a winter leaf clinging
to the tree against the frost-bitten
Howling wind
My legs buckle as if I am atlas holding the sky
Against this I cannot win It binds me
I am a redwood tree I cannot be moved
But If the skies will allow the wind to whisper
I will sway to its voice
If it […]
One of the  big reasons people don’t kill themselves is that they don’t want to hurt their friends & family. But when I think of them it just makes me want to pull the trigger even harder. All those two-faced liars and hypocrites need to see me dead with my brain in a million pieces; they need to wake up and see the real world… a place where cruelty has consequences, where lies can kill, and where some of us should be taken seriously when we say we need help. To all my friends and family who failed me, I do this for you.
So today is the 30.07.12, and today I have given myself one year too think it over, to plan it and too decide if  it’s truly what I want.
My boyfriend, he left me today. He has no answer, he won’t even talk too me. Fact is I was very reliant on him.
I just can’t cope, and I can’t live like this. So one year today I will decided whether to kill myself or not.
As a child, I was sexually abused  by three girls, and one guy. I was physically and mentally abused by my sister. I was tormented and at age 11 I started too […]
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