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emotional debilitation

by system 2/8/2021

written by system

I’m so tired.

Partially because the ~6 or so hours of sleep I get are of abysmal quality, but I mostly attribute my exhaustion to me being sick. I’m so fucking sick. I’m so exhausted all the time, the nightmares and night terrors plague me and I spend a significant amount of my day thinking about the awful dreams or worrying that it’s some kind of “sign” or “warning,” as if I have precognition or some shit (I know it’s stupid, I don’t know why my anxiety seems to make me delusional to an extent). The effects of my PTSD are fucking debilitating. The dissociation kills […]

2/8/2021 12 comments

Euthanasia in Belgium and the Netherlands (and the debate surrounding it)

by Taf Taf 1/19/2019

written by Taf Taf

I must apologize in advance, because I’m going to put a lot of videos and articles in this post and it will probably occupy a lot of space on the starting page of this site (needless to say, feel free to write your opinions about euthanasia in the comment section).

https://theconversation.com/separating-fact-from-fiction-about-euthanasia-in-belgium-58203

Euthanasia in Belgium

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3748787/Euthanasia-tourists-rush-Belgium-free-lethal-injections-staggering-2-023-medically-killed-year.html

https://newsmavens.com/news/aha-moments/2088/belgium-fears-euthanasia-tourism

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2018/12/24/brussels-denies-eu-rules-encourage-euthanasia-tourism/

And a PDF about euthanasia in Belgium:

Euthanasia practice in Belgium

1/19/2019 10 comments

The Sound – I Can’t Escape Myself/Hour of Need

by Taf Taf 10/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just want to break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
–
All my problems
Loom larger than life
I can’t swallow
Another slice
Seems like my shadow
Mocks every stride
Can I learn to live with
What’s trapped inside?
–
I can’t escape myself
–
So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just wanna break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
I can’t escape […]

10/21/2018 1 comment

Life sucks when you’re sick all day

by _darkness 1/17/2017

written by _darkness

I’m sick and tired of being sick.

Well, I’m always sick but today was more like I’m tired, so I ordered delivery, ate crappy food, then it made me feel even more crappy.

I was too fatigued to go out, so I ordered pizza. But eating stuff like that doesn’t make you better or healthier. I did get gluten free dairy free pizza with zucchini, artichoke hearts, and tomato, my version of eating not-so-junky junk food. Well anyway, I guess this vegetarian pizza didn’t agree with me, so I felt sick literally ALL day. Or rather, MORE sick than my usual every day chronically sick sick.

It’s a […]

1/17/2017 6 comments

I’m tired of this :(

by shatterediris 5/25/2016

written by shatterediris

Still sick, has been almost a week since I started the antibiotics (875mg of amoxicillin clavulante twice per day) and still feeling fairly horrible, like I can at least walk again without almost collapsing, also my throat doesn’t hurt as much anymore. However my lungs still burn a lot and I’m still coughing uncontrollably, I can’t speak as my voice is gone, and also can not even hear very well…. Is very annoying, but I guess at least I don’t have the fatigue. Meh I go to my counselor today, maybe I’ll bump down the meetings to once every two weeks today, that seems like it […]

5/25/2016 2 comments

Sick

by Zetsumei 3/27/2016

written by Zetsumei

I should be happy, right? My birthday is soon and I’ll be 25… Fuck that! I don’t want to live to 50, let alone 25. This urge is getting worse. I want to take a knife, cut open my stomach and rip my damn guts out.

This turtle I’m eating tastes nice… like gluttony.

3/27/2016 8 comments

Sick, tired, & depressed

by nicole123 1/13/2016

written by nicole123

I’ve been coming down with something lately . And I’m so tired . I can’t stay awake in class either. This week has been shitty. I’m sad, but I’ve got a job interview this weekend. I’m excited. It’s the only thing giving me hope at the moment .

1/13/2016 6 comments

Sick and tired of loving someone…

by ppprx 1/9/2016

written by ppprx

She’s the reason why I’m happy and at the same time she’s also the reason why I get depressed. She inspires me to do my best in everything and at the same time she’s the reason why I feel uninspired to do anything. I know it sounds weird.

I feel like I’m a third wheel to a relationship that should obviously work out and yet nothing’s happening. I’m stuck to be some girl’s friend while she and my guy friend are all head over heels each other but they aren’t even together. It fucking sucks to think that since they aren’t even together, what I should […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

Sick, stupid, society

by wndozh8er 10/28/2015

written by wndozh8er

why does society almost universally try to keep people alive against there will? Don’t they realize that we are all terminal and going to die someday anyway? Don’t they realize that denying someone’s natural right to chose to end there own lives no matter what is a total introchment on that persons individuals right to choose?

Thank about it….a depressed 21 year old person chooses N to end his own life. Let’s say in an alternate reality, he decided to live out the remainder of his life until he died of a massive heart attack at 70. He ended up spending most of his life happy […]

10/28/2015 10 comments

Sick

by whydoiwantto 10/18/2015

written by whydoiwantto

Still feeling sick. Sick like slow, tired, dizzy, nauseous… This awful headache. No appetite. Intense amounts of sleep. Going through benzo withdrawal as an unintended side effect of overdosing and the hospital prescribed hydroxyzine to help with anxiety and withdrawal symptoms. The hydroxyzine makes me tired and blank cognitively but I kind of like it because it’s better than being alone with my thoughts.

I haven’t told my family anything. We are the type of family where this sort of thing is swept under the rug and considered a weakness. I had my friend check me out of the hospital which I know was […]

10/18/2015 0 comment

Don’t Deserve Life

by blackstrat 9/28/2015

written by blackstrat

You’re too ugly
You’re not smart enough
You’re not good enough
Everyone’s better
Everyone hates you
You stupid asshole
No talent piece of shit
You’re too awkward
You have no life
You have no friends
You have no future
You have no chance
Give up
End it

What if you did?
They wouldn’t care
They would laugh
They’d spit on your grave
I’m a *****
I’m a ******
I don’t deserve life
I never have
I never will

Normal people don’t give up on life
Normal people love life
Normal people are grateful for what they have
Normal people have friends that love them
Normal people don’t […]

9/28/2015 3 comments

Sick of this

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 8/13/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

I’m sick of feeling sad all the fucking time. I’m sick and bloody tired. There are some days where I think ‘how could I have possibly felt that sad?’ but then it all comes rushing back.
I don’t have the right to be sad. My life is a breeze compared to other people’s lives. And it makes me feel like my problems are inferior, which in some ways they are.
I got my English Literature AS result today, and I got a B. And I’m not happy with it. I should be, considering I’ve taken it a year early, and that’s like an A at […]

8/13/2015 0 comment

Sick and they don’t know why.

by toriann 5/31/2015

written by toriann

I have a 2yr old and 4yr old and I never thought I would be in this place. However I’ve been sick too long now. I’m tired of doctors visits and fighting. 5 days that’s when it started the desire to just disappear. After all one moment of pain for my children can save them from a lifetime of watching their mother die. My husband building more debt and being my babysitter. All I’m becoming now is a pathetic meat sack anyway. So what’s the point. They will blame it on the tumurs in my head and my family will be free from me. There […]

5/31/2015 4 comments

A thought

by cephalus 4/26/2015

written by cephalus

Mistakes that haunt you
Not the ones, others expect
You wish they would
But you are alone
Just regret

Sick of girls wanting you
Sick of being alone
Sick of being amazing
Sick of being dull

With you, Primal.
With you, Final.
With you, I thought.

4/26/2015 1 comment

Sick and Tired

by Sammi6xoxo 3/25/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I Fucking hate you. I really do. Because I can’t tell you what goes on in my head. I can’t. If I told you that I can picture myself painting the most beautiful mural I’ve ever seen as I splatter someone’s brain across a wall, youd never speak to me again. Youd never see me the same. If I told you that I love you in the same breath, you would fucking hate me. But it’s only natural to hate a sociopath. […]

3/25/2015 2 comments

cutting is frowned upon

by i-Like-turtles 2/23/2015

written by i-Like-turtles

So many time since heard that people who cut are dumb emotion faggots… Sick of it! It makes my gut turn.

I still do cut and it’s a pleasure…not for attention…. Well all heard this over and over what do I do?

2/23/2015 1 comment

Sick of it all

by jetset516 2/2/2015

written by jetset516

26 years working for the same company…boss half my age, 21 year old daughter sick in a wheelchair all her life, me and wife are 24/7 caregivers. I dont want to anymore. nothing is fun nothing is worthit. Cant even get disab insurance to believe Im not well so i wasted 3 weeks off no pay and will probably be stuck going back to work in a few days. fuck it. 26 ativan in a bottle in the bathroom. Only reserve i have is that its not enough. I dont want to end up on a machine. Never though I was a bad person but […]

2/2/2015 2 comments

A Sign?

by leftforthedead 11/9/2014

written by leftforthedead

I gave myself one week for me to change my mind, and to not execute my plan to attempt suicide. The day that I planned to execute my plan, and end my life was Friday. I told myself that if anyone showed that they actually cared about me, or if someone gave me a reason to live that I wouldn’t end my life. One of my ex-college professors called my cell phone this weekend. He asked if I was okay, and said that I seemed troubled the last time that he talked to me. I immediately tried to reassure him […]

11/9/2014 7 comments

Oddly Enough Still Alive

by hufflesigh 10/13/2014

written by hufflesigh

Short one.

About 4 days ago I ate 20 castor seeds. I kept them down for about an hour to two hours so they should have been fully dissolved. I peuked and had bad diarreah for about a day then the throwing up went away. The liquid poops I still have. And I havent had a solid one since. I know that its supposed to take a few days but it seems like its not going to work. Any body have any experience trying with ricin/castor seeds?

The stomach doesnt dissolve it as were in another form. We dont have to go into that though because of […]

10/13/2014 1 comment

Hiding scars

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]

10/8/2014 6 comments

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