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Suffering

Anyone Feel This Way?

by SadAlone01 7/6/2014

written by SadAlone01

i cant handle life alone.

i desperately want to die.

i self-harm to feel better and make the pain of being an outcast and all alone.

i wonder why it is ME that cant have friends….obviously, I MUST BE DEFECTIVE…but how do i locate the defect?

i need the pain to STOP….since i’ve tried everything else, i want SUICIDE to take it (all the pain and sh!!t in my life) away….forever…..a permanent solution to an ongoing problem…i see ZER0 hope in this ever changing into something good and worthwhile.

i thought humans were “mentally wired” to be with other people…then WHY does my higher power allow ME to be destitute […]

7/6/2014 3 comments

ANGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by SadAlone01 7/6/2014

written by SadAlone01

WHAT do others do with anger? Thankfully, i live alone, so i at times rant and slam things down. i beat on my arms, i LOVE feeling the pain…it allows my mind to refocus. I sometimes cut, but i prefer the hitting, beating myself….usually my lower arms and when they get too sore the upper arms. sometimes i leave bruises…sometimes it takes a day or so to show up. try to cover them when out in public. Again, at home i am alone. i wish for crazy things…like to drop a cynder block on my head, knock myself out (doubtfully) or get a brain bleed […]

7/6/2014 3 comments

Journal Entry #3

by marine105 7/1/2014

written by marine105

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Comments welcome

7/1/2014 5 comments

A Whole New World

by Samantha 6/18/2014

written by Samantha

I dream of a world where people can just try to understand each other, rather than judge them for their problems. A world where no one is criticized for who they are and what they love. Unfortunately, a world of peace doesn’t exist.
I dream that I am on my own planet, where there is no misery, violence, hatred or discrimination, with only my closest friends, family members, animals and people who get me. Like I said… I dream. If only dreams could come true for those of us […]

6/18/2014 24 comments

Depression triggered from a heartbreak and how it has ruined my life.

by greenone 6/12/2014

written by greenone

I am young. The love of my life recently left me a few months back, my friends left me too because they did not want to deal with the tension between us. Suddenly I am gone, I am not there anymore. I am in my twenties and in college, my parents say perhaps the best thing for me is to move to a new city and start again. I can live with my mother in that city and need not to worry about society, which I have totally withdrawn from. Maybe they are right, maybe they are not. The pain is excruciating. I cannot describe […]

6/12/2014 1 comment

Live.

by Jane Heperi 5/19/2014

written by Jane Heperi

I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]

5/19/2014 4 comments

Oh my fucking god, oh no its too much

by nowayout123 5/8/2014

written by nowayout123

I’ve figured it out. Don’t you see the truth? this life is pain. there is pain, and then there is less pain. there is no pleasure, no happiness, no laughter. each moment is either a reprieve from pain or it is pain filled to the brim. don’t you see? if there is no life, there is no pain. every single new human is brought into this life being taught the opposite, that life is sacred, or its interesting, or that it brings more good things than bad things. its complete bullshit. the only reason that we have war, famine, starvation, cholera, shit infested water, rape, […]

5/8/2014 20 comments

Only one exit

by ArrangementOfSymbols 4/20/2014

written by ArrangementOfSymbols

I’m not sure exactly where I would fall on the spectrum of suicidality. I have a plan. I am in the process of obtaining the means. But even once I have them, I’m not sure I’ll go through with it. I want to have the option.

I’m sad, but it’s due to having to face this decision. Given the choice I’d rather live, but after 20 years of intractable pain with no promise of a cure or even treatment, I realize that this can’t go on much longer.

I have a rare and exquisitely vicious form of OCD. My mind reacts to every small mistake I make […]

4/20/2014 5 comments

I Need Help. Really.

by Someone 3/26/2014

written by Someone

I’ve never really seen the point of self harm, but a few days ago, I started biting my hand to take my mind off things. I could concentrate on the pain instead of worrying. It just occurred to me today that what I was doing was self harm. I never bite hard enough to draw blood, but hard enough to leave a red mark by the end of the day, and I can’t seem to stop. I know I should stop, but I don’t know how. I don’t want to be a burden on my friend anymore. He helped me when I was recovering from […]

3/26/2014 0 comment

by Forgottenemma 3/18/2014

written by Forgottenemma

I have never attempted suicide before and probably will never do that in the future, although I am suicidal. The depressing thought cannot get out of my head. Only watching people who are also suicidal can make me feel much better, because I tend to dispassionately analyze their feelings and so I become an observer rather than a sufferer.

There’s no point to live, but there’s no point to die either, from my perspective. That’s why I’m still alive. There’s no point to do anything. Suicide is such a luxury, an aggregation of Â courage, ego, curiosity, perseverance, nonchalance about collective unconsciousness, motivation, liberation, freedom of self-expression, […]

3/18/2014 7 comments

Ã—Ã—Easy Way to Die

by SuicideIsForTheSimple 3/16/2014

written by SuicideIsForTheSimple

Here’s a easy way to die, Simply follow the instructions below:

Kill your intentions to die.

+++please read+++++

Here’s a opportunity …

You are what, all young teenagers mainly and what are your reasons for suicide?

You have been given life and you want to take it away for what? Don’t reply some bullshit or make it much more dramatic to gain other sympathy.

Heck, when I was young I wanted to commit suicide because I couldn’t speak to my significant other cause I was grounded for what seemed like a lifetime!

Or the time where I lost my best friend in a embarrassing highschool moment, shamed infront of what felt like […]

3/16/2014 17 comments

First Time

by Violet12 3/3/2014

written by Violet12

I came here because I really don’t know who to turn to. I have never been abused or anything like that but I can’t seem to keep anything together. I push everyone around me that cares about me away. Not that there are many who care. I feel like I’m that type of person that can easily be forgotten. In a crowded room no one notices me. Sometimes I wonder how things would be if I wasn’t real. Would the people around me be better off? I would love to go to sleep and never wake up. I’ve contemplated overdosing but I’m not sure if […]

3/3/2014 3 comments

all too much

by osmith 2/19/2014

written by osmith

I never realised how much depression effected me and everyone around me until i experienced it first hand. i’ve suffered from depression for over a year and i used to self harm and now im left with embarressing scares that leave something for people to talk about. Im slowly getting better but easily go back into the dark hole for a ffew days where i cant even try to act happy. I recently had a fight with my mother who attempted to hit me which has shaken me up for the past few days and created my mood to very dark.

I want to tell […]

2/19/2014 2 comments

Recovery is no longer an option.

by DiedLongAgo 2/19/2014

written by DiedLongAgo

I am 19 years old, have been suicidal for about 11 years, and seeing therapists for 7 or 8. I have also tried several different antidepressants with no results. It seems that it has gotten to the point where I just don’t do anything anymore, and frankly, I’ve become a complete waste of space. My parents and entire family have given up on me for the first time in my life, and I suffer from thoughts relating to solipsism non-stop. I am at the point where committing suicide is all that I care about, to the point where I would get rid of anything in […]

2/19/2014 4 comments

Pain

by FindingSalvation 2/17/2014

written by FindingSalvation

I hurt. It’s not the sharp pains of catching myself with a razor nor the slow build of a burn. It’s not the fiery swell of choking down rum nor the tenderness of bruises re-darkened diligently. It’s more like a dull ache, a throbbing in my chest that seems to squeeze my heart until it’s up in my throat and I can barely breathe. My wrists start itching and my feet begin to heat up, both begging to be used to gain some sort of release.

When the throbbing’s not there, I feel numb. I’m lacking in motivation. Things I used to love make me feel […]

2/17/2014 1 comment

Keep cutting but its not enough

by onlyinred 2/11/2014

written by onlyinred

I have deep depression. I fought it for years. then my meds wearing down without me realizing. was going suicidal before I…the only word I can think of is “forced:-I forced myself to confide in my parents…

from there I eventually started looking for support-in a few very close friends, in my siblings. I got aggressive in making the hurt and sadness disappear.

this isn’t the point and I don’t want to get sidetracked.

the point is im sick of it. just sick. revolted. tired. world weary.

eventually my supporters took my happier demeanor for granted. I was looking for more responsibility and was up and about more-but it […]

2/11/2014 1 comment

Is it today?

by blacksheep989 2/2/2014

written by blacksheep989

I have spent a long time reading through this site. But never posted.

For the last 3 years now is struggled with depression, caused by job stress, relationship etc. Over the last two month I hit a patch where my job and my boss brought me right down. I’d entertained the idea of suicide, but could never go any further than that because of my partner, whom I love very much.

So for two months I’ve fought back, getting back to a healthy state, then on saturday night, after a good day in the sun, drinking and enjoying my time with my partner and friends, I go […]

2/2/2014 17 comments

Suffering in silence

by molly woppit 1/22/2014

written by molly woppit

Im really down at the moment.i switch from being depressed to irritable and angry back and fourth my husband is sick of my bipolar and goes off at me if i cry.i just lost a really close friend and im grieving im so sad i have nothing to say i dont have the energy to do anything and i just want to be alone.im sick of being depressed ive had 6 major deppressions in the last year im just worn out im sick of taking pills im sick of myself i wish i was single so i could just hide from the world i wish […]

1/22/2014 2 comments

Is there hope in the aftermath?

by MissMandee31 1/17/2014

written by MissMandee31

General curiosity, and my apologies if this has been brought up before, I’m new here. Don’t quite know my way around yet, so forgive me. I’ve always wondered what is after this? Years of self abuse written like poetry in scars over my body. Years of self-hatred for everyone to see and stare at. One stint in the psych ward, and multiple suicide attempts thwarted and my mom or myself saying “oh no, I didn’t want to die, I was just overwhelmed” in order to save me from more stints in the psych ward. I never wanted help, I never cried out for help, I […]

1/17/2014 1 comment

Overdosing On Sleeping Pills

by silent_tears 1/14/2014

written by silent_tears

What are the effects of overdosing on sleeping pills? I know it’s stupid but I can’t help but wonder. Even though I think of committing suicide I’m scared of actually doing it. Same goes for cutting – though I actually do cut but my head clears once I have the blade in my hand making cutting more difficult.

1/14/2014 7 comments

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