My name is Scott Teller, I am far from a professional, I don’t even know what I’m doing really. However, I am genuinely offering my time to talk to you, or just listen to anything that is on your mind. If you would like to talk to me personally instead of on this forum my email is iwilltalk2you@gmail.com. I hope to hear from you soon.
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I live in a world where i am always unhappy. my grades are slipping and my parents yell all the time now or ignore me. My brother is their favorite they would give him the world if they could. But to them im just that other kid who was raised by baby sitters until the age of 10. I get bullied at school. I try to hide my depresion so i fit in. Iguess i’m pretty good at hiding it too. For a while nobody knew the dark cloud that surrounded my mind. i first thought about suicide when i was about 8 years old. […]
Hey everyone, I want people to join my facebook group for people who feel “out of place, or unloved, or ignored totally.”
Hit me upand join my group if you like
the group is called Moving Forward
and my name is Nia Braithwaite
 I am the Nia with the tulips or yellow flowers
Hello, I’ve been gone a while.
but I’m back.
I’ve set a date. I’m going to go April 10th.
Yes, It’s a while away, but I still need to plan. Get everything together, have enough time to say goodbye and such.
I’m going to go by pills.
I’ve decided.
I’m tired of always being in pain, physically or emotionally, I’m very tired of it. And yes, I’ve tried therapy, I’ve tried anti-depressants, I’ve tried to have someone to depend on, but nothing’s working. I believe this is my destiny.
And I’m going to fulfill my destiny.
I know this is permanent, I’m aware.
And I feel empty. I feel okay […]
so okay. me and my best friend had a very deep and emotional talk. and me and her are both suicidal. we talked for a long time. and what we got from talking is an agreement. kinda. we talked about killing ourselves, and decided that its not the right time, and its not worth doing that now because we’re still teenagers (im 16 and she’s 15) so we havent even lived life. that doesnt mean that we have to change who we are, or what we do. just putting something off for a while. i guess its a good thing in a way. im glad […]
My mom can get cancer again, and my dad left us without a home or money…I have no friends, my family wants me to go die…they all call me a demon…FUCK LIFE! I’m SICK of getting tortured and neglected by people who say they “love” me…WHATS THE MEANING OF LOVE??? LIFE??? I can’t live with this anymore…I”m DONE being the punching bag…I HAVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE BEFORE…EVERYONE thinks I’m doing it for attention…EVEN MY THERIPIST…They tell me I’m a lying piece of shit…FUCK YOU! I’m only struggling! Why in the HELL would I fake this?! IT’S CALLED PAIN. My STEPDAD don’t give a FUCK about me…he […]
Pain and emptiness.
Most people just don’t get it. They don’t understand how someone could possibly want to die. Some of them will post stupid articles or rants about how “dying is totally and utterly dumb and your a jerk if you desire to die” but they lack the understanding. Not everyone is lucky enough to be given a happy life. In a world that is falling apart; a place of immense darkness and corruption, not everyone is so lucky. Many of us find ourselves in the most unfair and worst of situations.
My first friend, lost himself to lust and depression, gave up his dreams, […]
My name is Alan, and this is my story
I’m 18 and I’m in my second year of medical school. I graduated high school with a 3.66 GPA and as class valedictorian. Then I applied and got accepted in a great med school on a 100% scholarship. At first I thought it was a dream come true. My parents, especially my father, always wanted me to become a doctor. But then I slipped up, I got careless and I didn’t study. As a result, I failed my integrated exam, and i was told i had to repeat it in the summer. This course is composed of […]
I have had enough of my life. I have Bipolar and the lows are killing me- I know I want to ctb asap. I like the idea of an exit partner ie being with someone like minded , with the same goal, in my last hours, mins and seconds- entering into death with someone else is appealing. However, I wonder whether I will be responsible for that person’ s death? Whether if they haven’ t met me they would have found a solution in life? Can my conscience live with it if it follows me in death? Maybe it doesn’ t matter because it looks […]
Suicide maybe a painful deed,
travelling along a road of torture.
To heaven amongst the fields so gold-
or hell: a dream that depression leaves.
An expression of beauty- laid before the darkest dreams.
Beloved cease to amaze the lived
but open eyes and honest spirits- where the dead,
serene,belong in the hands of the gods.
Alas, a journey free begins,
where souls, liberated, are able to release emotions deep,
so cry my lass, at last the truth can be spoken,
amongst thy friends who sleep in peace.
And peace, a dream that is found so rare
becomes a symbol of everlasting sleep, a feeling that lies in the hands of the dead,
who once were hurt and at […]
This is another of the poems I have written while in the throes of depression- this is how I feel and is about Bipolar. I am sharing this poetry with you whilst I am still here- want to ctb so so much it’ s painful.
It’ s time to fire the gun and finally rest,
putting life and death to its ultimate test.
You can’ t stop the bullet once you’ ve said go,
with thoughts flying around it’ s too late to say no.
You’ ve taken my brain and filled it with confusion,
but being God you’ ve got the right to make the intrusion.
The Devil sits in the c0rner […]
Suicidal and Depressed:
How I Feel…
Over the years I have tried everything for help: psychotherapy, antidepressants, mental hospitals, religion, meditation, vitamins, exercise, subliminal tapes…
I am now hit with the worst depression of my life. I am hanging on to life by a thread. The suicidal thoughts are excruciating, lethal, overwhelming.
I know there is nothing anyone could say that will change how I feel inside. I am angry and tired of struggling to stay alive day after day. The pain of living is unbearable. I have made up my mind, in no uncertain terms, that if I can not find a real, life […]
Cutting for me used to be the only way that i could release everything through blood. It was like a tidal wave of emotion–gone.
I cut the other day, after being upset over being called crazy by my ex-friends, i know you think its pathetic, but i get set off easily.
I felt nothing but physical pain. Its been happening lately when i cut.
I could feel my flesh tearing open, and nothing. No relief just a waste of blood.
Are there any other ways to get my emotions out? Release?
Kill me.
Kill me now, cut deep into my veins and bleed me until there’s nothing left
Nothing of me in this world
This wretched, hard, horrid place
Moving from mishap to mishap
never stopping
never breaking the cycle
I must get free of this cycle
The cycle bound by the chains of mortality
The only way to get out
to break free of my mortality
but the reason to get out?
to make life better.
STOP!
what is this?
this world? full of paradox and irony
the universe seems to cackle at every one of the informed
bringing them down further and further
there […]
hello, im 15 years old. i search for help to have hope. there are many things that bother me. every time i get upset or someone i know gets mad at me and argues everything comes down on me. i hold grudges i suppose you could say, but not with anger, only pain. my pain stems from elementary school where a lot of people would laugh at me and be mean because i was chunky, short, and ugly while every one else was skinny and in good health. they also made fun of me because of my mexican accent. moreover, when i was five, i […]
Hello. I am a 15 year old High School student. My parents only punish me. No one likes me. Every girl i try to talk to rejects me and laughs in my face. Almost all of my friends use me. I think im the ugliest person ever to exist. I am the most average person. I have nothing to contribute to the world. I am looking for a way out.
I have tried cutting myself, but I am a coward and I can not cut deep enough. I have tried hanging myself but the rope broke and it was very painful for the seconds i […]
I don’t know why I came to this website, other than to get all of my suicidal thoughts out. I have struggled with depression for a while, but lately I have felt more suicidal than depressed. I’m going to the local community college in my town. I can’t put this into words right now. Every day I’m there I feel these intense feelings come over me. I feel alone. I know I am alone, even though there are plenty of people around me. The sunshine doesn’t make me happy at all. In fact, it makes me angry and upset because the heat is so unbearable. I’m […]
Im about 13, ive been cutting my self ever sence i was 10.
im deeply depressed,
everyone hates me,
no one loves me for who i am,
people dont look at me for what i am, but what i have done,
i have been beaten when i was little,
ive lost over 50 pounds in a month, just becuz i stoped eating,
peoplel dont belive i will kill my self, i have tryed to multiple times.
i sit in class all day ignored
i dont talk to people
im always getting in trouble
i have thoughts of killing my self and others
i never have done anything for the world yet and i wont, people say i […]
I’m not even sure what to write here, but I guess I’ll start with why I feel like killing myself. I have a sister and parents and you’d think we were a normal family. Instead, I hate my parents so much. I love my sister but she doesn’t love me. I love her so much and above all that makes me want to die, knowing she doesn’t love me. When she was 12 our father sexually molested her. I don’t know what happened; I don’t really know anything. This went on until she was 15 and a family friend found out, and put a stop […]
Slowly one by one
All these thoughts they come
Escape is an obsession
All products depression
The world’s frozen still
Broken glass on the window sill
Let go of all you knew
They’ll all forget about you
Can’t hold it together any longer
Thought you were stronger