Not really sure what to do anymore. Just let go of my antidepressants about 3 weeks ago after a 13 month period. Didn’t make me feel much better and the side effects were bad so I quit. Suffering now from discontinuation syndrome which is terrible. Brain zaps, sweats, aches you name it. I can feel myself slipping back into the same dark pit I was in before I started taking them. Feeling hollow/empty inside again, pretty much feeling like a waste of space and unmotivated to do much. Got that view of life again. The one where everyone seems to have succeeded and I failed. […]
You’re most likely wondering why I so boldly asked for you to read this post. Well, I did so because I have something to say that I believe will benefit you, no matter if this site applies to you or not.
I’ve had an unbelievable amount of personal experiences in my life that in reality could have shattered me from the start but instead, here I am writing this […]
They say that Depression is like this black hole that sucks at your soul, The things you love start to lose there color. Your Dreams cease to lose there luster. So Naturally when you are less then thrilled with existing in this dismal shit hole of an existence that our parents with not so much as a sideways glance thought about, the “Professionals” have a simple answer for this. To Medicate. To dull our minds so that in short, while it doesn’t really fix the Depression, it just makes us give less of a fuck about why we want to throw ourselves headfirst into the […]
Suicide is pretty & Suicide is Funny.
So when you add it all together, I guess Suicide is Pretty Funny!!
The powder burns inside my mouth begin to scream and shout.
My mom is a Fag & my Dad is to.
All the kids make-fun of me at school.
So…. I put my .38 caliber inside my mouth and make a mess all on the bed, skull fragments on the sheets & on the spread.
SUICIDE IS PRETTY FUNNY.
I don’t want to fight with the Thunder in my head anymore.
All the other kids say I’m a whore, with the cellphone pictures of my panties […]
Opened this website today after 3 years. Seems like a pretty long time. Reading the post I had posted back then, a lot has changed.
I was depressed back then, I am depressed now. In fact, more than depressed. But the thing that has changed is, I got used to it. It’s mine. I keep it close to my heart. I go out with friends, enjoy, play, drink. learn stuff and all the things that a normal person does, almost all the things. I have got to a point where I don’t have connections with people. Even in company, I am always aloof. I can’t find […]
Im in angry state right now with all little things in my life that has happend. In first place I angry for me for not solving my social anxiety. In second place im a feel myself as failutre for not accomplishing much in life an in failing in many times in different areas of life. I angry at people because i think they take advantage of me or are not reliable. I SEE A LOT OF POSTS HERE WITH THESE COMPLAINTS. But at the same time i feel its all my fault for not going for it.Being a lazy ass and not trying. […]
diagnosed with Stage III breast cancer…had surgery, breast removed…still got the other…wish they had removed both…no reconstruction for two years…fuck…insurance won’t cover removal of non cancerous breast…the only luck is that I wasn’t intending on living so refused chemo and radiation…waiting for it to metastasize…brain or lung will do….at least I don’t have to kill myself by any other means…do I really want to do it….I ask myself every morning…yes…there’s nothing left and I’m tired of struggling and battling…selfish maybe…but if I don’t contribute to life why prolong it…
I think that I’m past the point of being depressed. Feeling has gotten old and I’m tired of it.
I was doing good for a little while, after I had attempted and survived my first suicide attempt in high school. I found things that helped, like meditation and mindfulness.
I read some self help books that really changed the way I think (I’m only mentioning this incase someone reads this, I HIGHLY recommend you read some books by Eckhart Tolle: A New Earth & The Power Of Now)
I used to be a good person. I don’t know if I am anymore. It’s been a while since anyone […]
This morning I was thinking of posting my last thoughts somewhere, just in case. I’m glad I came across this.
I will kill myself on an August 15th. I don’t really know the year, but that date will be. I’m supersticious of a certain event and I want to try out if it’s real or not.
The only thing that has kept me alive until now is anime, and will still until the August 15th.
My parents blame anime of my “weird” condition. What they don’t know is that it’s because of them I want to kill myself
I’ve tried so hard to get away […]
I’ve had a fairly unsuccessful life, but I never wanted to commit suicide no matter how bad I felt. But four months ago in December, I come off of antidepressants, feeling I don’t need them anymore. I got my ears irrigated with water to remove ear wax by an incompetent doctor. A week later I get an upper respiratory infection and put on antibiotics and steroid drops for my ear. A week after that, I get tinnitus in one ear, which is constant ringing in the ears. At the same time I get interstitial cystitis which is bladder pain and I can no longer eat […]
I think iv refound an old hobby thanks to u guys the drawing might not be that greatest but hay it’s keeping my mind at rest of a wile thanks guys Suicide club -drawing how’s everyone doing
Well, It’s been a long 26 years that I’ve been alive… I have accomplished nothing of value. I do not contribute to the betterment of society. I am selfish and I know it. I lie and manipulate the people I care about most. I’ve lost every love I’ve ever had due to my mental illnesses.. I’ve been trying to get better, I really have, but it’s just too much. I go to group 3 days a week, then I have my ACT team 4 days a week, my psychiatrist every 2 weeks, one on one therapy once a week. My body is filled with prescription […]
I came across something really neat. You should think about it as well.
“Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.”
“Well, you’re still reading, and that’s very good. I’d like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you’re at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are […]
so i had a mental breakdown and i just really feel like killing myself, he only reason for me not yet is that i’m going to see Panic! At The Disco….
I do not know what to do, what to think. I truly do believe that my husband does not want me around anymore even though he tries to make fighting arguments that he loves me and that he wants me to be here. I am having by far the worst time in my life and he can’t even be there how he used to be. He used to be so patient. Do entirely blame him for it though. He has gone through a lot with me in the last almost 4 years of being together, a year and a half of being married and 11 […]
Since I was about three years old I was told my life would be become better for the events that played out later.
My parents split when I was three (no I am not heartbroken about it, I have not talked it him in almost 15 years). I was told that my life would take a step in a better direction now that a toxin was gone.
I was sexually and physically assaulted when I was five. No one in my life found out until I was 12/13 because hell at the time I didn’t even know what that was. It was my mom’s boyfriend at the […]
Hello, folks; as I said earlier I`m going to attempt suicide on 5th/6th April. I don`t have a proper suicide note and probably will not write one and I don`t know what will happen after I`ll die. My parents will have to deal with it and prepare for my funerals. Any advice before making this final step? For the first time in years I feel peace in my soul, looking foreword to my death. I`m not even scared, I`m scared just about failing. But I`m going to try it anyway. Thanks for reading this.
Hey all, I’ve known and read through SP for a little while now and have now joined.
Where do I begin. “I hate my life”, I guess would be it. I think and say this most days now and my general demeanor is usually unhappy and frustrated at the state of my life. I know my life isn’t particularly a bad one, I mean its comfortable and easy (im 20 still looking for a job (that aint likely)) I get to do lots of nothing and play games most of the time so mostly I shouldnt really complain but screw mostly, I will if I want […]
What are the final words best suiting a suicide note? It`s not that you don`t have the courage to say them while being still alive, but being sure they won`t listen. Yes, we can store huge amounts of negative emotions which serve as background for the suicidal ideation: anyway, you can break the chains now, because there is no future, no longer to suffer the consequences, and it`s not only your fault. You sent constantly those “suicide warning signs”, but nothing changed in good, only worse. So you`re here, contemplating suicide and yet there are still some things you can do. Smash them in the […]
Even somethings are to private to post on here .I hope everyone has a good day.