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The Sound – I Can’t Escape Myself/Hour of Need

by Taf Taf 10/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just want to break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
–
All my problems
Loom larger than life
I can’t swallow
Another slice
Seems like my shadow
Mocks every stride
Can I learn to live with
What’s trapped inside?
–
I can’t escape myself
–
So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just wanna break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
I can’t escape […]

10/21/2018 1 comment

I have no idea what to call this

by Cordless 5/17/2016

written by Cordless

Those of you who saw my “Sushi-In-A-Desert” picture may have noticed this in the comments:
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. bowling-sketch-dare
Um.

At some point on Sunday evening, I realized I couldn’t resist.

Samurai eating pizza in a bowling alley with an ancient Greek priestess.

Here:
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sketch-bowling-vert

5/17/2016 65 comments

hey peeps get this…

by Mr Angry-mosta tha time 3/27/2016

written by Mr Angry-mosta tha time

… so I was sitting on the couch listening ta triple J enjoying a nice coffee, right, and I’m nice and relaxed so I just put my head back and I had a sip of coffee in my mouth and when I went to swallow it I noticed a little bit of trouble like I just had to move my head (and with it my neck) down just a little bit in order to swallow, and it got me trying to drink down this drink with my head held all the way back and I just couldnt do it without the little bit of forward, […]

3/27/2016 40 comments

I want someone

by blued 2/18/2016

written by blued

to come up to me with a gun and press the cold steel muzzle against my head and blow my brains out.

I can’t do it myself because I’m a coward. I could hold a razor against my wrists but I could never slit them. I could stand on the edge of a railway platform but I could never jump in front of the train. I could put some pills in my mouth but I could never make myself swallow.

I’m too much of a fucking failure to even kill myself.

2/18/2016 6 comments

I wonder

by onlyme4356 10/13/2015

written by onlyme4356

I was wondering what would happen if I were to swallow 100 advil and take them one by one.

10/13/2015 9 comments

Her Blacks Crackle and Drag….

by Gwenythtotalwaste 8/18/2015

written by Gwenythtotalwaste

I take this title from one of Sylvia Plath’s final poems before her own suicide. The Phrase Crackle and Drag to me implies an afterimage, like when you watch the television screen and shut your eyes. You see phantasmagoria looming in your vision. This is what I hope to accomplish by my death. I want my loved ones to know that there is no malice nor ill-will in this action; I want them to know that I love them with a love that cannot be quantified; an immeasurable love deeper and wider than even I can believe. It Becomes more apparent as the moment approaches. […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

Bring Me

by Mundane 6/22/2015

written by Mundane

Bring me a poison;
I would like to swallow
The choked feeling
In my throat

Bring me a noose;
I am tired of standing up
It will help to keep me upright
Even when I finally stop fighting

Bring me a blade;
I want to bleed out
All the pain and suffering
That resided in my being

Bring me sleeping pills;
To grant my greatest wish,
My greatest desire
To never wake up to another day

Bring me a gun;
Easy and swift,
I will put it against my head
May it blast my painful memories away

Bring me a disease;
May it slowly kill me.
Slowly, like walking in […]

6/22/2015 2 comments

tired

by Moggie 11/26/2014

written by Moggie

I’m tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin. Of being embarrassed of who I am. Pulling everyone down. I’m a waste of space. Everyone moves on. So why can’t I just do it? Step in front of that truck or swallow the pills?

11/26/2014 3 comments

“Become one….”

by PeelASquid 8/15/2014

written by PeelASquid

Just done tryin,

Tired of cryin.

Got nothing to give,

Got no reason to live.

No one will care,

No one will be there.

Just me all alone,

Just want to go home.

Walk into the sea,

Let it swallow me.

Become one with the deep.

Eternal sleep.

8/15/2014 0 comment

Not a good night

by morrs084 3/12/2014

written by morrs084

I hate tonight. All i want to do is swallow all the pills. I’m upset and i feel so out of control when i’m upset. =(

3/12/2014 1 comment

That moment when the final thread snaps…

by Mustismile 7/16/2013

written by Mustismile

For years, I’ve felt helplessly depressed. But through it all I had some mysterious and sometimes unwanted glimmer of hope keeping me moving on. I waited in my solitary shell for something to destroy the barrier I’ve built around myself and take me into a life worth living. I watched the world go by, knowing that I’ll never be like the beautiful people, the successful people. But that voice in my head kept telling me that there’s still hope for me. I hoped, and still do, to grow old and look back to say: “I’m proud of who I am”. But that voice that kept […]

7/16/2013 5 comments

I don’t know.

by walkthisworldalone 7/13/2013

written by walkthisworldalone

Hi, nobody’s even gonna read this but I guess it’s better to let it out.

I’m Lara, I live in the UK. I have a loving family, good friends and a pretty great life. I have a lot more than I need and i’m very grateful for what I have. But something just isn’t right. For two years now, i’ve been having thoughts of suicide and have been inflicting pain on myself. I don’t feel the pain anymore. Around the time I started having these thoughts, my friend was diagnosed with slight depression and bipolar disorder but her mood swings were far less severe than mine. […]

7/13/2013 3 comments

Can’t Get There From Here

by flatus 6/17/2013

written by flatus

When the world is a monster
Bad to swallow you whole
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCvmS9Cb42w
Kick the clay that holds the teeth in
Throw your trolls out the door

6/17/2013 0 comment

The Fall

by gsuxlzt 6/14/2013

written by gsuxlzt

They say that when jump off a building, before you touch the ground, your whole life flashes before you. Sometimes I want to try and do it. So that I may know if what they say is true. And if it’s true, I wanna know if the life I have been living is a good one.

I am facing a lot of problems lately. I am already at my 8th year in college and still have not graduated. I already have a son but I am not in good terms with his mother. I have a lot of debt; I just been kicked out of my […]

6/14/2013 0 comment

Is this it??

by selfharmismydrug 6/6/2013

written by selfharmismydrug

I lie on the floor of my small bedroom. All you can here is the sound of my breathing. Is this it? I look over at the wall, lined with posters and silly pictures of my friends and I. The room becomes hazy. Is this it? My left wrist and right thigh covered in blood. They just won’t stop bleeding. Is this it? Those 6 pills resting in my hand. Picking up my water, I swallow them. Is this it? I have finally cracked, finally given up. I may not wake up tomorrow. Is this it? I promised I would be strong. I am not […]

6/6/2013 1 comment

Urge to kill myself…

by Engeltje 5/12/2013

written by Engeltje

Last week I had a nightmare about killing myself. Seemed like strangle was the best option. I saw in my dream how I put a tie-wrap on my neck and how I tighted it. When I woke up, it felt like my neck was pinched. I couldn’t breathe well and swallow was also difficult. I haven’t told anyone about my dream. The whole week I was thinking about committing suicide and I really had the urge to do it. Also I had the urge to strangle myself. Last week I had several times that I had that urge and that I wrapped my hands around […]

5/12/2013 2 comments

the story of how I died

by Lucid Oblivion 4/16/2013

written by Lucid Oblivion

I’m dead. I don’t seem dead, I can breathe and taste food and smell flowers, and I don’t look dead but I AM DEAD. My mind has turned into decay, bit by bit it’s crumbling to dust. A lunatic lives inside here, a scavenger that feeds upon my decaying soul.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see my silhouette anymore, all I see is this thing that’s consuming me and my shadow behind it like a forgotten whisper of who I was once upon a time. I’ve shredded everything that has made me once me, my faith and my imagination are gone and […]

4/16/2013 4 comments

If I am ever asked to describe the lowest point of my life, I would describe tonight.

by sono_libero 1/29/2013

written by sono_libero

I would talk about the way layers of burned flesh rolled off my wrist in the shower and the feeling that the drugs produced when snorted instead of swallowed. I would tell of the extreme dizziness, the pounding headache, and the thick fog I was in; the muffled sobbing and the uncontrollable shaking while laying on the cold, hard bathroom floor at 2 am. I would describe how my body screamed to escape while there was still a chance, but my mind said that I was already too far gone. I would tell of how I just wanted to swallow all my pills and […]

1/29/2013 4 comments

You say it hurts to even swallow

by hogpotter 1/10/2013

written by hogpotter

So we sit together here, I squeeze your frozen hands bare,

The lights are gone from your eyes, Baby, I am willing to let go all my keys.

A dark twisting path lies at bay, I have lost my lantern to light your way.

You say it hurts to even swallow.

Tell me, why is even a smile so mellow?

Every night I kiss your forehead, with dreams of fairy tales to read.

I keep on telling myself to believe, “Yes, yes, tomorrow she will live.”

Rain covers all the lands with passion, my eyes have grown impatient.

You say it hurts to even swallow.

Tell me, will the future be a mere shadow?

Hold […]

1/10/2013 3 comments

I want it all to go away

by Jess 12/15/2012

written by Jess

Sometimes I wish I’d just die already. I wish that I’d drowned when I was 2, or hit my head on the concrete as an infant like I almost did, but the universe is dead set on watching me suffer. I’ve tried so many different things to try and make it all go away, I tried cutting, it didn’t help, I tried popping tylenol whenever I felt down,Â and it helped for a while, but it doesn’t anymore. I’ve tried just crying for a long time, it made me feel worse.

I’m only 13, and life has already ended for me. My past is full of the […]

12/15/2012 7 comments

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