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Stop Existing

by Rosiest 1/20/2016

written by Rosiest

I’m tired. Exhausted. My body wants to curl up into a fetal position and sleep for the next 2000 years.

Maybe life is better in 4016.

I you see, I don’t want to die. I don’t want to put my family through such sorrow and grieving. I love them all too much to chose to leave in sudden death. I don’t want to leave my mother wondering what she could have done better, or if she had said the right thing. I couldn’t do that to her, she doesn’t deserve that.

But I want to leave. I never used to be all that religious, but recently something has changed for […]

1/20/2016 1 comment

Protected: go away

by Dungeon 1/19/2016

written by Dungeon

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

1/19/2016 5 comments

What do you think comes after death?

by NiDDA 1/19/2016

written by NiDDA

Some will say nothing, some will say heaven/hell, reincarnation.

What would happen if you die by suicide?

A man told me once, that if it isn’t your time, and you are rejected from heaven, but your body is unable to have your soul back (exsanguinated or something), you will stuck between the membrane of the earth and heaven.

I don’t believe in heaven.

What do you believe?

1/19/2016 24 comments

Edible Gauze

by Zetsumei 1/18/2016

written by Zetsumei

I think I found an edible version of gauze… It’s a special Valentine’s version of that marshmallow and caramel candy. The marshmallow is really tough and the caramel is extremely sticky… Also, it doesn’t dissolve in the mouth. One piece alone is about the size of a child’s fist, give or take some width. Ironically, I don’t think trying to choke on candy could be considered suicide… That still won’t stop me from seeing how many I can fit in my mouth at one time.

1/18/2016 2 comments

How Crazy Am I?

by conflictedcollegekid 1/18/2016

written by conflictedcollegekid

I need to know how crazy I am. I cut, burn, choke myself, abuse prescription and over the counter pills, and sometimes drive with my eyes closed to see if anything will happen. Sometimes I don’t think any of this is a big deal. I’ve grown to live like this almost constantly for the past year. Other times, I find myself sobbing, wondering what I’ve become. Is this a lot of self harm compared with others? I don’t know where I stand compared with other self harmers/suicide contemplators. I don’t know if I’m alone in this level of self hatred, or if there are others […]

1/18/2016 8 comments

So much to think about…

by disgusting 1/16/2016

written by disgusting

For one, my 2nd job is turning into my main job. My boss there is moving to LA and it’s going to be member-run. If we want full time pay, it’s up to us to get the donations to make it happen and sustain paid staff. In a sense, I got what I wanted. I thought I wanted to start businesses and nonprofits many times, but now I’ve inherited a nonprofit. I still worry about being homeless in April when the people I rent from move.

I was put on to doing some kind of presentation for the Buddhist center and it turned out to be […]

1/16/2016 1 comment

Another story

by simplicity35 1/16/2016

written by simplicity35

I dont think im any different than anyone else on here. My story is the same. Im a 16 year old girl trying to be happy and failing miserably. I have been battling anxiety and depression for over a year now, and it hasn’t gotten better. I dont think it will. Its bullshit when they say it gets better. Because it doesn’t. The day before my 16th birthday December 9th of this year, I tried to kill myself before school. There was nothing left for me in this world, and no one cared from me anymore. I was lonely and dead without really being dead.A […]

1/16/2016 7 comments

Hey October.. Can I get more advice

by tiredthoughts 1/15/2016

written by tiredthoughts

Hey man, I’ve been seeing other women and do you have an email. Or chat on here? I’m doing what i think im supposed to. But seeking more advice on the matter. I like what you and some others say. And think

1/15/2016 16 comments

How Ironically Hopeful and beautiful It Is ?

by Still wandering 1/13/2016

written by Still wandering

For me : My love cares for me alot, alot.

But before she came, I also used to think that no one cares which lot of you guys think and feel.

And I know this for certain that we(SP) care. We(SP) care when any member of our family feel low or go thru any horrible situation. So don’t ever think that no one cares.

How ironically hopeful and beautiful, it is ? 🙂

1/13/2016 7 comments

Update

by beaGhost 1/12/2016

written by beaGhost

It’s been nagging at me lately, how I’ve been living my life. I’m unemployed, about to start a job that my sister essentially got for me (she’s perfect). Still living at home. Dating, for 3.5 years now, a guy who I’m not entirely sure about.

He broke up with me for a month or two at the end of the summer. It was sudden, and I was left without many of the answers i needed to move on. Why? What happened? Why now? I essentially segregated myself from the world. My family tried really hard to get me out of my room but I had found […]

1/12/2016 1 comment

Zoochosis.

by whiskered-fish 1/12/2016

written by whiskered-fish

The mind-numbing monotony of my life is driving me fucking insane. I feel like a dead person already.

How many days of my life have I wasted doing nothing? I don’t want to think about it.

1/12/2016 10 comments

thoughts

by lilypaddd 1/11/2016

written by lilypaddd

life is pointless and we suffer for nothing.

so lighten up

everyone is fucked in some way, they might just not show it. including the people who you think have everything.

you can analyse things all you want but in the end you’re just trying to rationalise something to feel better. you’re just going around in circles and will choose whatever answer makes you feel the best. which means it’s all a lie.

you’ll become more and more desperate for psychological stability. from people, drugs, alcohol, whatever.

accept the things you can’t change, feeling anxious or miserable isn’t going to help you. what do you want?

there’s no point of looking outside […]

1/11/2016 3 comments

House of awkward

by disgusting 1/10/2016

written by disgusting

Yeah, I’m still around. Don’t want to go back to another week of work. ugh. Well, just musing a lot about the $1.3 Billion powerball. I truly think whoever wins will get killed, most likely by the government because they won’t let some average schmuck walk away with that kind of money! I truly don’t think they would have that much come into contact with someone who’s not already in the 1%. We’re all outsiders, even the everyday yuppies you see out and about. We’re not allowed to have that money.
Anyway, even if I did win the lotto and lived to tell about it, things […]

1/10/2016 3 comments

…soon I’ll be insane.

by Still wandering 1/10/2016

written by Still wandering

Lately my moods are on roller coaster.
I’m happy and the next second I’m utterly sad.
And whenever I start to feel a little happy, my mind torture me to think just opposite.
I’m getting insane day by day.

1/10/2016 6 comments

All my fault

by evildandelions 1/10/2016

written by evildandelions

If I had left my ex alone and hadn’t tried to forced her to give me an explanation of why she left me, forcing her to see me, then she might still live in the same state. Might go to the same school. She had said she was going to contact me in two months because she missed me so much. We might’ve been friends.

If I hadn’t had wanted to be back with her so desperately, if I hadn’t acted so desperate by fleeing my parent’s house and going back to our old apartment after saying suicidal implications, I’d still have my dog back. All I […]

1/10/2016 1 comment

beauty

by vieve 1/5/2016

written by vieve

I have always fallen in love with everything. When I was a little girl it was great. I was happy all the time. Life was full of magic and beauty and I was lucky enough to get to be part of it all.

But now I am grown up, now I understand things that I didn’t when I was young. I feel like I see everything. I still see all the beauty and wonder and hope, yet I also see the pain and misery and destruction. I see it everywhere. I see lost youth, lost health, lost happiness. I see people and animals who feel trapped, […]

1/5/2016 2 comments

Trapped

by backtosquare001 1/5/2016

written by backtosquare001

Hello, this is my first post on this site, I’ve seen a few on here and can feel so much of what others have written. I am at the point of trying to figure out what the f the point really is. We live in a very judgmental world, eveyone has opinions of what they think is right and wrong and try and force it on you. I’m tired of seeing all the terrible things we as “people” do to each other, and I do count myself in that too, I am guilty at times of passing judgment also, I try and catch […]

1/5/2016 2 comments

i fucking hate you, you piece of shit

by death bunny 1/5/2016

written by death bunny

don’t try to act like we’re pals. i don’t even know you. who the fuck do you think you are, waltzing into my life all of a sudden? you fucking stranger. you’re not welcome. i bet you think you bring redemption upon me. well it’s too fucking late for you. you were never around when i needed you. now you can politely go fuck yourself. don’t act like you’re a big shot. you’ve had your whole life to make everybody hate you. now suffer. and stay away from my new family or i’ll cut you to pieces i swear. i’ll fucking kill you.

1/5/2016 3 comments

Emotionally and physically exhausted

by nicole123 1/4/2016

written by nicole123

Class started again today . We went in the clinic to learn X-rays . I literally cannot stand the people there .I usually just work alone . I work best that way anyways.

It’s so hard to think in class when I can only think about how tired I am . I can barley keep my eyes open. I sleep so much so I dont understand why I can’t be awake . This has such an impact on me . I feel like I have the capability to do nothing .

I like to sleep . I imagine that’s what death is like . Black . And […]

1/4/2016 8 comments

Idk

by Shw 1/4/2016

written by Shw

Hi. I’m french, so sorry if I make a lot of mistakes.

I don’t think that I want to end my life. I can’t say that I really hold to her, but idk.

But I hate my life, I always hated her. I hate my personality, I hate to be so irritable and so stupid. I play with my life, I’m the kind of persons who always think to do something, but never act. Then I always regret that, but I don’t do anything to change. I act as if I don’t care about what peoples think of me, but finally I need the approval of others. […]

1/4/2016 3 comments

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