I’m pissed because I saw this thing yesterday that makes it sound like some huge opportunity but it’s not. You need a bachelor’s degree and to pay for everything. So, not as desperate as they make themselves out to be for candidates. What it was, was an ad on the back of a card saying anyone with any experience can go be a school teacher in Vegas because they’re so desperate for teachers. Now I hate people so it wouldn’t be my first choice but I hate everything in my life and I want a change of scene. Then when I looked into it they’ll […]
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I am that I am. I am the epitome of potential. I am possibility incarnate. A wildest dream made manifest. I am living breathing destiny. I am a shooting star that has crash landed in this body. I am Smaug’s hidden treasure. The arcenstone has nothing on me. A legend in the making. A diamond with no need to bluff. Nebula’s for eyes that encapsulate a universe of unlimited infinitum. A gift of sardius stone blessed with third eye sight to peer into the great beyond. Angel wings to lift me above my woes and worries. I am the result of an infallible thought. Created […]
So, gamershell.com offers free demos. One can purchase whole game often on Amazon, race car simulation (Need for Speed Series) and anything flight sounding, especially the helicopter demos and games are a good thought changing environment. Have a minimum XP 32 bit system with video and sound upgrade or a good laptop in 32 bit operating systems to try these simulators out.
http://www.gamershell.com/search/?q=starshatter+demo
Find Vietnam Med Evac and Search and Rescue 4 and Space interceptor.
Microsoft Flight Simulators go back to 1998, a good one and through FSX, ten. I like FS2002. Add on any free airplane from simviation.com free.
So good luck dragging your ball and chain today, […]
So living with constant depression and daily suicidal thoughs has changed me and my mind into things I wish never existed. I think most people going through the same things would agree with me when I this.
1.) Everytime someone asks me if I am doing okay, I have to put a fake smile on my face and say I am fine because I don’t want people to see how much depression truly controls me.
2.) I can’t take my necessary daily medicines without thinking of overdosing.
3.) I can’t cross the road without the thought of wanting a car to hit me crossing my mind.
4.) I can’t […]
Yeah, everyday seems like slow suicide. I always wake up feeling like shit and I’m greeted by a little box beside my bed. It encases a lethal toxin I bought last week to aid my transition. Depression is eating me from the inside and this fucked up totalitarian capitalistic matrix incessantly plunges me into an existential crisis. This is the only place where I feel safe. I’ve read a couple of encouraging posts but the optimism is short-lived. There’s two individuals on here that intrigue me so much, Salt and Randal. I always read their comments on posts and they’re pretty thought provoking. I wonder what their […]
I’m 25 years old and have suffered from severe depression and anxiety since I was 14. Medication and therapy have been of little assistance. I’ve had a very difficult social life due to this problem making it difficult to form friendships and impossible to find a romantic relationship the latter of which has devastated me more than anything. I recently spent a day with a girl I connected with more than anyone I have ever met, agreed to stay in contact with her and within a few days she completely cut off all contact with me without explanation. This is the only time in my […]
Talk to someone about something relevant, and most people will respond like they are not interested.
People that prioritize their fantasies at the expense of the reality of things are, sadly, the byproduct of a lack of education, cultural indoctrination, or more drastically, some genetic outcomes, being a victim of violence, extreme poverty, sickness, addictions, to name a few…
Now try to fix or to solve a universal, a global, a regional or a local problem, because that idea you got is closer to an optimal state, clearly realistic, and/or overall less or not problematic at all. You will be stopped, discouraged, even […]
I think this has to be one of my favourite quotes (not of my own creation, but well-liked all the same).
Rather than believing in the typical meaning behind this quote that just because you grow older and ‘wiser’, it does not mean that you will also mature in body, mind and soul; I personally interpretated this quote, due to my own experiences etc., as saying that sometimes no matter how hard you try for a period of time – whether it’s a few days or a few years -, your mind will never change. I suppose this could be passed as ignorance but that is […]
*spoiler* this is a suicide note.
Once upon a time i genuinely thought that i could get through this.
I thought that despite how bad i felt i could fight these feelings and actually win the battle to depression.
Im 19.
I started having thoughts of suicide at the age of 13.
I acted upon these feelings at age 15, & was then taken into a mental health facility for adolecent teenagers like me.
During my time there me and few other teenagers who were also “mentally ill” felt that we were treated unfairly.
I think at one point it got so bad that we would hold little secret […]
So, I watching pretty little liars with my sister right now, I have to be quick. If there are typos im sorry. So, I have been taking sertraline(Zoloft) for the last year, and I just forgot to take it the last week. I haven’t thought about suicide at all, and I looked it up to see if the medication had any effect. I couldn’t get a clear answer, so I’m asking now If Zoloft could have any effect on me. Thanks.
Before you convince yourself that now is the time to leave this world and enter a whole new dimension of an unknown abyss, ask yourself these questions. (and feel free to answer them yourself in the comments):
What makes it so hard for you to stay?
What do you view suicide as?
How would you commit suicide?
On average, 6 people are intimately affected by the suicide of a friend, family member, etc.
Who do you think would miss you the most? (Can be more or less than 6 people.)
Why would those people miss you so much?
What is your favorite thing about your everyday life?
What are some […]
You told her you hate her
And want her to die
So she thinks to herself
Maybe you’re right
I should just take this knife
And bleed once again
One scar turns to 5
And 5 into 10
And now thanks to you
She’s given up on her life,
Do She reached for the bottle
And took many a pill
But you never hated her
Or want her to die
But now it’s too late
Cause she went home and thought
Suicide!
Hi, call me Olivia (fake name) when I was 8 I was diagnosed with a disease called crohns it has now at 15 I’m depressed. I self harm almost everyday I can’t stop I’m surprised I haven’t been hospitalised because of it. The only thought on my mind is suicide, I attempted it once and I’ve written many notes but I’m too much of a coward to kill myself but hey, maybe that’s a good thing i just… I don’t know what to do anymore!
Don’t know where my life is heading me. Don’t evn know how to live. Every thought, each feeling, every emotion is now jumbled up. M into deep darkness…. want to come out of it. Trying…. but not able to. Somebody plsss advice how can i overcome this suicidal feeling. long back i attempted it twice. Aft that gradually everything become settled. But again with his ignorance towards me & getting closer to another lady pulled me back to 7-8 years ago. Same problem is arising again. I cnt evn trust myself now. Hv loose all my hope n wish for death every moment. Each second […]
“That must’ve been a doozy,” said Mrs. Bergeron to her son Melvin. “I think your ears are bleeding a little.”
Of course Melvin couldn’t hear her until the ringing subsided, but he could see that she was doing her best to show compassion.
“I’m ok, Ma. Gosh, that was a doozy.”
“That’s what I said,” she repeated. “Must’ve been a doozy.”
“What must’ve been?”
“I can’t remember,” she answered, shrugging as she had done so many times before. Being precisely at the National average level of intelligence, she didn’t need to wear a Brain Handicapper like her slightly-above-average-intelligence sons. So she could only guess what the loud disruptions sounded like–that […]
This is my first time doing this and thanks to those who read it. I dont really share my feelings but i thought i should give it a try. I don’t know why someone at age 20 feels the way that I do. Ever since my dad passed away when i was 11 I have felt empty. I was my bestfriend and my role model. He suffered from drug abuse and was clean for a year, then went to a hotel off the parkway, overdosed, and killed himself. Every time I think about it I blame myself(& I know many people say that there is […]
I’ve been dealing with depression for the most of past 4 years (I’ve been hospitalized at 17). My girlfriend of six months just left me without a word of explanation. She’s been amazing the whole time, but there were no warnings. I don’t really believe in the concept of soulmates but I thought we were perfect for each other. I felt she was the only person to really understand me (I’m almost 21). For two weeks now, it has felt like someone stuck hundreds of shards of glass in my body and left it there. I’m not someone who often had physical pains before, but […]
I’m sick really.. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. nothing in life satisfies me anymore, I want all the wrong things & I think that bad, that my heart is literally ready to jump out of my chest.
I just want it all to go away. these feelings, these thought, these memories. I just want to be happy.
I don’t remember the last time I was happy actually. you see, a lot has happened to me in my life. a lot happened to me growing up as a child and I think it has all had a negative impact on my life.
long story short, […]
Today is my last day and it seems surreal.
Today I am going to go to the family cookout and later watch the fireworks . Not sure if I will sleep tonight or just stay up. Tomorrow I will get up early and drive to where I can see the sunrise. I have some nice soft music I am going to listen to while I watch it. Then when the sun is half way over the horizon, I will end this pain.
My note:
I was going to write a nice long note or even a poem but then thought, why. Everyone knows that I loved them and […]
I was happy before the pain began. I was a better person.
Going on three years now of a mystery illness that’s drained me of who I am. Been to several doctors this past year, took a whole year off from college and still no answers. I have just continued to feel worse and worse. I have lost all functionality as a human being. My family now expects me to get a job because at 22 I can’t be taken care of forever but I can’t work.
I don’t want to kill myself because of a lack of caring on anyone’s part. My family has helped me […]