Today is my last day and it seems surreal.
Today I am going to go to the family cookout and later watch the fireworks . Not sure if I will sleep tonight or just stay up. Tomorrow I will get up early and drive to where I can see the sunrise. I have some nice soft music I am going to listen to while I watch it. Then when the sun is half way over the horizon, I will end this pain.
I was going to write a nice long note or even a poem but then thought, why. Everyone knows that I loved them and nothing I could write will ease your pain. Only time will do that.
Why I did it? What it came down to for me was this…
1. Being Trans sucks!
2. Dysphoria is a *****
3. It really don’t get any better.
Love and hugs eternal,