I want to die. Can i please just die i’ve been suicidal since i was 11 and i just want to die i’ve tried to commit suicide before but i was unseccesful i wish my brother hadn’t walked in. If he didn’t then all my pain would be gone.
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Today, i’ve tried to hang myself…
I think i’m gonna try again once i’m drunk enough, i don’t know if this is a cry for help…
Or maybe is just a warning… Fuck it
i’ve tried, i think i’m gonna hang myself in a sheet…
i’m drinking right now, smoking…
today i’ve used 1,5g of coke…
i’m feeling like i don’t have a place here, i think i am a problem…
no one cares, i just want to die…
i don’t want to be a deception anymore…
i’m sitting here for hours and crying… sip by sip… cigarette after cigarette…
my neck hurts from my […]
I posted my thoughts about this a few months ago and still come back to them…. It is not that I want to die, but it is that I just want to disappear from the world around me and from myself. I would no longer have too deal with the things that bother me, and in time, anyone who would miss me will get past it…. As for disappearing from myself, I just want to be in a permanent sleep state…..That would be wonderful…. I tend to visit good memories in my sleep and I hope that would be […]
Work has me in a hotel tonight since I’m homeless. Worst one they could have picked. Apparently there’s a Hottest Women in America convention going on because the hotel is packed with all women. Yeah I want a gun to blow my fucking brains out right this second. My ‘friend’ is coming over but I’m sure he’ll find one of these women to fuck and forget about me. I’m so fuckng sick of this shit, being too fucking ugly to ever be loved, being homeless and all alone in the world!!!!
It happened. Worse than ever. I lost my shit.
Sobbing in the bath tub, snot and tears and drool mingling with the water, mumbling over and over for two hours “I don’t want to die… I don’t want to die… But I can’t do this…”
I’ve never felt such anguish, I feel like I have emotional cancer, I’ve never felt this way and it scares me so badly.
I don’t want to die, but what if it’s worse next time? What if it hurts so bad that I just end it all?
What if I go to hell for giving up too soon? I know not everyone is religious […]
“Did you really wanna die? No one commits suicide because they want to die. Then why did they do it? Because they wanna stop the pain.” – Tiffanie DeBartolo
by Dusty96
written by Dusty96
Found this quote and thought of it to be very true. I’m done. I’m sorry mom, dad, and brother but I need to do this. When I get the chance I’m hanging myself. I have no motivation to get a job, start a career, or just live in general. Nothing appeals to me in life. I’m a broken soul with no home here. I have parents that love me and I have a roof over my head and I should be grateful for that which I really really am but I don’t want it. I just don’t want to be here anymore. The depression hasn’t […]
This woman at work reached out to me and I told her that I have no desire to live. We had a chat about it and she seemed pretty determined to see me get better. She’s had her own issues with depression and wants me to go for the same specialized therapy that she went in for. And she wants to be my friend, it seems, because she’s talking to me a lot more and wants to hang out after work.
I feel so guilty because she doesn’t know how much of a lost cause I am. There’s no helping someone like me because I want […]
sometimes i just want to die! as most of us fucking do but seriously whats the point? to show everyone our life was shit? to let them win? well no thats fucking bullshit if we want to die its their fault and if we do kill ourselves that means that u r letting them win! dont you want to prove to these douche bags that we can achieve our dreams and that we arent worthless and even if we were sexually harrassed, or abused, or just treated terribly, or r strugging with depression dont u want to prove the rest of the world wrong? stay […]
All my darkest fears rise into the light
Out from the cold place I left them deep down in my soul
I laugh I cry then soon i want to die
Forgetting what it’s like to live
Not knowing how to love life
Repeating this sad cycle
Breathing the same shitty air
Death would be living
This hell we call earth is rotting
I cry tears no longer
I cry blood like 1000 needles pierced my eyes
Caterpillars no longer turn into butterflies
While flowers no longer bloom
My screams become faint
Nobody hears me
Nobody cares
Because nobody’s there
I’m already dead
I haven’t done it yet.but I’m still thinking about it. Not as much as a few weeks ago but still… I don’t know, some people just aren’t cut out to live a long life. I always did say I was going to die young.
The thought of death is soothing. I don’t want to die but I’m afraid of being alive. I’m afraid I’m never going to get out of this. I’m afraid of everything and I want to be alone for a long, long time away from everyone. Everything feels meaningless. Even loving or helping people sounds meaningless. I can’t find a point. I’m tired of trying.
a lot of the time I don’t even know why I’m feeling the way I do…is it my past?
i can just wake up and just feel like I want to die…I don’t want to get out of bed I stay in the dark no tv or anything and turn my phone off….
some days r good tho and I can laugh and smile then it’s back to this dark place….
i don’t like living like this I want to escape it and the only option seems to be suicide….
i don’t see any other way.
I am not doing so well, my mother is dying and I am having a hard time dealing with it. She has been my life for a very long time and I made sure she was fine each and every day. She is 78 and now has heart problems and pneumonia which are making it hard for her to fight off the infection. I have been depressed for some time now and have been weighing ways to kill myself. I had finally decided on sleeping pills but after reading so many horror stories about people who take 30 or so pills and they don’t die- would […]
I dont know what to do I’m scared of death because I have so many dreams but without him my dreams seem to have no meaning.i have no hope for the future.i know you will tell me that no girl should give her life to a guy but I have he has now become a part og me and now he’s jist drifting away from me…I cant live without him, if I jave to share him then I’d rather die and feel no pain
I’ve tried it before but instead of me dying I ended up losing my baby unaware that I was carrying and I […]
I dont understand why i hate myself to where i want to die. Somehow i envy the dead. Theyre so peacful and here are us. Walking about in agony and such sadness. Why cant things be better? Why do I try so hard and end up going no where or being the fifth wheel? what am i meant for besides being a total failure?
I wish I could just die already. I’m so sad all the time and I know that there is no way to escape it anymore. It feels like there’s this animal that lives in my stomach that eats every spark of happiness away. Any emotion at all is torn to pieces and all that is left is this shitty body.
I already walk around like a zombie, everyone knows it. I can hear people saying it behind my back. They treat me as if I’m a bomb; and time is slowly ticking away. What hurts me is that they’re completely right, and I am looking forward […]
What need have I to fear–so soon to die? Let me work on, not watch and wait in dread: What will it matter, when that I am dead That they bore hate or love that near me lie? ‘Tis but a lifetime, and the end is nigh At best or worst. Let me lift up my head And firmly, as with inner courage, tread Mine own appointed way on mandates high. Pain could but bring from all its evil store, The close of pain: hate’s venom could but kill; Repulse, defeat, desertion, could no more, Let me have lived my life, not cowered until The […]
I am fourteen years old. My father abondoned me as a child. I think of that a lot. why wasnt i enough for him. Why did he have to leave me? Also when i was a child i was raped. My family doesnt know and only one of my friends does. I deal with constant flashbacks. I see and hear things that arent there. i hear voices telling me to do things i dont want to do, to hurt others and myself. i see scary things and stupid things from monsters to birds. I am secretly gay and live in a catholic family in the […]
I’m okay with that. If I can make peace with that, why the hell can’t any of my family members stop bugging me about being single? I know I haven’t dated anyone since 2012, but judging how things went then, being alone isn’t so bad. It’s not that I haven’t gotten over the last girl I dated, I just don’t feel the need to have all of the drama I had last time. I’m going to die in a month, so why the fuck does it matter?
The only reason I’m ranting about this is that I am currently visiting some family and my dad couldn’t […]
Hi i need the best way to die, without pain. Please dont try to preach to me i dont have family/friends or anyone by my side so dont use that line on me. But please anyone asap i do not want to live for another week.