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cant take it anymore

by tarko
written by tarko

dont know how to start this so here we go:

(sory for spelling/grammar. english isnt my best language)

 

IM tired of living. dont know what to do anymore

it just feels like i shouldnt exist.

nobody likes me.

it feels like im a burden to my family.

i cant do fucking anything right

im a failure

(do have a couple of friends i met trough WOW. but havent met them IRL)

every night i pray to god(if he exist) that i dont want to wake up anymore as its pointless
 
why cant i feel happy?
why cant i have friends?
why cant i have a girlfriend?
 
why cant i simply wake up in the morning and not feel […]

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after so many years

by AliceNwndrlnd
written by AliceNwndrlnd

I am still alive. now at the age of 21 looking back on what i have been trough and it starts making sense again.
I reached to the breaking point again and remembered this site from long ago and was thinking i should spill my thoughts here.
I never told much about my self from the few posts i made here and now i feel is the time to reveal some details about myself just so things would seem more clearly.
so what to begin with? since when i was a little kid our family had lots of problems. we never were a big family, […]

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My sad life

by ineedhelp123
written by ineedhelp123

When i read suicide stories online. I allways read reactions like, don’t worry, one day everything will get better. It will all be allright. You might feel sad at the moment but your future will get brighter.
Well, stop lying, it’s not going to happen. I take my pills daily, pills to reduce my depression but also pills to reduce my pain. My nerves are damaged and i have chronical pain.
It’s going on for 2 years now, and no. It won’t get better, it won’t restore, i’ve lost all hope.

I shouldn’t even be drinking with my medication, but i do. I drink even more […]

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Dont know what to do

by randomguy95
written by randomguy95

I’m an 17 year old junior in high school right now. I graduate next year. I’ve always been unsure about what I want to do with my life, but I’ve been starting to feel a lot more pressure now that im graduating next year. I don’t know where to go to college, I don’t know what for, and I don’t know even if I want to go. I’ve feel like my life might be headed for an downward spiral. I’m not motivated to do much nowadays, and I don’t think a lot people understand me. I know there are people here that go trough much […]

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My Past

by ashamedgirl
written by ashamedgirl

I made some mistakes, no not some i made a lot of mistakes. And i think i deserved everything that i’ve been trough and i’m going through. I wasn’t a good person, i used to do bad things, things that are irreversible. 2 years ago i finally noticed that i changed my name, who i am, went a new place, place that nobody knew nothing about me. i made some mistakes there too. i always make mistakes. and i am so ashamed like i can’t even explain it. if i could go back, to anytime i would go that time fix my mistakes. my past will […]

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My story..

by Lullaby
written by Lullaby

I’ve struggled for a very very long time, and since i were young i’ve been depressed..

-Always bullied, abused and threatened..

When i were young up till today I’ve been going trough mental and psychical abuse., At my elementary schools i oftenly got threatened with knives and to be beaten up. A few times they even beat me up, hit me in places people couldn’t see the bruises on, and said If I’d tell anyone they’d cut my throat..

I tried to talk to people about it but always got laughed at and they said I’m just making things up, no one is doing such a thing to […]

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by Saph
written by Saph

This will be one messed up post because I’m messed up. To put that honestly straightly in the beginning. But I guess something comes out of this.  Or I don’t know, every hour of work produces something. And someone more clever than me recommended doing this so here I am.  I don’t know what my problem exactly is. I just don’t know where to go. Or what should I do with my life. There are so many people here and they have most horrible stories and mine wouldn’t be anything to compare. Not like we should compare or anything. Hah, I’m happy if someone make […]

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I’m a newbie to the site… but not in the suicide circle.

by Please kill me...
written by Please kill me...

Hi everyone.

My name is Teresa, and I am a Depressed teen….

Oh GAWD.. did i really just say that. . . . ok let me start over… let me be real with you guys… and girls.

….

Hi, I’m Teresa. I am 17 years old. My birthday is April 4th. And I can promise you i won’t live past the age of 18.

I bet you all are curious why. I bet you all already know the reason. so does it really have to be said out loud? I think not.

lets continue.

 

My life sucks. I hate starting out so cliche. but this is one way to start that you […]

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Betrayed again!

by Saint Thomas
written by Saint Thomas

Why does this shit always happen to me. I try to be happy everyday but i guess im just really good at making a facade to every day of my pathetic little life. Who am i? my apparent friends always back stab me in the end i only have one friend who is my brother (not real brother) ive known him since we were 4 and i trust him with my life but others i meet sure ill be nice to them and shit like that but i try not to trust them or else id be breaking rule 1. Trust no one Suspect everyone […]

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Fuck. My. (So-Called). Life.

by cocoblair
written by cocoblair

Everyone’s annoying and out to get you. Your friends are disrespectful and unappreciative little cunts who don’t give a shit about what you’re going trough (the only reason they ask ,,what’s wrong” is purely curiosity) and the people around you stopped appreciating you a long time ago. 

You’re an ugly little ***** who no guy will ever date, fuck or marry.

You’re not doing well in school or work ergo you deserve to die because you’re a useless member of this society. 

By wanting to kill yourself, talking about depression and anxiety, having anger fits and complaining makes you either boring or a scary individual that nobody wants […]

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What It Might Matter, My Story

by LoveReject
written by LoveReject

 

 

At Age ten I lost connection with the world when I started talking again to my father who was in jail at the time and I haven’t seen in person at the age of four before we moved from our Arizona home all the way to North Carolina. I was told but my mom that she can’t trust me and that I had betrayed her. Our relationship has plummeted to the ground. As I type this shes sitting across the room looking at me every once and a while at me wondering what I’m typing, and she’s probably thinking real hard about something stupid because I’ve lost the love towards her. My step dad whose been put trough […]

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empty as fuck, again.

by Soulless-dawnkeeper
written by Soulless-dawnkeeper

I want to feel. anything. I feel so fucking empty. My moods swing constantly. Half an hour ago I was jumping up and down with energy..

I want to cut, so I can feel that sweet rush flow trough my body, I want to smoke, I want to drink, have sex so freaking much…

 

and now I have to leave my bed to go to work. Yey 🙁

 

 

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Another day of survival

by brooke paulsen
written by brooke paulsen

I was just about to do it! Grab the rope from downstairs and hang it over that beam in my garage that hangs oh so high. I’m screaming “I dont want to do it, I dont want to do ! ”  I never want to kill myself but I could never bear the fact that the world is crashing down right on top of me and I began to snap. I didnt know anybody was home but then I hear my father downstairs looking for his motorcycle keys. All I had to do was just wait till he got on that motorcycle and I would […]

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i have no idea of what im going to do but its driving me crazy

by gen19
written by gen19

4th of July is in two days, that’s the day i had planned to end it all. I have this amazing guy who walked into my life and makes thinks better but life is still hard. I stooped taking my meds bcz i wanted to think clearly on whether i would go trough with my plans or not. I still have no idea of what im going to end up doing. My boyfriend does not make it easier on me. He knows all about it and he does not want to lose me, he said he can see himself marrying me in the future. I […]

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Birthday fail…

by jasiel_bvb
written by jasiel_bvb

So yeah yesterday the 21th was my brothers birthday. He turned 6 this year. He was really happy, we had pizza, hotdogs, and a soccer cake. It was going really well… until dad came home from work. Like always he was drunk. So when it was time to eat the cake my dad started crying. Do you know how hard that was for ME, seeing my only father cry. I started crying as well… I was scared! My grandpa told him to calm down and eat. But then my dad got up went to the kitchen and grabes a knife. He then […]

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Going blindly

by TarotXIII
written by TarotXIII

Right now I’m only living because I am alive.To not waste what I consider a magnificent oportunity to discover,feel and enjoy everything that moves your heart.Yet no matter how hard I look,no matter how hard I search,I can’t find the rope to guide me trough the maze.I feel so alone…Everyone around me seem so far away,like I was in a different dimension overlaping his one but I couldn’t be touched.I can’t find what moved my heart anymore.Everyday seem wasted.I think: “If I was going to do nothing again,I should have stayed in bed”…Worthless chatter “It’s finaly geting hot outside!”…”I love the cold…”.Everybody looks at me […]

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