By the rules of society I’m the definition of evil… I want people dead I want myself dead… I want this world to burn away… But only because of the torment me and countless others go through daily… And I’m reminded of how the true monsters are on the other side of the websites, the texts, the notes, the rumors, everything… It’s sad watching others be hurt like that… I’ve gotten used to it but even I lay here everyday and think of how nice the sweet release of death would be… So I’m here to say it’s too hard for me… Soon probably I’ll […]
The worst day was last week, seeing the guy I have loved so deeply and gave my all to go for the first girl who showed interest. Given the time to think, I really hate her. She played innocent to get my confidence as well, so that I would tell her how much I love this guy. When in secret, she was telling him she was interested in him. He goes for it because she is young, short and skinny. She admits to having multiple boyfriends and being polyamourus and the one she lives with looks well older than me. I don’t think it’s romantic. […]
…lots of bullshit cant trust my girlfriend shell see this probably as she often posts on here she hurts me when i trust her i care about her so much ive always tried my hardest i dont understand how she can take advantage of me im slowly losing what friends I still have, struggle is becoming more stressing always tired can’t think clearly always radical thoughts even for my standards I hope I make it through this year to reach my road to glory this is just a prologue to the true great story
I am so dissatisfied with my life. So much that if a natural disaster occurred to kill me or someone murdered me, I would probably be okay. I don’t want to commit suicide, or I guess I can’t. I’m too scared. I’ve thought about cutting, but I think about the pain and how I have to bring a knife to my skin, and I just can’t. I feel so stressed. I have so many dreams and goals that I want to achieve, but I know that my dreams are just dreams and that reality will catch up sooner or later. Reality that I’m not smart, […]
I noticed that this group has some of the most undersranding, intelligent, and empathetic people thst I ever came across. I wonder…..maybe we are the ones that are sane but suffer from mental illnesses because we are in a world where the vast majority of humans are nut jobs. Think about it – look how shallow, mean, and ignorant most people outside this group are?
screwdriver. i like a phillips screwdriver. gets u fucked. star shaped for star children.
i dont do wodka straight unless i must. too many rough nights in 2013 shootin straight wodkuh. tonight imma enjoy this. it may very well be my last night. (: seriously i get intensely impulsive. i mever drink for the taste like a *****. i drink to get clobbered hammered and shit n pissfaced like a true alcoholic. drink drink drunk
glug glug glug me hearties
this is my first post on here. my friends have told me writing about how I’m feeling will help. I’m not quite sure that’s true. anyhow, since this website was created for people to share their experiences and stories I thought I could try it out.
Not kidding. Don’t hold back on what comes to mind when you see these pics:
i wish i could get hit by a car. if i die then then great but if not i could get a clue to see who actuallly cares. ive had so many fake friends that ive completely gave up on being social. i avoid talking to anyone at all costs. my dad calls me anti social in a joking matter but its true i guess.
I have been laying her for at least 10 hours. I thought it was gonna be an easy night. But of course the voices in my head say otherwise. I look at my dog in envy as he just lays there. I wanna go to sleep. I haven’t had a dream in soooo long. Maybe one day I will. One day it will just be a really long dream that’s perfect just for me. Or is that what heaven is? Maybe on days on earth is just a nightmare and when we wake up…Or what if its just some type of limbo where its just […]
I’m a bit slow, if I may from my impartial
I’ll keep my work for tomorrow
Let me enjoy the life
What is it from the outside effecting one’s chromosome
Growing to become the master of my ability in my disparity
Putting everything that I say, I’m sorry
I’m a bit slow, if I may from my impartial
The only from the echo missing to the beat of a drum
Growing to become the master of ability from my disparity
Everyone is like a valiant knight
And what about for this one
What happened to the true, cross, by the side
And now, to the now
Like I lost so long ago
Back to the, equitable
Convening, there is only […]
Today, was terrible. It started off with me being lied to. Then that lead to me doing something terrible because of that lie. Next, I went throughout my whole day thinking that was a great thing I did. After school, I got a text asking why I did that terrible thing from the person I did it to. I asked about the lie and they said it wasn’t true. Then, that person blocked me, and I really needed to say more to them. Then, I figured out that I did that terrible thing for no reason and my crush, hated me. It was terrible and […]
I don’t come on this site often, only when I feel shitty. Please try to comment if you can so I can get as much advice as possible. I was given a load of shit when I was born and honestly, not one single thing has changed. I have a sister that has mood swings and has some form of autism, my mom wants me to be her slave, among other things. I mentioned in my last post about my mom being in a wheelchair and I don’t mind helping her, but she does nothing else for me. My dad lets me do stuff with him […]
Mom:
You ruined my life! Every single day a part of me hated you so much no matter how loud of a laugh you caused to escape my mouth. Your religion opened my eyes to open mindedness because I would never wanna be such a close minded hating Christian like you. I hate myself most of the time because that fact that I’m gay I should be “ashamed.” I must be going to hell some day or at least that’s what you think right. I am going to hell because I was born admiring the same sex and decided to follow a path that is more accepting and […]
Me and you
My love is true
Life is hard
Eye to eye
In the yard
And hand in hand
In my head
Faraway dreams
That they are
But maybe someday they’ll be something more….
I guess I am writing this for everyone else out there who understands what I’ve gone through. To know you aren’t alone nor are you ever alone no matter how much you may feel that way its not true. I have been battling depression and suicidal tendencies since I was 8 years old. From age 9 to 17 I was raped and molested by my friends father. He is in jail now, but it really messed me up. I started cutting starving binging and purging because i needed to control something again because of how much I had lost. I didn’t know what else to […]
from the depths of despair I wander
but not all who wander are lost
yet I am both
a wandering vagabond in search of answers i’ll never seem to find outside of my rib cage
my animal pen that keeps my true rage locked inside until it’s time to feed
hidden and looked over have I been for far too long
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.44 magnum for voice box full of ammunition that’s begging to be fired
whoever gets in the way is irrelevant; the bullets are meant to kill
cause I’m killz and I was born in darkness
birthed in hopelessness and death themselves
i have seen […]
This job did its job. It took me some to understand what has fallen through. I was freaking out initially because such changes always seem terrifying at first. I recalled a post of mine where I wrote that I can’t follow my way because I have to bear the burden of sustaining my body/ I feel obligation towards my parents/ I hate society and can’t help influence of people while interacting with them. It now seems that all these things were direct or indirect products of my not having a job. I am saying that because these things are vanished now, I no longer feel […]
I need to clarify things. Everything is messed in my mind. I have gone through enough of illusions so I don’t want to fall for another one. My experience isn’t for nothing, it teaches me what NOT to do or which among my thoughts is another illusion. But.. this job has changed a lot of things. It was guilt, fear and worthlessness that were making me suffer all these years, and from that suffering were arising my desires for higher things. With this job that guilt is gone, and so is gone my craving for higher things. But there is no satisfaction! Where is my […]
first off, I’d get on my knees, cry tears of joy and thank the people for giving me my gift. They would be like true angels to me. My body would relax and I would feel at ease. I’d lay down, and drink the stuff without hesitation, and then drift off into the miracle of eternal nothingness.
I seen so many videos on euthanasia. I’m happy for these people and wish I could be there to have what there having. The solution is pure magic. Peaceful and painless. It’s fucking beautiful!