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How my life turned to hell.

by Mezzy 8/18/2013

written by Mezzy

I’m writing this because i want to get my story out.

I don’t want anyone’s sympathy or help, I want my story out so if something ever happens to me, at least my story is public and people know why I did it.

As a first thing I’d like to make note of the fact that I do NOT want to kill myself! It just seems like the only way out of my misery. And it’s been that way for quite a while already.

At first i laughed at myself for having a quickly fading suicide moment. (wich smart and sane person wouldn’t?) but after a few years, […]

8/18/2013 2 comments

My past and how I got stranded in my problems.

by Engeltje 1/23/2013

written by Engeltje

Boot777 asked me what my main problems are that cause my suicidal thoughts. I decided to make a post of it, so here it is. Well, there isn’t really one problem you can point at that causes the suicidal thoughts. Actually, there are a lot of things that cause them. I am not telling you all of them, because probably I’ll forget one or two and that’s going to be bored, so I’m going to tell the important one’s (I guess). I’ve been bullied from my fourth untill now. The worst part was at age of 11, 12 I guess. I was at elemntary school […]

1/23/2013 3 comments

Twats

by Runningtostandstill 12/27/2012

written by Runningtostandstill

Erggghhh! Why the fuck am i still here?! I’m sorry but i need to get this out, and it won’t be the same if I dont swear.

Im going to admit this now, I’ve told No one this ever. But fuck it, let’s tell a bunch of strangers! I’ve been screwed up since birth. I was born witha type of arthritis in my joints, so walking, crawling, sports, all of it was painful. Eventually people noticed I wasnt like everyone else. I’ve been bullied ever since I entered those school gates. But i was too nice, and no innocent […]

12/27/2012 4 comments

I’m such a pathetic excuse for a human being

by Not worth saving 7/11/2012

written by Not worth saving

Damn Damn Damn
32 days clean from cutting UNTILL tonight.

Not worth saving

7/11/2012 2 comments

Messy life

by nikkix 5/7/2012

written by nikkix

First of all I would like to point out I left school about a year ago and I have been looking for a job and getting nowhere, had a couple of interviews but had no luck with that.
I live in a tiny village where I dont know many people so it means getting family to drive me 11 miles to town so I can meet my mates. Only problem is all my mates are guys, I don’t get on with girls. So because im only really interested in getting drunk Its usually with a few guys every week along with my older brother who […]

5/7/2012 2 comments

a decision that will make it my last

by noexception 5/4/2012

written by noexception

i have been thinking,i know im to smart for my own good,i woulda never survived through the shit i did if i didnt know how to save my self from dieing of in my case anything,my life is shit,i live hours away from anyone im related to , and they are the shittiest people, the ones that abused me, starved me treated me inhumane till i was 17 wen i was finally taking away perminetly,still haveing attatchment issues and trust issues,vulnerable and always ran into someone that would say they care but hurt me and brake every promis possible,untill i realized, i dont have a […]

5/4/2012 3 comments

Does Cutting Really Help At All?

by Raynidos 4/24/2012

written by Raynidos

Hi, I’m Ray. I have no special poem. No dramatic story to tell. I just have one question…
Does cutting help at all? im trying to make myself happier. i get really angry and frustrated, untill i dont know what to do, so i cut.. and it makes me feel beter, but of course it fucks up my wrists, and after about a year of cutting, im running out of space…
But i feel better when i cut, so is it actually good, or am i just stupid?

4/24/2012 15 comments

only the small prob.

by emily25 7/1/2009

written by emily25

So the drugs have worn off. My stomach still gets nautiated when I move too much and I have a really bad head ache after I eat. But I am acting more like myself now. Faking smiles and laughts as usual. Well, untill everybody goes to bed anyways. Now I am back to thinking of ways to kill myself without it looking like I did it or pin anyone else on killing me. I don’t want to hurt anyone :/
I almost broke up with my boyfriend today. Ha never even texted me. I’m tired of always being the one to text first. He can […]

7/1/2009 15 comments