I just want to pack a bag and walk. I want to see the world.
I don’t want to die without seeing it all.
I might just do that.
I just want to pack a bag and walk. I want to see the world.
I don’t want to die without seeing it all.
I might just do that.
If not today, the last day something ‘made your day’?
What was it?
(a positive post from me, for once…)
I had my day made today, just now, and it wasn’t even ‘today’ because today’s already over, whatever…but…it was finding a ‘pink lemonade’ flavoured jolly-rancher-lollipop in the cheap bag of valentines candy I got for half off a couple days ago…fuckin best flavor ever!
I will legit mail these fuckin things out if they’d make anyone else’s day, so you’d better say if you want one! lol
I just discovered this website, so I’m not really familiar with how it works, but here I am. I’m so alone, and right now all I want is just to feel like I’m not alone, to be around other people who understand what I’m going through. I’ve been going through depression for the past few years, but this past month it has really been hitting me hard and getting worse. Why am I struggling? The answer is one word, and one word that we all are just too familiar with. And that word is alone. I couldn’t feel anymore distance from my family, it’s like […]
My therapist says he thinks I am addicted to torturing myself… What does that even mean??? I don’t even know what that is supposed to mean or how it is supposed to make me feel, but it makes me feel like a loser whiny 8!tch. I didn’t initially want to get into my recent flashbacks because I felt so stupid for still having flashbacks 15 years after the $h!t was over. I just want to know if any of you understand what he means? Maybe I am just a stupid fat c*nt anyhow. I feel like such a loser.
I’d love to hear some real life experiences from folks who’ve called suicide hotlines…
How do they start off the conversation?
How do they continue it or keep you engaged (if they do)?
Have you ever called for a friend, and if so, what was that like?
This is mainly to get a quick sample of how people perceive them and whether they are seen as helpful, or not of much help….
Thanks for anything you may want to share.
I let him get away twice because how awful I am. I just want to die and soon. i hate myself so much let me out
Today I found out that one of my kidneys has failed and that the other has deteriorated severely. I am told I need a donor or else I will die.
It dawned on me that I’m not sure I want one. Every day I consider suicide and sometimes I come close.
Twice I have made serious attempts that failed.
I do not want to waste a donor kidney that could be given to someone else when I will one day waste it almost certainly. I am quite positive one day I will kill myself because one day I will lose the fight again and then I might […]
Okay, so I haven’t put anything positive recently, but here’s something for you that might make you smile, even a little bit.
On here I’ve found a multitude of people who want to die, and a few have probably succeeded, but no one truly dies.
You see when you meet someone and you speak to them and get to know them, you impart a portion of yourself on them.
When your loved ones speak to someone you knew, they’ll hear your voice layered within theirs.
i’m drifting away from my life and i don’t fucking care that i’m drunk at 2 in the morning on a school night again because i don’t even panic about this anymore and why should i? people are more surprised if i’m at school for once than if i’m away for a week. i can’t throw up anymore because i don’t eat and if i try to vomit i just end up coughing up blood and mucus. i just want to be perfect and clean and being perfect by my own standards is all that concerns me now. it makes no sense because i’ve only […]
I feel so fucking ashamed that for a second foolish time I could believe it was actually worth something to someone!!! I knew from day fucking 1 when you said how you felt that it was a lie, but me being the stupid fucking ***** I am trusted and believed you.. You and all these other people are nothing but lies. That’s all everything ever is!! LIES!! I know I’m worth nothing, I knew I was never worth your time or anyone else’s.. I wish that you’d just admit it. Just once, admit that I am worthless and that I never meant a damn thing […]
I have been stuck here for 15 years. I have parents that are very old fashioned, but lately have been slacking up with my brother (5 years younger than me) and it is pissing me off. He has turned into a sneaky brat. And my parents thing I’M the disrespectful one. No, but the two of us shouldn’t have the same rules. They smother me and I am not allowed to go out. Oh, and I weigh 90llbs and want to weigh 80. So I basically just want me and my boyfriend to move away into the forest with our guns, horses, and no food […]
I was always more afraid of going numb and not caring than I was of my past and the pain. Though, I can’t cope tonight. I don’t feel anything. No emotion. I don’t even hear the voice in my head like I always do. I can’t think about living or dying.They have become one and the same. I have no preference. I’ve cut and I can’t feel it. I see is the blood but it doesn’t bring me any satisfaction or pleasure. I can’t breathe right. I think I drank too much with those pills for once. It feels like I am just shutting down, […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SGDHfcZVOg
Here, it’s his little brother and sister but it could be your mom, your dad, your friend, your husband or your wife. I know how hard life can be and how desesperate a person can be but what you’ve heard on this video is the reason why I’m still staying in this shitty world. A suicide is the most personal of all things and you don’t need to involve other peoples, peoples you love. I’m not trying to stop you but just remember that even if you’re dead, the world still spining and on it, you will be nothing but a dead body and I don’t think […]
I remember when I first started posting here, I was lost, very depressed, and lonely. I always thought, “I am not going anywhere in life. I just want to turn 20, live on my own, and kill myself!” After being on here for a while I started to feel a bit happier, soon after I began therapy and started to fell more happy, more confident, less lonely, I started being more hopeful about the future and had plans for what I want to do. But here I am again, a few months later and I am back to being depressed, I have isolated myself and […]
I’m 25 years old in a couple of weeks, and I have absolutely nothing to show for my life. I have no job, no experience, no skills. I’m still a a virgin, have never been kissed properly, never had someone who loves me. I don’t even have anyone who even cares about me all that much. No parents because they died when I was a child, no other family because they emotionally abused me all throughout my life and then disowned me. Only four friends. Two of which don’t even bother to talk to me unless I remind them I still exist. I feel invisible. […]
he was supposed tto call me like 3 days ago, n his phone’s been off, i know he said he was thinkin boutt checking himself in, but i feel he would’ve told me……i know alot of u have beef /w him, none of my bussiness, dont want any posts perataining to this either plz, just drop a line if u know anything please
That about sums me up I suppose. Although how I feel normally is just well below that. Holidays tend to make me feel even more melancholy, Valentines is no exception to that. Just that like many, issues with women tends to be one of my largest problems, so a day specifically shoving relationships in your face is a nice extra special twist of the knife.
I used to think pretty highly of myself. I’m tall, I was in ok shape. No adonis by any stretch of the imagination, but neither was I grossly out of shape. Bit of a tummy, but unless I have my shirt […]
*i want to apologize in advance. These are the things I can’t say to the man who promised the world and took everything I had left.
I can’t do this anymore. I can’t deal with you pretending I don’t exist one day and making small talk the next. I don’t want to live waiting for the day you decide to start caring. The things you said about me that night are killing me. Was there ever a time that you loved me, or was it all lies? I’m so tired. You only text me when you’re sad or upset, but you ignore me when I need […]
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