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It won’t stop

by nicole123 11/9/2015

written by nicole123

it’s never ending .

I feel my self getting worse and worse every day.

I woke up sort of feeling good today . I wanted to kill my self this weekend but I didn’t. I feel selfish for wanting to give up my life , but I don’t know how to turn the pain off.

I went to my dental a class today and I feel like I’ve lost interest . I loose interest in everything. I’m not good at anything and I don’t really mean much to anyone . I haven’t made a impact . Everyone eventually fades out of my life .

Everyday I wake up with […]

11/9/2015 3 comments

Waste of space. How I wish I could end my life but I am too big of a wimp. Vent

by lilsmore 11/7/2015

written by lilsmore

Hello.

This may be long or short. I don’t know yet…and I apologize for my grammar ahead of time. I do have two college degrees but they aren’t doing me any good so no reason to try and type correctly, eh?

I have some vague memory of creating an account here at some point and I may have posted something. I was obviously drunk when I did. I have read a lot here and it has been quite awhile since I have visited. I was very serious about suicide last year and even made a few lame attempts…and nothing that got me landed in a psychiatric ward.

I […]

11/7/2015 3 comments

A cry for help

by Blackdog 11/6/2015

written by Blackdog

Yesterday I was feeling really depressed. I just get out of bed to take the dog out and I went to a dinner with my classmates. Of course I get drunk. But instead of being happy and a silly drunk this time I started crying. I ruined the my friends’ dinner and I cried all night. They tried to comfort me but I was so embarrassed I just wanted to disappear. They are really good friends but I don’t deserve them. I left the restaurant without mobile phone and no money and went for a walk alone. Meanwhile I get lost in the city, but […]

11/6/2015 8 comments

A Crappy Story Written by a Kid

by majesticwalrus 11/6/2015

written by majesticwalrus

I wrote this in high school, for an English class. Hopefully it gets some laughs out of you guys.

A long, long time ago in a galaxy far away, 1998 in Oskaloosa, Kansas, there lived a young Twinkie named Pedro. Pedro was a good Twinkie, he had a golden glow to his exterior and a white, creamy center. He spent most of his days watching the other Twinkie soldiers march into battle to defeat their arch nemesis, the evil Hoho horde. One day, everything changed, his father was killed by the Hoho horde, when his body was returned, his creamy center had been sucked dry. Pedro’s […]

11/6/2015 31 comments

Feeling done :‘(

by brokenredbutterfly 11/5/2015

written by brokenredbutterfly

so I haven’t been on here in a while so I thought it was a good thing but you people on here always help out when I post something and reading the comments you place really help me a lot to help myself.

I have been getting bullied a lot I dunno why. I have been getting called fat so I started going to the gym a few months ago I thought twas improving my appearance til some people at my college started taunting me calling me fat and ugly. You see I have a twin and she has always been the one people idolize over. […]

11/5/2015 7 comments

by firebirdchick77 11/5/2015

written by firebirdchick77

After reading several posts and bawling my eyes out and then registering for the sight i feel to tired to write the feelings i wanted to share in the first place. Im just so tired all the time and tired of being tired. I really want to start taking my meds but the streets are so busy on the way to the pharmacy. I get anxious just thinking about the trip. Why do i feel so much hate from people and why cant i go anywhere and know im safe and my belongings will be unmolested when i return. Instead i hide knowing i will […]

11/5/2015 2 comments

It’s Been a Few Months

by majesticwalrus 11/5/2015

written by majesticwalrus

It’s been a while since I’ve been on. I didn’t blow my brain out as soon as I was planning. Which turns out to be one of the worst mistakes of my life. I met a girl, and as hard as I tried to not let my guard down, she got past it and actually tricked me into trusting her. Then, after a few dates and saying that she wanted us to be a couple, she basically said, “Nevermind,” on the day of what would have been our fourth date. I fucking hate life, there’s no fucking justification for all of this bullshit.

11/5/2015 4 comments

There’s no fucking way

by Rotted_Flesh 11/4/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

That I am going to kill myself in the home I grew up in. No way. Not now. Not ever. I can’t be such a shame to my family especially my dear mother who I love so much. I know things have been rough on us all since Dad passed and I would never want to add anymore to grieving. I’ll be that good son you always wanted me to be, and I promise I won’t be a corpse that you’ll have to come and identify. There is not going to be any trace left of me. I don’t want a funeral, I just need […]

11/4/2015 1 comment

I Accidentally Lived

by winterskyout 11/3/2015

written by winterskyout

I’m living, but I’m not alive. Human biology prevents me from holding my breath for too long and survival instincts prohibit the drugs from shutting down my body. The overdose quantity of acetaminophen, Dramamine, and caffeine do not stand a chance against thousands of years of perseverance; and all of that history and perseverance is embedded in DNA, thriving in me and laying dormant. I’m killing it, because I can’t be a part of that humanity. I never belonged with them. I never belonged anywhere. I’m living, but I’m not enjoying life.

I’ve only accidentally made it to the next day. If fate and life were […]

11/3/2015 1 comment

No place to return

by Snow Fox 10/30/2015

written by Snow Fox

I don’t expect anyone to actually read this longish post, but I just really wanted to speak to my mind to someone, somewhere…

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I will know when it’s “time”, and I realized that I have to force myself to walk forward, that there will be no special sign for me. I don’t know if any of you have ever watched fullmetal alchemist, but I’ve been considering the scene where Ed chooses to burn down his him, his memories, the only place he had to return to so that he could not back out of the decision he made.

Although […]

10/30/2015 4 comments

PART 2

by jano.11 10/30/2015

written by jano.11

and he was online … she was too .. he said “hey” and ever since they are talking on Facebook .. she was having a foot injury out of something stupid that caused a metal piece .. get sticked into her foot .. she told him that , he said ” I feel really bad when a beautiful girls like you get hurt” ..
they kept talking for a days .. and then she said .. I’m going out tomorrow to the collage .. if you wants to go with me give me your phone number .. and he does .. and they kept talking […]

10/30/2015 0 comment

sorry for posting again…

by jano.11 10/29/2015

written by jano.11

i just was thinking … why this site is named ‘suicideproject’ … maybe its a stupid question … but i just wanted to know …

10/29/2015 3 comments

Attention Seekers

by Kakubetsuna 10/28/2015

written by Kakubetsuna

Are we?

Few people that fairly close to me are calling me that. They didn’t say it directly to my face. I stumble upon their post on social media because apparently word just got out that I leave everyone because I have depression. And of course, just like any other community or society in these world, most of them thought that depression isn’t real. “It’s all in your head”. “Try and be happy”. “You need to have a reason to move forward”. You know the deal. All these motivational quotes they get on Pinterest/Tumblr.

It does, however, make me think. Do I (we?) really need the attention? Am I an attention seeker? Maybe […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

Developing more ideas for the video game concept EUTHANASIA QUEST

by wndozh8er 10/28/2015

written by wndozh8er

A game of this caliber would cost millions so the prospects of it actually being produced and being a great game will not happen unless there’s a good kickstarter campaign with professional developers. I want the graphics to be true to life and on a virtual reality headset in first person in order to intensify the realities of the game.

I got an idea too about adding a special breathing apparatus to the VR headset that will fit in your nose. Once you choose the peaceful pill, in real life, a small amount of non-lethal ******** (just enough to briefly knock you unconscious) will be delivered […]

10/28/2015 17 comments

My story

by Illya 10/28/2015

written by Illya

Wow, where do I even begin? I guess I’ll start by introducing myself. My name is Illya. I’m a 28 year old guy from Belgium. Why am I on this forum? I just wanted to share my story. No one in my life knows what I’m about to write. Not even my mother knows everything. She knows several things, but not all of it. I have no idea why I’m writing this down. I know it’s completely insignificant, but I guess I just need it.

I’ll start with my youth. I never knew my father. I only heard stories about him. He was a bad man […]

10/28/2015 8 comments

circular futility

by circularfutility 10/27/2015

written by circularfutility

from the perspective of the proverbial ‘watcher’ my life is pretty perfect, i suppose. I live in a beautiful house with a beautiful man who tells me i’m beautiful. we’re engaged and getting married. . the natural progression of this version of life, to settle down and squirt out children… for the last five years, no for ever, i have thought that i wanted that. to settle and breed… and everything would just make sense when my life was no longer my own. but i am literally in the process of realising that i DONT actually want this, i have but one life and im […]

10/27/2015 9 comments

There was a boy and a girl

by thelost 10/26/2015

written by thelost

There was a boy and a girl. The two of them in a world that does not forgive mistakes. The boy had just come to this place, a place unlike any other. He knew not what to do, what was expected of him, he was ignorant.

The girl had been here for far too long, longer than the boy could ever imagine. She had learned long ago this place was strange and could not be compared to others.

The boy came here with scars covering him, too many to count and too many to see. He knew pain, oh he knew it well. It was […]

10/26/2015 4 comments

Im sorry….

by Lailaniibabe 10/23/2015

written by Lailaniibabe

I always wanted to die …. I was told if I tired I would regret it and never do it again

Well I tried. I was hospitalized for 4 days and I’m back home. I still want to do it. I failed I didn’t succeed when I should have. The longer I go on living …. the more I hurt. I don’t want to do this anymore I don’t know what the point is. I have yet to have a purpose for staying yet I’m still here. Altough that may be a ‘sign’ I still don’t want to be here. Life is shit…. it doesn’t matter […]

10/23/2015 11 comments

well….fuck this!

by alexia 10/20/2015

written by alexia

so….depression….isn t that the worst *****? i feel that i can t and won t do it….it stole everything from me…even myself. i ve been happy, i know the feeling, i miss it like the human misses oxygen. i can t have it back….i had a break down and lost everything.nothing can change the past and we cannot rewrite history. i choose not to live in pain. i tried for a while…some meds, some therapy….nothing worked…i just want and wanted out. this fear of fucking death, the unknown, still keeps me here…i know it won t be for long…i can t bear too much. honestly…life […]

10/20/2015 11 comments

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by PandaMonkey0207 10/19/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

All I ever wanted was to die. Those sleepless night I cried. As I watched my blood run down my wrist. He was the only one who made me happy. I pushed him away because of the pain. Now I’m watching form afar. Another girl in his arms. He smiles as he looks at her and I’m wishing it was me. My heart shattered. I’m all alone. I cut to stop the pain. I do it because I don’t want to feel. He always had my heart. I tried to love another but all I could do was think of him. My lover. The man […]

10/19/2015 1 comment

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