I stood outside the window as the wind and cold played its part in making me numb enough to watch him cheat. I had just gotten home after I had been in the hospital for 2 weeks, and had gone to visit him to see what project had kept him busy enough to only allow him the time to see his ill girlfriend once during her time in the hospital.
I heard her moaning as I approached the door, and naturally I had to see with my own eyes, so I peered into the window with the slit in the curtains.
It was her, a […]
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Well, for starters i need to tell you i’m mexican. So my english may not be always great. When i was a kid i was a very spoiled girl, mostly i remember… (Or all of it) by my dad. He used to be my heroe. Literaly. This memories are just like a bomb in my head they come one after another in so much disorder that i cannot express them well. My parents used to fight always. There was screaming, throwing things, door slams, car persecutions, cheaters investigation, sarcasm about my dad in every adult convertation… My mom started to unload all of her trouble […]
You are pathetic.. Using me? Who the hell do you think you are? I thought it was odd how you just wanted sex, even thoe we are not dating! Then I go onto facebook & see you gave your ex a hickey after we hooked up? Then telling me about ‘Brooklyn’ sounds like a whore too me. I think you should just be alone till you can figure your shit out dude! ***** your laying in bed with her yesterday when you had sex with me Thursday!? Todays fucking Sunday! What the hell.. I’m done.. I can’t do this shit anymore!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED […]
so the moment cam breaks up with me and changes his status i start getting emails and texts from guys that i just said ‘NO’ too, my excuse being that i had a boyfriend, they brought it and didnt bother me much… but now the school rugby team keeps calling up asking how much i charge? i get texts from guys ive only heard rumours about asking if id Do them, i dont even know how they got my number. They’ve all called me a slut for a year or so now…. they believed my lie that id consented and not been forced into it… […]
I’m Peyton, but I prefer being called Oscar. People make fun of me and push me around, and they don’t understand how much it hurts me. I’ve cut my self and had no refugee from that, I’ve attempted suicide, and stayed out from school. My home life isn’t the best either… my mom hits me and my dad is never home. I just wish I could dissapear, or never would have been born, because everyone hates me and calls me a skanky whore because im quiet.
I don’t have a tragic life story. I don’t have an awful past. If anything I’ve been spoilt and I’m lucky.
But that still doesn’t stop me from feeling so worthless, useless, pathetic. I’ve got everything I could ever want, and it’s still not enough. I still cry myself to sleep, I still self-harm on occasion. I still look in the mirror every morning and feel physically sick at what I see. I still think about how it would be to just end it all. To just leave everything behind.
For six years I was bullied, day in day out. I was called fat, ugly, pathetic, worthless, […]
I really wanted to leave. But I didnt. I just lay here in my bed crying, curled up in a ball. Which is how I spend most of my days, actually.
I texted my only friend. I dont know why. The conclusion of that conversation was that she didn’t want to be friends with me anymore. There were various reasons: I’m selfish. I live in my own world. I have a lack of respect. I treat people like shit.
Thoe all sound like very legit reasons. I just spend the last hour making sure I absolutely have no contact with the outside world whatsoever except for this […]
In all my life, I’ve been strong, my father died, my mom left me, I had eating disorders. And I got over everything, but now I just can’t anymore! My grandma doen’t talks to me because Iof his brother, he almos raped me! And she doen’t even know, and if I told her, she wouldn’t believe me cause she loves him more than she loves me she trusts him, he told her I was rude, liar, and that I was on drugs, and she believed, now looks like I’ve been kicked from my own famil. So, I had to move (I left my soulmate in […]
Hi, i’m 15, I’m a girl, and I’ve been through hell. I’m a sophomore, and I know what its like to lose everyone you’ve ever had. My mom had me at 16, and starting at three years old, my mom was dating around a lot, got hip on drugs and alcohol. Both of my parents were VERY bad alcoholics. My mom was dating this guy that beat her, and made me watch, then my sister was born, I was three, taking care of a baby my mom couldn’t take care of.. We got evicted and lived in a car for a week when i was […]
I want someone to tell me they love me.
Either that, or I want them to beat me up until I cant walk anymore. Calling me a worthless whore while doing so.
I think I prefer option number 2.
This past summer my three sisters have repeatedly tricked me into seeing/being near my mother. Not wanting to make a scene I was as cordial as humanly possible. I decided to wait until summer was over to explain to my mother how I really felt.
Before this summer I had gone ten years without seeing her – for good reason.
She abused me. Not just a slap on the face, but literally beat me bloody. She would lock me outside for days with no food, give my siblings and I scoring hot baths, beat us until our skin was raw and tender to the touch, call us […]
Emotional vent.. Sorry I just went on and on, and its pretty much scattered.
I’ve lived a fucked up life since I was young, my parent’s always fought and never got along. I once touched them both at the same time when I was 17.. When I was just 8 my dad met my step mom, the worst thing to ever happen to me. For the next 4 years I was abused excessively.. I was so young I didn’t know what to do, I was too afraid to admit what was happening. It sucked so badly for everyone around you, who cared, to know what was […]
I feel so unwanted on this earth. I just want to curl up and die most of the time. IÂ get so angry for no reason and everyone excepts me to do so well in my final exams. I am under so much pressure. People always talk about me or tell me I am not good enough. There is always some sort of rumour about me like ‘She has Bulimia’ ‘She is a slut’ ‘She is a fat whore’ Why target me? I just want to die. Most of you are probably like ‘She has nothing wrong in her life. People are well worse off […]
My mom and I have a horrible relationship. We are always fighting! No lie. Its not like I want to. But I really can help it. Before February she physical abuse.  But I had had enough of the abuse and called the police. She would pull my hair and throw things at me. She punched me and kicked me. One time he threw a phone at me and sprang my arm. After the police she didn’t do that to me as much. Now its more so Verbally. I only have 4 years left at my house. But with all the names she calls me I’m not sure how I’ll do […]
I’m only 14, and I’m brand new to the local public high school. I just came from a Catiolic school. Its the 4th week and I have already herd people calling me a whore, I have no clue why. But it kills me. I’ve never had sex, I dont flirt with guys, and I’ve only kissed one guy. I got called a cum dumpster in front of the whole class. They all laughed. My brother has gone to that school for 3 years and tells me how I’m a whore. So I can’t even get away from the names at home. I’m also abused my […]
I have been in a rocky, controlling relationship with a man I have been head over heels in love with for about a year now. He was never very nice, always controlling, very jealous, and extremely verbally abusive… A tall, sexy, tattooed from head to toe punk rocker, I fell in love immediately. we both have had hard lives, and he was from New York in Oregon (where I’m from) because he knocked a girl up in New York who was from Oregon, and he moved to Oregon to be the father. They didn’t work out. Anyway, we started a relationship, had a lot of […]
is what I’m trying to escape
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call me a lazy fuck, but I’d rather be dead than whore myself out to survive in a world I don’t even like
I’m sick of being told it’s normal or honorable to be stolen too much of your time
sick of being molded into living as a robot .. sick of this lifestyle where the cons outweigh the pros
I lost myself in his eyes, I even told him I would marry him and have his baby. It wasnt good enough for him. He found love somewhere else, yet im the *****, im the WHORE, crying alone in the corner. Ive been a shattered jar for years and its never enough to have me apparently, I agree with his malice. Ive taken 27 pills and im really hoping that it works this time, I want to make him happy by saying goodbye. Im no longer a barbie doll, im no longer the apple of his eye. I love you Dean, see you again someday […]
I probably don’t seem like I’m going through a lot but to me, I am. Ever since I was a kid i was really emotional, I may have acted sooo tough. But in reality the most littlest things hurt me. I’m a girl btw, and I was one fat ugly girl when i was young. I was always hated ever since I was 6. Everybody in every school I went to always hated me. For some reason and i swear to God i was soo nice and I didn’t talk much,  I still remember I use to have this little doll my cousin made me, and I […]
My brother died when i was 9. Withing a course of 4 years, 10 more family members died.
I was diagnosed with manic depression and anorexia at the age of 12.
I use to be a major self harmer.
I am proud to say it has been over one month. <3
At the age of 13, i fell in love, and lost my virginity to a boy who i thought would never leave.. 4 days later he left. I wanted to die.
He called me a slut, easy, whore, ****, insecure, ugly, disgusting, fat.
I have forever thought of myself as these things, since he has said them because at one […]