Just watched the Silva vs Bisping fight. Anderson Silva CLEARLY won the 3rd, 4th and 5th rounds. But they gave it to Bisping. WTF.
At the end of the fight, Bisping’s face was a piece of tenderized meat- all bloodied and messed up. Silva’s face- just a tiny nick under the right eye. But Bisping won. Yeah, no.
Today has gone kinda of smooth felt shit waking up and most of the morning then afternoon seemed to level out now at home and can’t stop fucking eating maybe it’s the anti depressants ? Or am I comfort eating ? Or trying to fill that void inside there is always that void inside I don’t no what it is but I no I always need it filled with food drink sex etc why is that void there what is that void I really don’t know but I really hate my weight I’m not over weight I just think I’m fat but I’m […]
Do some things just make your blood boil? This is unrelated to depression / suicide, though this is one of the many reasons why I’m pissed at how terribly run and inefficient the USPS and 99% of all companies are.
So I ordered something from Amazon. The sent it via USPS. USPS claims that they attempted delivery at 1:03pm on Monday, Jan 18. On MLK Day. Yeah, on MLK Day. What bullshit is that? USPS was CLOSED that day. They weren’t making any goddamn deliveries. Tracking says that “delivery was refused.” I assumed they’d just redeliver […]
Why the hell is it so much harder to cope on some days. Feel like screaming at the top of my lungs then breaking down in tears WTF
Ok – so
I started at a new therapist yesterday
She talked to me for an hour and a half. We literally scratched the surface – I told her when I started to feel anxiety in my life and told her a LITTLE about my 3 life destroying relationships
She says to me – “You have suffered a very high degree of trauma in your life”… ALREADY – she knows this from the tiny tip of the gigantic, ship fucking sinking iceberg that is my life… I haven’t even told her about all through school and the suicide attempt(S) and she says “I have August off”… […]
Havent slept in days havent showered in days. Feeling completely inhuman. No water on the property for over a week, and once again I’m withdrawing so I cant sleep. On top of it all I’m hungry as fuck with no money cause I spent it all on drugs and got jacked 100 bux. I ate a fucking dog biscuit yesterday, and it didnt even taste bad. Wtf? Just need to make it three more days till payday. Damn. I know I can do it, but……..damn.
So why continue the relationship? From one day to the next. Thank you for beautiful relationship, goodbye. WTF? How am I supposed to react to that? How am I supposed to breath after that? I’ve tried calling lots of therapist today in hopes of seeing someone, all of them say leave a message and they will get back to me. Thanks for nothing. I feel like I’m never going to be okay. I’m never going to get back to me. Whatever small shell of that I had in the first place. I thought I had finally gotten it right and then bam the wind is […]
Ok. So umm, I have this 2 years with depression and I just realize the fact that I saved my friend’s life and they didn’t care when I tried to kill myself. So I think this is all fucked up. All this system I mean wtf people! Why are they so hypocrites? Oh my god. I’m not saying that’s why I tried to kill myself because I do have my reasons, but they knew and they didn’t care, and I just realize that. and it makes me sad, because they knew how lonely I felt and I feel, and they know about everything and […]
so i’m going to introduce my self first, well i guess you can see that my name is Misa.
I love anime stuff, and i’m kinda weird and rebellious.
Some people think that i’m goody goody but that’s always at first, and when i ask them why do they think that i’m goody goody they said that is because of my looks, because i look like i won’t do bad things that’s always the impression, and decide to them selves that i’m like that, […]
….oh yeah..
I’m suddenly feeling a manic episode coming on. I’m at a crossroads with this feeling.. I don’t know whether to try and use it to feel better or keep low with the help of my sad music and bad habits. I just don’t want to crash again..it’s getting so old I just want to keep myself down and depressed as long as possible. But time goes by and I get nothing done in my life. I cant eat to the point of self harm. The problem with these manic feelings is that they always drop suddenly without warning, that or I become delusional […]
Why am I always asked this? It always ends with trouble.
What they always mean to ask is, When are you moving out? or, When are you going to get a job? or, When are you going to stop being a moocher?
WTF am I supposed to say??? I don’t have any plans for my life, only for my death next year…
I fear he plans to give me an ultimatum. Get a job or move out. Start going to bed at 830pm & rise at 5am like the rest of the house, or get out, or pay more money.
He doesnt believe in depression, only that a woman’s […]
I’m old, sick, and alone and I’m going to do it very soon because I found out that I happen to have the right combination of pills to take with alcohol. I’ve had a hard life but all you kids who are thinking of doing it need to realize that you will go through life and have hard times and good times. Things do get better until you are old, sick, and alone. That’s when you have the moral right to do away with yourself! I’ve been homeless in my 50s and still didn’t do it then. My ex husband tried to get me to […]
Hi.. I’m a 24 year old female living in Canada & I’m starting to get scared that I will do something drastic and irreversible. I have gone through periods of depression on and off since I can remember. At first it wasn’t bad.. just low periods that last a few hours. Now it lasts weeks and the good periods in between (in which I am uncharacteristically social and productive) are getting shorter.
A bit of background on me is that I grew up in a very diverse, mixed-up family. I have 5 siblings and all are half-siblings. I am the oldest. I’ve had to choose between […]
I cannot understand a world that makes children feel like they need to end their own lives to stop the pain. I cannot understand how parents fail to take the time to give a shit about what their kids are going through, or worse, torment them, abuse them, and belittle them! I cannot understand people who put down others in an attempt to make themselves feel better. I cannot understand a fucking thing!
T if you are still here please check your email and call me. Please let me know you are safe.
Writing helps calm me down.
I don’t know why, but it does.
I’m writing right now, because I’m under severe stress.
They’re still fighting as I’m writing this lol
Well guys, let me tell you my story :v
I mean if you bother even to read it haha
Well, my Dad’s a gambler. he lost all the money in the household and now we’re broke. Like BA-ROKE.
My mom’s suicidal. She always tells me how she just wants to stop living and attempted suicide multiples of times infront of me, and my siblings.
Well, me, I’m just a kid going through highschool
I have a little brother […]
Wouldn’t it be nice if the world ends??
I’ve pretty much given up on suicide for the moment. I can’t put my family through it. I just dread the day when I’m too much for them to look after, because I can’t support myself.
The end of the world would be nice. At least it’s something I could get involved with. Oh well, wishful thinking.
I’m one of those people who can’t face the world. I can’t face people. I can just about talk to people online, unless they start to get to know me, which is when I usually back away because I can’t commit myself to […]
and heres my reson to day at school the last lesion was dramer after the school day had finisht me and my g.c.s.e. grop stade behind to perfet are pees but on the fienel seen i frees in the midel of a line its like iv lost the power of spech for 10 mind numing secionds i stand ther trying to speek then i start agen like iv held my breth and im exhaeling rely fast then all the guys who are wondring wtf is going on start having a go at me i try to defend my self but im speeking jibrish that made them […]
Why people let people die?:o WHY? They see someone cuttin himself. ”Its for attention” The this guy dies. ”Omg omg omg I loved him please God bring him back”. . Are you kiddin me?-.- People are so afraid to face people who self harms and they dont give a damn cause they want to protect themselves!
Someone said to me ”GO DIE suicide retarded”… Does he really want this?o.o
I went to open mic like I always do. waited, waited waited. and finally i went up to read my poetry. and hey guess what, I collapsed on the floor. Turns out (these are the doctor’s words) “You need to eat food, without food you’ll die. here have a carrot.” like dude wtf i’m not eating a carrot, I don’t like carrots. bye. sigh being in the hospital is quite fun. I’m just glad I have my phone so I can get on this site. otherwise I would try jumping out the convieniently placed window by the bed. And of course the nurse got all […]
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