Ok – so
I started at a new therapist yesterday
She talked to me for an hour and a half. We literally scratched the surface – I told her when I started to feel anxiety in my life and told her a LITTLE about my 3 life destroying relationships
She says to me – “You have suffered a very high degree of trauma in your life”… ALREADY – she knows this from the tiny tip of the gigantic, ship fucking sinking iceberg that is my life… I haven’t even told her about all through school and the suicide attempt(S) and she says “I have August off”… really? You have a vacation – you open a fucking proverbial can of worms that’s slimy and writhing and I am fucking supposed to deal with that shit smell you cracked open and left me here to chew on until FUCKING SEPTEMBER WHEN YOU GET BACK?
Yeah- yeah take a vacation – I get it… but NO BACKUP?
What the FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS FIRE RAINING DOWN ON ME AND NOT A FUCKING BUCKET TO COLLECT PISS IN TO PUT OUT THE FUCKING FIRESTORM or even keep it at bay?? WTF is that?
And Why the FUCK do 2’s keep showing up everywhere? 2:22. $2.22 2222 22222… WHAT IS UP WITH THIS SHIT?
I AM SO FUCKING DONE
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Oh I forgot to say that I cut already once today and I’m do NOT FEEL DONE
The 2’s is something spiritual from the spirit world 🙂 don’t be concerned everything comes into alignment for u. I use to get obsessed with numbers
My old nickname had 222 in it as well great to see you venting though
Yep. Let it all out. Your feelings and thoughts are all valid and it’s OK to feel the way you do. Sending a big hug and hoping today might be a tiny bit better for you. x