today i had my oral report it went pretty good. no one asked questions or anything. but my face didn’t get all red like usual.  it was easy (ish)  haha. well yesterday i got my friend to draw a butterfly on my leg (where i cut) hopefully you all know what the butterfly project is. [...]

ight as well start with a smiling face because im pretty sure i wont end the journal with it once ive finished writing all this , well as the title says where to begin , i guess i should start with positive , i managed to draw Ezio Auditore de firenze  even though i think [...]

If every day is a new day, then why do they all feel exactly the same.  I used to hope that one day I could have friends, that I would actually mean something to the world.  How stupid and wrong I was, how could I be so blind and foolish.  I would lay in bed [...]

My psychologist says that use of escape mechanisms and mental painkillers makes me dependent on them and sensitive to pain, just the like people who use aspirins and conventional analgesics to deal with everyday pains become even more sensitive to the everyday pains of life. His recommendation is that “you just have to feel it [...]

My husband and I moved to this new country for his work, and I’ve never been lonelier.  I’m not legally allowed to work and so I try to fill my days with menial tasks and errands, and I might see 1,000 people in the course of the day, but really interact with none.  My husband [...]

So i have been having horriable thoughts lately and i am not sure i want them be real ..people treat me like crap and i can’t pretend its ok all the time. it bothers me all the time. i can’t stay here. my ex is engaged ..  i loved him more than anyone .. and [...]

I’m the type of person who is happy go lucky… So to speak. I’ve been blessed with the gift of making others laugh… It feels good, mostly. The problem with having that trait is people always expect you to make them laugh… You can never be serious, the biggest problem I’m facing as of late… [...]

back again, like I could ever leave this place. My sober side want’s to quit but my high side wants to try. I’ve been tired of drugs, but they keep me around. I really am well adjusted, just so fricken lazy. I feel like something else; I don’t want to be human. This life seems [...]

Hi, anybody who reads this It’s time to end this. I perhaps just want to share with someone out there something of the story of my life so that I know that I’ve perhaps got it out to someone. Born in 1981 to a couple who perhaps should never have been – one good-looking, intelligent [...]

Hey everyone.  If you have read my post i then you will know alot about me if not then here it is i cut and burn, and suicide thoughts cross my mind alot. But today i want to  hear your guys stories. I am doing a video for my school to share about how suicide [...]