1. So recently a girl who I saw at school for five months was killed… We hadn’t spoken in eight months…. I don’t know what to do. She was so bright and when ever I was around her I felt like it was okay to be myself because she was so accepting of me. Unlike other people in my past. But now she’s gone and I don’t know what to do. She was so beautiful and so amazing. I miss her so much and all I can say is heaven gained a beautiful angel that will be missed dearly.
2. I FREAKING RELAPSED! I hate myself so much for it! I was self harm clean for five months and I just ruined it!
3. I have no friends at all. I’m not kidding. I’m doing homeschool this year and everyone I met last school year completely forgot about me. What do I do about that?
4. I think I’m going mad. I mean I’m so alone, I have nobody to talk to, I feel like crying but there are no tears, and to top it off I feel so terrible. Haha reading over this I can see why I don’t have friends. Seriously, who would want to be friends with some ugly, depressed girl? I don’t even care anymore? I’m just existing. Not living. I feel so lost and so confused and I feel like I’ll never accomplish anything in life.
5. It’s 1:00 a.m. On a Tuesday night/ Wednesday morning and I’m still awake left with my thoughts. All I want to do is sleep but I can’t. And if I do I’ll end up having nightmares. I don’t know what else to say here. I guess I’m just crazy.
Goodnight cruel world,
Love always, Larken. (Dumb name, I know)
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Im sorry you’re feeling so bad. I know how it feels to stay up late because your thoughts are racing, and then youre tired all day because you didnt get any sleep.
If you have problems finding friends, I would try meeting girls who are similar to you. There are groups where people like us meet. They will understand how you feel. My therapist even told me that the last time she did such a group two of them entered a relationship which they still have today.
People like us barely find “real friends” in school, thats just the way it is.