No More

I have tried endlessly,
failing constantly.
I am a disappointment to my family,
a terrible failure.
No matter how hard I try,
it’s never enough.
I punish myself constantly pushing further,
and still not approved.
I have endured a great deal of suffering,
to please my family,
and still not enough.
Having been burned, bruised, and strictly damaged,
all in the name of making them happy.
But, it is never enough for those fiends.
They take whatever they can out of me,
drain me till I am weakened and broken.
Just to destroy me more,
They have no heart towards me.
Caring not of what happens to my being.
I cry in the night,
in hopes of eternal peace.
Sadly, no tranquility transcends,
and I suffer ever greatly more.
The pain has begun to flow in my veins,
I cannot take it much more.
Countless times I try to be perfect,
not good enough, I am always told.
Pushing myself to my limits and beyond,
harming my mind, body and spirit.
And the quality of my efforts are to no avail.
As if being spat in the face for trying so hard,
the memories of defeat are burned deep.
Never fading away the pain grows more,
like an cup flowing with water.
Endless, the water grows,
my efforts of approval shall never be enough.
For this is why,
I say to you all,
my final Goodbye.