Every once in a while, my mom notices I’m lazy and won’t even call my dad to pick me up. She says I am selfish that I dont do anything for anyone but myself. I believe I am. Im not sure who i am anymore. I feel uneasy and unsure about everything now. I don’t know why though. I think I’m bipolar, but a few months ago i thought i had insomnia cuz i didn’t sleep some of the time.
Now Im unsure again, my mood is a bit erratic or unsteady. But it might be that i play video games and become easily irritated and like that. Im mot sure about anything anymore though and my moms lame conspiracy theories are getting to me making me believe that the chem trails and maybe symptoms of not taking the vaccines are starting to show. Comment or something. I dont know what i want. Death still seems the right of way
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Perfect way to keep people from commenting is commenting on your own shit, unless you post your comment after them. “Sad moment for me” (thinking about the quote “theres never a bad day but a bad moment”)
Nice technique, commenting on your own thread!
The insomnia is probably due to anxiety. The video games don’t help, but if you enjoy it I say keep going. Rogue… are you getting out much?
It’s funny you say that. I’ve always wondered what motivates somebody to comment on their own post, after nobody else has commented. This type of thing makes me go “Hmmm”.
I tried going out well with my family but it didnt help much i just kept my head down and ate. And my mom got angry cuz i didnt understand what half and hlaf meant at panda express. Yeah when i comment on my own post i. Oticed it normally takes anyone off from commenting but i normally do it to add insignifigant or even significant details in.
Half & Half? Isn’t that some kind of milk by-product people put in coffee?
Its half orange chickent and half fried rice or something like that. And yeah idk anyways my sister didnt eat all her orange chicken anyways. Also i think im a spoiled brat now which is ironic cuz i hate kids like that. (as a 16 year old boy)
Ah Ok; I was sure it was a dairy product. Not that we find too many dead cows in Chinese Fast Food, usually. Well, we all learned something here tonight. That’s the important thing.
Do you have friends? do you socialise at school? I just ask because.. the feelings you’re describing sound like me, when I spend too much time alone. It gets a bit unhealthy and I have to force myself to be around people more. If you think you’re a spoilt brat, well you can’t be that bad…
Thanks for not making me feel like an idiot but anyways. I think I might attempt a suicide during this year. I have been tired every day no matter what time i go to bed. I also cant commit to my goals no matter what. I make ill excuses to keep myself from feeling good enough to ask someone out as I (even though relationships arent everything and its best if i wait till after high school) am getting eaten alive by a desire to get a cute girlfriend…
Socialize at school? Eh just a bit…
Have friends? Yeah but since i got caught doing marijuana i cant hang out with them nor can i even see my cousins (including jasmine)
Well I seem to only be lazy enough not to do peoples commands and seem to only consume so im either a burden or a spoiled brat.
The only thing i want to do anymore is use Marijuana and thats really it.
You live in the 805 area code, right? That’s Ventura/Oxnard. You’re near the beach. Learn how to surf. Surfing is a great way to get your angst/aggression out. At least one of your pothead buddies surfs. Make friends with that guy. Get good, paddle out everyday, get out there and shred. It’s better than being on this site. 🙂
It would but i cant commit and i think they all either airsoft play video games or paintball and i think my dad wont let me cus i did drugs with them. Im not sure i havent asked to come over recently.
You should ask your friends to come over. And ask them to bring over a cute girl. even if it’s just one friend… too much time alone is crazy making.