Today was actually ok, my dad didnt yell that much my mom was nice and everything went pretty smoothly…only probelm is tommorows monday amd get to see all the bitchy cheerlearders and other annoying assholes…i wish my friends understood, whemever i start to tell them they get this wierd arkward lookso i always end up making it into a joke and pretend it was nothing. Im tired if trying to conform into to someome im not..i dont even know who i anymore. From basicaly kindergarden i was the “wierd kid” the one who was always too mature, my mom used to call me an old soul (basically someone wise over her yrs) but in 8th grade i suddenly had a bunch of friends. Real friends that got me and helped me through it. We were all the outcasts, the oddballs, outsiders but it didnt matter cuz we had each other…then i moved. Or i should say moved back to my hometown(in7th-8th grade we lived in the valley but i then we moved back to the outskirts of la, same house and everything in the middle of my 8th grade yr) where i knew lots ofpeople and to them i wasstill the weird kid. By my soph yr i had enough ad gave in, got on the dance team( it was sort of a step down from cheer but still went to football games and all that jazz) dressed differnt tried to dumb yself down. Worse yr of my life, the dancers were bitchy and made me more self consious poeple treated me even worse cuz know i wasthe wierd dancer,so i quit fter that yr. But now i really dont know who i am. I wear jeans, converse and tshirts, iread allot, would love to learn to sirf or skateboard, which all sound more or less average but apparntly im a freak…sorry about all the spelling mistakes my touchscreen sucks
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Everyone in school talks bad about everyone. People r sh!tty and may grow up eventually or may not. You won’t have to deal with them forever though. That sounds nice take advantage of where u live! I always wanted to live where u do. Take ur mind off things with surfing and skateboarding. Try new things out of school. It’s not about trying to fit in it’s about meeting good nice people. I went through what you went through. I just stayed quiet n didn’t let it get to me. I hung out with other people from different schools too. 🙂 I say try to stay away from school n negative stuff as much as u can. And deal with jus being there mandatory…. and meet other people and do fun new stuff like u suggested. My parents also divorced when I was in junior high. So even when I wasn’t in school with dumb people I had to deal with my crazy half sister and her drama n fighting n getting violent abuse but i fought back. Not to mention metal abuse. Only u can stick up for urself truely. I have also heard too much ur nothing u should jus kill urself from supposed family. Don’t let ne1 get to u or break u down. That’s what they want. Jus ignore or stick up for urself and they always end up lookin like the asses neways. I bet even bullies weak friends who talk bad in their head feel they r wrong but people always jus wanna make themselves feel better.
Hey so what did you do about the track thinq?how did you cover your scars?