How do I continue in my meaninglessÂ existenceÂ when I feel as if I’m on my own? I’m sure all of you who read this knows exactly how I feel, though I doubt anyone will read this so I’m just wasting my time as usual. Sigh. I am going to start using this as a vent, because I have no one to talk to that actually knows my pain, and those that pretend to or pretend to care are just inane and useless to me now. I am utterly alone, I go through the day with a fake smile plastered on my ugly face and a degrading cheery tone. I sicken myself now just like I sicken everyone else. Even my own family shunned me when they found how scarred I am both on the outside and inside. But the thing is, I don’t want to care, but I can’t help it. I can’t even sleep at night anymore because theÂ lonelinessÂ is far too loud now. I don’t want to feel, it’s just too much, someone tear out my heart and burn it! Sigh. But I digress, I will not be worth the time of anyone who bothered so just send me on into my nothingness and let me be, maybe I’ll finally be happy with myself.