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Wouldn’t it be nice if there were a “Life – Switch Off” button…

by nanashi gm

I always have great imagination, i can simulate what’s going to happen in the near future

but what i see is always a dull boring life, of course i also tried challenging and less predictable activities like mountain climbing and ruins exploring, but in the end nothing happened and i went back to my boring life

I always wished i would just kick the bucket during one of my journeys, but to no avail. I have always survived and while it was a refreshing experience, the excitement won’t last even for a day, daily life is just too boring god……..

as much as i wished for a “switch off” button, it would be okay if i only just have a “skip”/”fast forward” button

I’ve experienced them all, school, work, love, friendship, etc. I noticed that many members of this site are young boys and girls usually with a problem of interpersonal relationship, then i need to tell you all, past that, hell is waiting, hell that is called boredom

I hardly have any reason to live anymore, i mean what is considered reason for living?

money? – I’ve saved enough, i wouldn’t need them where i’m going though, never like money so much

love? – it’s nice when it lasts, left her when i was feeling suicidal

friends? – quite many, almost everyday hanging out with them, but they are content with their lives now, they still think i’m weird for worrying about weird stuffs but they don’t leave me

family? – a loving family who believe in me, might as well opt out now before i degrade even more

movie? – keep living because you want to watch a movie that will be released next year? i realized that they will not stop producing movies, not worth as a reason for living

in a sense, it’s a blessed life, but I still feeling suicidal, it’s like i’m a broken human, nothing excites me anymore, no one can read my expression anymore, they said it’s a perfect poker face

I think only a war scale event can make me feel alive now, if it’s not going to happen, might as well kill myself now, before my mind is breaking

 

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anotherdreamer 6/6/2012 - 10:42 pm

we could trade places maybe? 🙂 my story entrails the same hellish boredom,
but without the options of having a life exploring, having friends, love and family around, trapped in absolute underground. your allrite although you might not experience it at the minute.

have you tried ecstasy lots positive music and dance? holyship cruise works wonders.
Stop for a second enjoy the moment, the birds, read an inspirational book,
help less fortunate, support create a charity, cook your mum dinner,
do some sex tourism, buy a sports car, motorbike, rollerblade in nyc summer with a fruit smoothie and shades, take pictures, share your thoughts, make memories.
i could go on and on why i love life. I miss feeling alive and being able to do these things.
dream let your fantasy run wild. swim in a lake naked during a hot summer with a girl.
do yoga, meet lots of different people, socialis, add some variety, mix it up. make fruit smoothies 😛

the pleasures of life are so beautiful i think.

did that help? 🙂

nanashi gm 6/6/2012 - 10:54 pm

@anotherdreamer

for a normal person that might be helpful. but all of those are just self-satisfaction, they hardly have any effect to someone who can control his emotion like me.

i can’t even get drunk or even get hypnotized for god sake. i’m always aware even if i’m asleep.

if i can release by acting bat shi* crazy, i would have done it since long time ago.

anotherdreamer 6/6/2012 - 10:58 pm

aware of boredom?
so you dont find pleasure, doesnt it take time away
just reading a captivating story in a book, and just living a day by day doing things you enjoy, or there just isnt anything that you enjoy?

truthbetold 6/6/2012 - 11:30 pm

bore fuckin dom

Ive been living in autopilot mode for the past 4+ years: doing things out of habit more and more often, rarely out of desire .. your ability to develop interest in sthg or feel passionate about sthg appear to be broken

I often wonder how people get a kick out of doing the same things, over and over again .. how come they don’t get quickly bored ? what happened to me ? did I get out of a ‘matrix’ or sthg ?

there’s this growing disinterest in life and I don’t know how to stop it .. but hey, too young to die according to popular belief

nanashi gm 6/6/2012 - 11:30 pm

i used to like many things
travels, movies, games, comics, novels

now nothing amuse me anymore
i’ve accumulated knowledge so much that i marvel at nothing anymore

seeing sun rise/sets, i know that is merely because earth rotation, heat is caused by particle movement, human emotions and relations are merely chemical reactions and electrical impulse, science took away all mysteries from life, took away my faith, and took away all my purpose for living

everything lost it’s meaning, everything became dull

truthbetold 6/6/2012 - 11:38 pm

how does music trigger emotions in people ?

nanashi gm 6/6/2012 - 11:45 pm

have read, watched, played everything i could. noticing that ideas are being recycled. acquired ability to find faults in pop culture or even society. nothing fascinates me anymore. just like truthtobetold, i was and am in autopilot mode. I WISH TO GOD TO SPARK MY LIFE. I KNOW GOD LIKES VIOLENCE AS MUCH GOD LIKES PEACE, SO PUT ME IN AN IMPENDING DOOM ALREADY.

fakingit 6/6/2012 - 11:46 pm

@truthbetold- i would say by the lyrics the melody whether its fast or slow paced the fast paced music make me feel stronger and taller and better then others slow paced makes me mourn and stress over life…i dont know if anyone else has that same feeling but thats how music triggers emotions in me:/

nanashi gm 6/7/2012 - 12:44 am

i’ve listened tens of thousands songs over a hundred times, they barely affect my emotions no more

maybe_soon_500_days_of_you 6/7/2012 - 3:23 pm

“science took away all mysteries from life, took away my faith, and took away all my purpose for living”

science is full of wonder, science is full of questions who can’t be answered now. Science trys to find mystery and trys to explain them, but science will never solve all mysterys. I don’t know who you are but I know I am at a university and can tell you that science can be interesting, really interesting, but of course its your choice to find it interesting or not……

ButI can understand that boredom, or at least I think I can understand it. My life is also really boring for me. Whatever, I am probably talking lot of ***** I am sorry if I couldn’t helped you.

nanashi gm 6/8/2012 - 5:54 am

nah

i love science too, my knowledge is growing everyday, and i like that

i think it just shocked me at a delicate moment in my life and caused discord within my thoughts

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