I’ve been sitting long and hard trying to think of the words that would be just right and not hurt or upset anyone. I hope you know who you are, we’ve always been so connected in life, 2 halves of one whole, and I don’t think now is any different. If you’re reading this and its not aimed at you I hope you also take some consideration that I’m sure there is someone in you’re life who feels exactly the same way about you as I do about her.
I know you feel that there is no way out, but I’m here to guide you through it, because I promise that is just not the case. There is absolutely nothing you could do in life that would stop, or hinder our love for you. I just wish you would let us back in, trust us, to tell us what you have told these strangers. I know why you feel you can talk to them, that they won’t judge you, but I’ve also seen a pattern, a couple of times when someone tells you something you don’t want to hear you do to them what you do to us – pretend like you didn’t hear, they didn’t respond, generally ignore them.
You were always such a stubborn person, and you say you aren’t who you were, that now you’re such a different person but I just don’t think thats the case. You’re stubbornness has definitely not changed, nor has you’re empathy for others. In so many of these posts you’ve written about us, how you’re destroying us and hurting us. You are only hurting us by hurting yourself. We don’t want to see ‘old you’ back. We want to see the girl who has gone through this, like we know she can, and yes you’ll be bumped and bruised from the process, but in the long run you will be stronger for it.
You haven’t had an easy life, there has been some hurdles that you got over, some cards that you shouldn’t have been dealt. Some things that just weren’t very fair. I like to think that from those bad circumstances you were gifted with a family of friends. A group of people that are so drawn to your amazing energy, a tight-knit, slightly incestuous, family. Through the good times and the bad. We are all here for you, you have an army of people who adore you standing behind you to support you, you just have to look back and see us. If you don’t have the strength draw on our strength and support.
I hope you read this, I hope you take the time to think about what I said. I hope something gets through, and I hope more than anything in the world that you don’t succeed in ‘you’re role in life’. I hope more than anything in the world, because you are my best friend, my other half and my sister. I couldn’t imagine you not being by my side, not being at my wedding or my kids favourite aunt. I couldn’t imagine my life without you and once upon a time you felt the same way. I know we can get you back on your feet, please take my hand let me help you up.
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Wish that was the case……….