im ready to. but I CANT. idk i must be this fucking stupid, i cant even kill myself, i fail..ive failed 15 times! though bout 11 were lousy attempts only to feel some pain in the end. im done, life is not fair. well damn that is right. school starts tuesday…im ok with that..i want my phone though…i either get it next week or in november for my birthday…(so my sister says) i partially believe her cuz dad said i get it back..i need my phone to fix my relationship…damn that sounds pathetic. ugh i feel ignored…alone. but im not. i have an amazing bf who makes some effort but hey i rather fight for love then to have nothing. i have the worlds bestest friend ever. i have a few friends now that actually live close by. so why do i feel so alone???? then WTF? why am i crying now???? IDK. WHY CANT THIS ALL BE OVER??? is anyone ok with me ending it now???
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no im not okay with you ending it now.
you have people around you like you said, but you still fee alone because they don’t understand the situation that you are really going through.
it is either that, or they do understand you, but you find it hard to believe that they understand you when they have not been through the same thing you did.
you are crying now because you want to feel better after crying.
it doesn’t matter if you are crying because you are sad or happy or just plain crying.
you can email me whenever you want to, thesilentbomb@hotmail.com
i’ll reply you.
Sounds like you need to learn who you are… Get to know yourself untill u reach selfrealization… at that point when you really know yourself in a way that you can be competely honest with yourself, you will be able to see why you feel like you are.
It sounds like you’re having a moment. Don’t end it all so hastily. I don’t know you but i’m not okay with you ending it now. You said you have the worlds bestest friend and a caring bf why do you feel alone? Do you not see them enough?
Depression can be a very overwhelming thing, from the sound of it you really don’t want to die. (forgive my ignorance) If love is something you want to fight for then fight until you can’t breath, fight until you can’t stand, and fight until you just can’t fight any more. If there is even a small chance you still wish to live, then fight. If you truly feel that all is lost and you have no reason to live any longer, then be free.