Lonely

I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to read this post.

My whole life, I have felt two things: loneliness and the hatred towards myself.

Why do I hate myself?

I am not smart. I am not good looking. I am not talented in anything at all.

I really am useless.

I have classmates telling me, I can’t do anything right; leaving me out of the social life. No matter how hard I tried to fit in, I end up seeing pitch black of nothing, my existence shouldn’t exist in the first place.

I have read a numerous amount of quotes motivating me to never give up, to rise above the ones bringing you down,

to this day I am still waiting on my rise, but i still feel the empty void that never seems to end. When will it end. Please.

As I am typing this, how far does sadness consume the innocence of many? I am at an end. I am lonely.

Before I end this, I just wanted to say thank you mother, you have always been there for me, you always kept that smile that can ignite a beautiful flame. You dealt with my anger, to the point of hitting, you deserve better.