danger ahead

I wonder if i could hire a hitman.Its not a plan or anything like that just curious.My friend has tried to kill herself recently and ive determined after therapy she wont be the same shell eventually be healthy with time.Im not upset about this its good that shell get the help.But i wont be of need anymore. my family will be able to pay bills and possibly move into a better home.I myself do not neccesarily want to die but i sense danger ahead that will destroy my sanity either way.I must escape.And no one will save me cause they never had any interest in saving me in the first place.I dont know when the tragedy will happen but i must preare either way wether two months from now or a year i must prepare myself