Well I’m 14 years old, my name is Elise. If I go from the start it will be the longest story ever so I won’t, but my dad left us for no reason at all about 2 years ago. We dont have any contact with him whatsoever, its been about 9 months now, my mum got sick and was in hospital for 3 months neither dad or his family looked after my sister and I during that time so we stayed with friends which was horrible.
This year I started self harming and am now considering suicide. I planned it and all, I see a counsellor about it but Im just so down all the time! And I feel like I want to quit, I cry myself to sleep every night and pretend Im happy everyday. Theres alot more to my story then I have said but Im depressed and I just dont know what to do! 🙁
My thoughts scare me and I dont understand anymore.
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I understand where your cominq from.I used to have some horrible horrible thouqhts.I’m qlad there qone but I’m scared there qonna come back.
Just remember to find a reason to smile everyday,even If It’s fake.Just know that the SP Is always qonna be here for you!
I’m going to be honest with you Elise, I stopped reading when I saw that you were 14. But heres why, your life might seem bad now, but you still have ALOT of life to live. Fight through the pain, I promise, there is a greater reward out there for you.
Have you seen a doctor or professional about this at all yet ?
Hey Elise.
I’m sorry that your dad left you.
But you shouldn’t really kill yourself because of it.
I’m also wondering – what does your username “Heismylife” mean?
Is it about your boyfriend maybe?
Tell us more about it.
@ Tempman… Thanks for the honesty. It’s very refreshing
hi im 14 too. i dont like the fact when someone tells me i dont have real problems. thanks for sharing your story, cos i feel welcomed, knowing someone my age feels like me. like @tempman said, there is a greater reward out there for you. what keeps me going sometimes, is my hobbies. music, especially sad music, allows me to escape. i play piano and violin, and when i think about times tht allow me to just sit with my instrument and make music, i dont feel sad anymore. I would never ever ever perform self harm infront of my piano, because i cannot sit infront of it, without playing it. i know we’re both on the same level, but maybe if you have something you like doing, that could be your escape. even though sometimes i’m on the edge of life, i want to leave, i think about how beautiful it will be to establish a life, with just my hobby. i hope you can understand where i’m coming from. maybe art, or literature, maybe sport, or just listening to music, will leave you feeling better with a reason. you should find something you like to do, and everytime you feel like self harm, go out there and do this. i’m only here because of music. thats my escape.
because i have no friends at school, during lunch i just sit in a music room and play piano.
whenever your feeling sad, go to your hobby.
I also stopped reading when I learned you were 14 and completely agree with Tempman.