Instead of trying to achive something I rather smoke weed and not think about anything. I dont even know what I’m afraid of. People. I’m pathetic.
I told myself I would work since I have about 1000 euro in Debt. Instead I’m just sitting here, numb. Not wanting to do anything. Im fucking pathetic.
I was supposed to start my new job next week. I called and emailed them. No response. Im guessing they dont want me anymore. Must be because I’m ugly as fuck.
I feel betrayed by someone I miss deeply. I hate it when people dissapear, without any clue. Id rather have someone telling me what the fuck I did wrong. He probably felt it was not worth it.
You’d think you’d get used to people doing that. You really would think that. How many times has this happened now? I dont even know. I lost count. Fuck why am I so pathetic.
Now that I have been so close to actually jumping. It feels even more fucked that I did not do it. I stood there. I was ready. Why the fuck did I waste all that time by standing there. Im pathetic as fuck.
Fuck.
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yoh dude, do not feel down about this stuff. Just be patient with your job offer, it always takes time for people to think.
all people are like that, to me, they always fricking disappear on you ever time your about to say something to them. I’ve accepted that. probably because I’m pathetic too.
in fact, we’re all pathetic in a way, but in consequence of being pathetic, there muust be soemthign you r interestes you, or something u dedicate urself to. even if it’s soemthing little.