1. I am healthy.
2. I eat well.
3. I sleep well.
4. I have a very small social group around me. Very small, but they lift my mood. They make me laugh. They make me enjoy. I do not have a family, or love, but that is okay.
5. I am going to college soon. There is a long path stretching ahead. It may be dark and twisting, but at least it is not a dead end.
Even though recently I have been feeling a bit sad. I just realize how people have boyfriends and girlfriends, how people can fall in love, make life meaningful. How people have parents, families. Whilst I will remain alone forever. My childhood was lonely, my teenage years sorrowful, and my future will still be lonely.
It is like when God made the lover pairing list, he forgot to include my name.
I am just a filthy girl who have tried to kill myself many times…
It’s not much, but I will survive.
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Always remember the things you want to live for. Good idea to write them down here… I know you’ll survive it 🙂